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TraumFrost Report | 06/04/2026 11:04 pm

Just dropping a hi ☺️☺️ — hope you had a good day!

Starboys Inc Report | 06/02/2026 12:24 am

Please don't feel any pressure to respond quickly! Time completely blurs together for me lately; I honestly don't know what day it is, and I don't even care to look. Because I'm out of my 150mg Trazodone, I haven't been able to sleep. My 50mg Hydroxyzine just doesn't put me to sleep on its own. I've been awake for a couple of days now and have entirely lost track of time. The last time I rested, I only got about four hours of sleep, but I can't even recall when that was.On the bright side, I did try playing COD Zombies again! It was so much fun. I am incredibly bad at it, but I don't care at all—I just love shooting the zombies. My boyfriend completely cracks up at me and jokes about having to carry the team since it's just the two of us playing. Whatever, it's still a blast, and you can't let the good players beat you down! My brain is total mush right now, so I kept running my character straight into walls and screeching loudly when the zombies killed my dude. I even managed to blow myself up somehow! It was just fun messing around and getting to play again. Normally, I would get so tense and irritated if I couldn't control the character right, but tonight it was just pure fun.Hearing about Yu-Gi-Oh! Duel Links sounds cool, too. Is that a phone app? I keep a few games on my phone to distract my brain from intrusive thoughts, like Clash of Clans (which I've almost maxed out, though I haven't played in a bit), Fate/Grand Order (a grinding MMO-type game where you level up characters and upgrade skills), and some crossword puzzles. I also used to have a Walking Dead game where you build a camp and venture out to kill zombies for loot. It was fun, but it got a bit stale after a while.Opening up to people is just really tough. There is never a guarantee that they will actually believe you, and that uncertainty makes me want to keep my mask firmly in place. It takes so much emotional energy to tear it down and put it back up. Nothing ever feels truly genuine, and I've already gone through so much bullshit in life. It is such a pain in the a** to constantly have to retell your story, especially when there are parts of it you can't even remember.
I am so glad you have a trusted therapist you can talk to. I really wish I could see my own therapist more than once a week! It’s so great to talk to someone who only offers positive tips to help you out; it's honestly so nice, even if you have to go through a bunch of different therapists just to find the one you're most comfortable with.Also, sorry for the essays! TL;DR: I've been told my yapping is too much, and I've literally been blocked before just for yapping on and on, LOL.On another note, clowns absolutely creep me out. I actually cannot take a shower alone because I feel like clowns live in my ******** tub and I hallucinate them trying to kill me etc not getting into details about that.. . I think about this nightmare I had years ago all the time. It is so funny to me how I can vividly recall random s**t like that, but I can't remember a lot of my actual memories, LOLLOL.

l-austin aka virus-l Report | 05/21/2026 7:39 pm

Fk that lol

l-austin aka virus-l Report | 05/21/2026 7:37 pm

They have it now where its all sorted out

l-austin aka virus-l Report | 05/21/2026 7:34 pm

Lmao.crazy work

l-austin aka virus-l Report | 05/21/2026 7:01 pm

I use have one

l-austin aka virus-l Report | 05/21/2026 5:44 pm

Lol i thought about making a mule

l-austin aka virus-l Report | 05/21/2026 5:42 pm

Oh i was like who dis

l-austin aka virus-l Report | 05/21/2026 3:50 pm

U r ??

Starboys Inc Report | 05/19/2026 11:26 pm

** just noticed this isn’t the font I used in that other comment I made oops 😬
My bad buddy!! >_<