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Wooooo. I deleted it all yet again! Just t restart it all cuz I am hella bored. lolWell. Me and Matt (My future husband/18yr old) broke up, after 7MONTHS because some people threatened to call the cops no him if we didnt break up because they hate him. And well. Yea. It sucks a** cuz I cant hold my baby in my arms... but thats ok. For a....reason.... that nobody knows.... -cough- =S Agh. Now im depressed Dx
I HATE getting randomly depressified. I tried to kill myself once. I am, indeed, just a bit suicidal. Oh well. Who cares. It sucks cuz people have proof cuz of the scars all over my arms. >.< I have a few scars on my legs, but those are tire-burn scars from bike crashes. Hehe I miss summer... running around in flip flops.... bikinis...shorts...tank tops... and not having to worry about the cold! OMG I cant wait. Rawr. PENGUINS! Rawr? So guess what. I go through to much s**t to deserve to live anymore. I have no happiness left in my body to share, cuz everyone drains it out of me. m just a lifeless corpse that everyone uses as a puppet. I dont do drugs, or drink, or smoke. And I NEVER plan to. I honestly dont know why Im still living. Maybe its the motivation of.... the future. Thats all I can say. I wouldnt DARE cut... now. Or at least for a while until I decide WHAT THE ******** IS GOING ON! lol ARGH. Yes, I have emergency plans for... things just in case they happen. Like you could ask me something like, "What would you do if -thinks 'hmmmm'- your.... mother died?" My answer: "Depends. I have many mothers. Which one?" "Your birth mother, DUH" "Nothing probably. I might cry. But idk. Sh was never there for me, so why would I care? She abandoned me when I was six. Do I give a ******** anymore? No. I dont. Im sorry but I dont." "Thats harsh. What about your dad?" "-evil grin- Id cry... a joyful shreik of Happiness. And be like WOOOO!!" "?" "Eh. Either A) I killed him. Or paid someone to kill him, or B) He died of overdose, or alcohol problems, or heart failure. Hahahaha" "Thats hash, dude. Im done talking to you... -walks away-" "Bye!"
That was me talking to myself xD
Yes, I know, im insane.
Muahahahahahahahaha
-poof-
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