MY HATREDS MY ANGER MY SORROW MY SADNESS MY LIFE!!!!!

about me about what about me..... My name is Justin Cannistra and i am 15 years old and i am a very strange person unless you get to know me and heres a little bit. I gusse you can say im diffrent diffrent from everyone diffrent from the people who think there all that. I have a girlfriend and and a semi disfunctional family where everyday no matter whats happeneing that day, is a battlefeild. I am a writer i think theres something wrong with me though something effecting my sanity, and i rp a bit if its a good one i will join in it. Also you can see i love to rant, i dont i love expressing myself which i guess you can call ranting but yea theres some fo them below.

My heart will always be with my grandma though....
she died last year april 1st 2007
i miss her dearly and she was a big part of my life that i wish i could get back
but alzhimers took her away from me and ill never have my moments with here back
the only thing that i wish i could do is go back in time and say GOOD BYE GRANDMA I LOVE YOU
but i didnt i was to folish to do it and to scared of fate and now i pay the price for my slacking deeds so now i carry around this card in my wallet as a reminder of my fate for the rest of my life....

THE DARKER RANTING PART OF ME if you do not like violent words or people speaking there minds stay away from this part

my hates and dislikes go here and plus things about people who hate me.

This one goes out to the men and woman in the army, nazy, mariens, and all the other things out there (( i love you guys and all who are out there fighting for us and keep us safe but this must be said )). You keep us safe and for what for others to completly neglect what you do, even though you are strong and stop ever little things from getting to our country. ALso finding and killing all those terrorists out there who want to do anything to us. BUT theres hundreds no thousands of ******** americans who kill each other on our on soil and get away with it. MOthers who drown there babies from crying, fathers who beat and rape there children, not to menchin all the suicides. IF we were suppose to do anything with out army why not keep there here and fight off everyone from killing each other because it wont stop anytime soon and there is nothing normal people can do to stop it.

I hate it when no one knows you or remebers you, because even if you are like liked by a s**t load of people who hang out with you do you think they care? I think it isent worth even exsisting if no one rembers you even on a special day like a birthday or anything else. Because it just rips you up in on your insides because no one likes not being reembered on a birthday even if people did say happy birthday you needed to remind them or you needed to have others remind them. im tired of it if i tell you and you dont remember try and not to mench it to me cause then it just makes the person feel bad. i wish i wasent like that.....

I HATE fighting its not right any more and it needs to stop cause im tired of being so bundled up that i cant set my self free. I keep trying to help people and help them understand who i am but they shove back at me and LUAGH AT ME. TO ALL THOSE GOD DAMN PEOPLE GO TO GOD DAM HELL CAUSE IM TIRED OF YOU AND IM TIRED OF BLEEDING INSIDE FOR YOU. SO LEAVE ME ALONE AND IF YOU MAKE FUN OF ME FOR EXPRESSING MYSELF GO TO HELL!!

I HATE PROFILERs they always put people into social groups like OMFG HES EMO OR SHES GOTH OR THAT KID IS GAY its pisses me off so god dam bad and also what the ******** are they thiknig when jsut because people were diffrent ******** clothing there a diffrent ******** person ITS NO ******** RIGHT AT ALL!

I hate keeping secrets, they only hurt you and if you tell them they hurt others if you tell someone. things that arent suppose to be said should only be kept to your self dont tell your friends and dont tell your family. Cause if they slip up your a** is grass and you are a luaghing stalk or a pining board or accused for something that you didnt even have. the secrest should always be a secret no matter who you want to tell and that if you bring someone into it that they absolutly have nothing left to lvie for.

I HATE all those inconciderate people out there who wouldnt give a flying ******** if you jumped off a building shot your self or took a bullet for someone...... the moral demoner in this world is gone and people woulding care if you saved there life or helped them out or died for them or LOVED THEM SO GOD DAM HARD THAT WHEN THEY DONT KNOW WHO YOU ARE OR DONT REMEBER YOU.....it breaks your heart and shatters your world the world were you have done good deeds for others who just needed help or others that cant do it them selves.

next one is i hate people who ******** try to run my life cause if commted suicide right now only people at my funeral would be my family all my friends would forsake me thats how much they dont like me. But people who try to control me are just wasteing there time cause i dont follow peoples EWWW CHANGE HOW YOU ARE CAUSE YOUR EMO OR I DONT LIKE WHAT YOUR DOING TO YOURSELF so STFU I DONT WANA HEAR IT.

IT annoys me that every day i need to go to school and put up walls from me and the outside cause when people talk to me its always an insult or something, i dont wana hear it isent there a day were i can go to school have a good time and not have to have a brick wall surronding me and my feelings and my inner depth secrets????

I hate pot heads and druggys, they piss me off cause hey im gona smoke infront of you or im gona be your older brother and smoke s**t and ******** up my life and my familys life, it just destroys peoples lifes and peoples dreams hopes and happiness why do people do it though, BECAUSE OF SOME STUPID 10 MINUTE HIGH THAT DOSENT EVEN MATTER UNTILL YOUR DEAD OF CANCER OR OVER DOSE. THESE PEOPLE PISS ME OFF CAUSE ITS ALL AROUND THE WORLD THIS IS HAPPENEING PEOPLE ARE DIEING EVER GOD DAMN DAY and for what for drugs that ruin lifes and hurts everyone around theres change but you have to make it happene you have to make it stop no one else will ONLY YOU........ so now for all the ones who read this and report me think about your life think hard cause this could be yours its mine and it can happpen to you LIKE THAT!!!!!