dammit......I don't know what's next......and I came on 2 minutes after you logged off.....wtf......I don't know what to say anymore......it's like.....whatever I'll say, you'd deafen me out.......and not listen.....that's what I expect you to do after how you see me as now.....
I can change over a long period of time, or I can change in a matter of an instant......and it depends on my motivation and who I change for......and in this case, I'm quite stuck inbetween -- I'll do anything for you....and.....yet....I just can't seem to because of my ******** up attitude......and I understand if you don't want me back........since....that's how you see me as now......that just hurt me reading all of that, all the messages you left, and you'll be surprised that I didn't cry reading those.....well, not right away, that is....those tears should've spilt out if I hadn't kept them in....I was hoping you wouldn't say anything worse.......I was hoping you'd be taking it back.......but no.......I realized that I don't think you will.....a person's perception......no one can change that......and as a useless mortal, I am practically of no use to the Lord of Demons......but whatever.....I'm just gonna.....I don't know......I can't talk to anyone else.............................and I don't want to talk to anyone not unless it's you..........and that's just a ******** up line, but that's what it ******** up........just like the two of us, but you're just worse......not in a negative way though.........and I don't know why you keep on thinking this -- I can't blame you......but.....owtf...I'll just write this all down in my journal......
Yeah...and now that it's finally Friday, I can sleep...then wake up at about 8:30, then wait until 10 for you later tonight..^^ and then I can stay up all I want.....whoooooo...^^ But I'm still sick...T^T But I'll be alright..~.^
*hugs and holds onto you* yeah...^.^,it is sooo ******** awesome....the best, ^^ I dont know what to say,everything I have and want to say is all going to be said in IM's ^^,but I'll leave a few Comments here and there ^^
Yeah, it pretty much is...but I just don't seem to understand why I feel so happy...and yet...I just...I don't know how to express how I feel...I mean...I'm in my apathetic state right now...[out of all times..-.-]
And yeah...*hugs you tight* I love you too...and this is just so...unbelievably awesome...^^
this is so insane..........its like,the experience of a life time.......which it is....and I love you Mary,nothing is going to change that,and Its been one hell of a long time since we've actually left a comment on each others Profile..^.^
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