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A good way to <font color="#CC0000">die</font> would be to <font color="#CC0000">die</font> in your sleep. I'm thinking I wanna <font color="#CC0000">die</font> before I get old and gray. Yeah, I have deep fears of growing <font color="9900FF">old</font> (and needles, and clowns). I don't want to lose the little <font color="99FFCC">beauty</font> I have at the moment. So, I'm going to have to go out on my terms.
I can't tell you my little plan, I probably won't do it. I'll end up having kids and not doing a damn thing to end myself early. Then I will just have to get old and gray.
That is one of my ambitions though, to have children. With the right man. I've been through so many wrong ones. It's really kinda sad. I would rather go through one million heart breaks then get tied to the wrong one. I fear marriage though.
I've been proposed to twice, and both times I screamed RUN. It scares the hell out of me. Why are men so....agggg. They won't take a hint. I got so pissed when they asked again, I guess the "RUNNNNN!!!!" didn't tell them no. Or hell no either. That's what it meant.