Unfortunately....."Me"

You can find me on Vampirefreaks, Deviant Art, and Myspace just ask..

Hello viewer of my profile. There are a few things to be familiar with in knowing me. First and foremost my name is Jacob Swann. I'm 80% Italian and 20% unknown. I'm in the 10th grade. I try to make the best of where I'm living in every way but most of the time I fail to do so which leads to my anger and doubt. I'm extreamly smart when it come to hiding my emotions. I'm not very open unless I actually know you. I'm very artistic; I love drawing, oilpainting, and writing music. I love getting lost in my work to forget reality. I'm an elitist so I'm always right and I do not care about anyones opinion towards me. I always get laughed at for being for myself, but I don't care. I think so differently from everyone else that no one really knows whats going on in my head. I consider other people and other beings and even other minds with everything that I do. So, you wont see me parading around demanding attention. In fact, I've learned that I hate the actions of people at my school, and would much much rather be left alone. I am myself and nothing can change me. I have been on this earth for 16 years now. In my opinion I am very intelligent. Educating myself is my number one goal in life. I have some tolerance for ignorance to an extent.I find it very intriguing talking to new people so send me a message or comment, especially if you share any of my interests, because I have very little friends, but don't leave anything pointless and not worth reading. I am currently in love with my beautiful, intelligent, wife, Royia Noori, and hope to start a life with her in Ontario, Canada after I graduate college with a master's degree in computer networking. I can not live without her, she has changed my outlook on life completely, and has taught me a lot of new things in the past 6 months in getting to know her. I really couldn't leave her, I have made a commitment to myself and I will not let Oliver down or myself. I really actually love her with all my heart, not that thing down there. She will always be in my thoughts and in my heart. I would lay down my life for her any second of the day and I promise that's not a lie. I will protect her at all costs and make sure she is ok. It was her that taught me the true meaning of love and I will put the meaning to good use. Even though we live so far away it's amazing how love can go across so many inches, yards, miles, countries and across the world. You're probably setting here thinking, "eventually he is going to give up on her", I'm here to tell you I'm not, I really do not have any interest in your doubts in my relationship, worry about yourself. I truly have a chain rapped around my heart and mind and it's welded shut so no one or nothing but Royia can enter.

























Wow, where do I begin? You are, without a doubt, the most amazing girl I've ever met. I never thought that I could be lucky enough to have someone like you. I need you with me, I want you with me, and I can't be without you (as cliche as that sounds). I don't know how I ever survived without you, but I know I never want to have to do it again. I want to fall asleep in your arms every night, and wake up next to you every single morning for the rest of my life. I want to be able to hold you any time you're scared and assure you that everything will be okay. I want a 'happy ever after', and I know that I can have that with you. I promise, I'll never let anything bad happen you. I promise that I'll never hurt you, or abandon you. With every day that passes, I fall in love with you all over again.

More facts..

I do not know who and what I am yet,
I go through phases every day.
I'm a major geek/nerd.
I'm always paranoid and I always feel like I'm getting shot at when I hear fireworks, I do not know why.
I am a vocalist in a straight up hardcore band called MistakesMade, that is gradually getting somewhere, we are still writing music.
I love different types of music : Industrial, Harsh E.B.M, Powernoise, Deathcore, Hardcore, Post-Punk, Punk, Classical Instumental, just any type music involving war, killing, dissmemberment, apocalypse, music in different languages(German & ☭Russian☭) , Soldiers, Militarism, Fighting, Robots, Cyborgs, Aliens, you get the point.
I love watching T.V and movies.
I used to skate,
I relax by drinking coffee or tea(hot) and reading books or listening to music.
I run to keep in shape.
I love the PS3 and I will hopefully get a new one because I cant live without Killzone2, MWF2, and Fallout3 and NewVegas which are my favorite video games(Don't ask what happened to it).
I usually like to go to local hardcore shows to get my anger and emotions out in the pit, you can usually find me at the these two hardcore venues; The Firehouse or Fivepoints Music Hall in Birmingham AL.
I want to go to an industrial show but unfortunately I live in a redneck, conservative state so they will not allow Industrial bands because they are, "the devil" haha, but they still allow Carnifex, Oceano, and Whitechapel to play shows here, I have no idea why, its a sick world we live in these days.
Accept me for who I am and we will get along just fine, and remember I'm the guy that ....has ups, has downs, is very shy, hates his life style, always looks pissed, always in dark clothing, always wears a jacket(even in the summer) hates where he lives, hates the mainstream, hates pop-culture, hates southern american-culture, sleeps during the day while awake, always feels sick, always has a head-ache, is awake at night while asleep, always has low self-esteem, still a kid, is still finding himself, goes to school on the week-days, used to have a cold heart, plans his days, meditates, thinks before he speaks, has written this on paper, O.C.D about his grades, O.C.D about himself, somewhat caring, somewhat self-ish, is different from everyone else, hates people that try to force opinions on him(oh, wait, he does that), hates fast-food but consumes it anyways, freaks others out, does not care what anyone else thinks about him, rarely smiles, has dark circles under his eyes all the time, very pessimistic, has constant mood-swings, wanted to be born in the future, wants to live on another planet, is a decendant of alien-lifeforms far, far, away......

Music I love

Mistakes Made(My Band),
Nachtmahr,
Grendel,
Jet,
The Cure,
Crüxshadows,
Cloud Cult,
Rotersand,
Bob Marley,
EarthWorm,
Keep Your Guard,
Underoath,
Uberbyte,
Funker Vogt,
Ceremony,
Have Heart,
Leather Strip,
Oceano,
Lamb Of God,
August Burns Red,
Upheaval Of An Exorcist,
Fader Head,
Front 242,
As I lay Dying,
I Ate Everybody,
BlackFlag,
The Ramones,
Angel Spit,
The Birthday Massacre,
Assemblage 23,
I Am Terrified,
Inhale/Exhale,
Suffocate,
Beneath The Massacre,
Despised Icon,
Nirvana,
Emmure,
Winds Of Plague,
Parkway Drive,
Every Time I Die,
Dimmu Borgir,
Cradle Of Filth,
My Children My Bride,
Whitechapel,
A.F.I,
Impending Doom,
Amduscia,
Combichrist,
Chelsea Grin,
As Blood Runs Black,
London After Midnight,
Mindless Self Indulgence,
Suicide Commando,
Life Cried,
Bermuda,
We Are The End,
Unter Null,
Razed In Black,
Gidoen,
Suicide Silence,
Nine Inch Nails,
All In,
ForToday,
Rammstein,
Psyclon Nine,
Aesthetic Perfection,
Saosin,
Him,
69Eyes,
Panzer AG,
Panzer Division,
We Are Now Awake,
Distatix,
Noisuf-X,
Many other bands...