My Happy Place

Word Power:

You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend
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There's no point in writing something if you're not going to annoy someone.
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God, I dreamed there was an angel
Who could hear me through the wall
As I cried out like in Latin "This is so not life at all.
Help me out, out of this nightmare."
Then I heard her silver call.
She said "Just give it time, kid.
I come to one and all."

She said "Give me that hand, please.
And the itch you can't control.
Let me teach you how to handle all the sadness in your soul.
Oh, we'll work that silver magic, then we'll aim it at the wall."
She said, "Love may make you blind, kid,
But I wouldn't mind at all."
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In the blink of an eye, you might suddenly feel
That your world's been invaded by all things unreal.
They slink up behind you, and don't make a sound,
But there's nothing to fear . . . if you don't turn around.

In the pit of your stomach there rests a device
That can calculate how fast your blood turns to ice;
It measures the temperatures nightmares will start,
Then divides it by beats of a terrified heart.

At the foot of your bed lies a blanket of fear,
You might think it's quite safe, but it's always quite near.
When its steel-woolen quilting wraps 'round you one night,
You may learn that it's not only bedbugs that bite.

At the top of the stairs there's an attic I've found,
That remained even after the house was torn down,
And it's filled with the cobwebs of lonely old dreams,
Which have grown into nightmares that swing from the beams.

At the mouth of a cave lies a shadow of doubt,
If you dare to go in, will you ever come out?
Are there creatures who lurk where it's too dim to see?
Can you hear when they move? Are you scared yet? (Who, me?)

At the edge of the earth flows a river of fear,
And it pours into space day by day, year by year.
As you shoot the cold rapids, and stray far from shore,
So you notice your lifeboat has just lost an oar?

In the eye of the storm stands a ghost of a chance,
And around her all spirits are destined to dance.
She turns a cold gaze toward an unlucky few-
Don't dare to look now, for she's staring at you.

At the edge of the world stands a giant steel door,
And what lies behind it, nobody's quite sure . . .
Is it crystal-clear heavens, or night blazing hot,
And which is more frightening: knowing, or not?

In the face of the future we fly on our own,
Hoping our wings never turn to stone
If you wall from that sky to the sea, will you drown?
Well, there's no need to worry . . . unless you look down.

At the back of your mind, there's a hole open wide,
Where the darkness is creeping in from the outside,
You can light rows of candles to cast the dark out,
But it's always there hiding . . .
. . . in shadows of doubt.
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Some say the world will end in fire
And some say in ice
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire
But if it had to perish twice
I think I know enough of hate
To say that, for destruction, ice
Is also great
And would suffice.
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If I never knew you
If I never felt this love
I would have no inkling of
How precious life can be
And if I never held you
I would never have a clue
How at last I'd find in you
The missing part of me
In this world so full of fear
Full of rage and lies
I can see the truth so clear
In your eyes
So dry your eyes
And I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Lost forever
If I never knew you
If I never knew you
I'd be safe but half as real
Never knowing I could feel
A love so strong and true
I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Lost forever
If I never knew you
I thought our love would be so beautiful
Somehow we made the whole world bright
I never knew that fear and hate could be so strong
All they'd leave us with these whispers in the night
But still my heart is singing
We were right
If I never knew you
If I never knew this love
I would have no inkling of
How precious life can be
There's no moment I regret
Since the moment that we met
If our time has gone too fast
I've lived at last...
I thought our love would be so beautiful
Somehow we'd make the whole world bright
I thought our love would be so beautiful
We'd turn the darkness into light
And still my heart is saying
We were right
We were right
And If I never knew you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Empty as the sky
Never knowing why
Lost forever
If I never knew you
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“I hear there are great restaurants out west.”

“Some of the best. How could she?”

“How could you let her go?”

“You just don’t know. How could we lose Angel?”

“Maybe you’ll see why when you stop escaping your pain. At least now if you try, Angel’s death won’t be in vain.”

“His death is in vain!”

“Are you insane? There’s so much to care about! There’s me, there’s Mimi.”

“Mimi’s got her baggage too.”

“So do you!”

“Who are you to tell me what I know, what to do?”

“A friend.”

“But who, Mark, are you? ‘Mark has got his work,’ they say ‘Mark lives for his work’ and ‘Mark’s in love with his work.’ Mark hides in his work.”

“From what?”

“From facing your failure, facing your loneliness, facing the fact you live a lie. Yes, you live a lie! Tell you why- you’re always preaching not to be numb when that’s how you thrive. You pretend to create and observe when you really detach from feeling alive.”

“Perhaps it’s because I’m the one of us to survive!”

“Poor baby.”

“Mimi still loves you. Are you really jealous, or afraid that Mimi’s weak?”

“Mimi did look pale . . .”

“Mimi’s gotten thin. Mimi’s running out of time, and you’re running out the door-”

“No more! I’ve gotta go.”

“Hey! For somebody who’s always been let down, who’s heading out of town?”

“For someone who longs for a community of his own, who’s with his camera? Alone? I’ll call. I hate the fall.”