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 Posted: Wed Jul 18, 2007 3:55 pm
lets just start this off now. this is simply an outlet for my frustrations feel free to post as you feel the urge and ask questions if you wish but this is some thing that wearing me down and well I need to get it off my chest.
my name is chelsie and Well I recently got some rather disturbing news from my brother that has kind of sent me into a bit of a downward spiral. my brother is a recovering Meth/Crank/Pot addict and has escaped form jail on a work release and now is hiding out form the cops and trying to get sober while in rehab ( although I think it’s a bunch of B.S. because he was told that the cop wont put him back in jail un till he is done with rehab ) well right now he is at the step in NA were he is trying to say sorry for everything he has done wrong to the people he loves and cares about . Well I was part of that list, and when he got to me I was shocked to say the least. I was expecting the usual… I’m sorry for picking on you…I’m sorry for calling you names… I’m sorry for being mean to your friends and ect. He got through all that just fine and then asked me if I was sitting down because he had some thing huge he had to apologize for. And that when he told me that he had molested me for a few years when I was little. I didn’t remember this I was far to young and well my brother was my rock my hero why would he do that to me he was my favorite sibling, he was the coolest person I knew. I felt shattered dirt used and well worthless. I wanted to die I couldn’t imagine why someone, no not just some one my brother my own flesh and blood would do that to me after all we had been through after the life we lived after all the crap we had been through together. I wish That he would have never told me would have never said a word. Shortly after finding out this information my step dad and I got into a pushing match and I decided to run away form home figuring I could make it on my own just fine. I crashed at a friend house the first night and well That worked out lovely her mom called the cops on me and well I retaliated by taking around 50 lithuims and trying to kill my self The cops arrived and took me to the hospital after I told them what happened and said I needed to get my stomach pumped and stay 24 hours in the hospital for an evaluation. Fun. Fun. Shortly before my trip to the hospital I made a runaway pact with the girl I had stayed with she wanted out for various reason and I was going to get her out I made her that promise we made a promise that we wouldn’t leave each other behind
After being stabbed with 23 needles, having a tube stuck down my nose, all the constant vomiting and seeing my mother cry way to much I released from the hospital into my mothers custody and was told to meet with a life wise consular. It all went well and I did as I was told well except for meeting with the people at life wise and went on as normal tell when Wednesday nite rolled around and the same girl I made the pact with came knocking at my door said pack your stuff and lets go. I packed up and left made I up to Washington and then the cops caught us and are charging us with all kinds of stuff so now that you got the bare knowledge I ask am I just being angst or what ?
Help me out ! by the way there is alot more to the story but Im a slow typer and well my brain hurts as it is so if your confused or whatever us ask and i'll get back to us as soon as possible
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Posted: Sat Jul 21, 2007 11:56 am
I guess I just wanted to post to say I listened and I'll pray.
Are you back at home now?
I can't really tell you what to do, because I'm suprised you've been this restrained, to be honest. Things will get better if you hang on, but it'll probably be pretty damn s**t until they do. Seriously. It will be utter crap but it will get better. And there is nothing more important right now than sorting yourself out and getting yourself happier. That might mean leaving home for a bit, or it might mean counselling (I dunno about how health works in the US, so I don't know if that's really an option or not). If you're this stressed, getting checked out by your doctor could really help, and obviously you've started this, but you will really have to stick to whatever the hell the medical people want you to do. Yeah, you need to sort other stuff out as well, but maybe a break from everything could help?
I dunno...I'm naff at this.
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Posted: Tue Jul 24, 2007 3:21 pm
Nemithena I guess I just wanted to post to say I listened and I'll pray.
Are you back at home now?
I can't really tell you what to do, because I'm suprised you've been this restrained, to be honest. Things will get better if you hang on, but it'll probably be pretty damn s**t until they do. Seriously. It will be utter crap but it will get better. And there is nothing more important right now than sorting yourself out and getting yourself happier. That might mean leaving home for a bit, or it might mean counselling (I dunno about how health works in the US, so I don't know if that's really an option or not). If you're this stressed, getting checked out by your doctor could really help, and obviously you've started this, but you will really have to stick to whatever the hell the medical people want you to do. Yeah, you need to sort other stuff out as well, but maybe a break from everything could help?
I dunno...I'm naff at this.
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Posted: Thu Aug 16, 2007 12:37 pm
I really wish your brother hadn't told you...i wouldn't want to know i was never molested but i can kinda relate (if you pm me we can talk about it). I think your brother should be in for life just in case he ever has the urge again. I know how scary it is to find out someone you know is a child molester. I'm sorry you had to find that out in the worst way. I take Lithium and i've almost downed meds but luckily for me i freaked and spit most of them out, the cops don't care though i still got 16 days 1 in the regular hospital and 15 in the mental hospital(my 2nd time there BTW). I remember planning escapes..though security was tight and they really weren't an option. Its not angst! You have a right to be angry but i'm REALLY NOT the person to give advice on that stuff. I am very angry its not doing good but i am stubborn and i won't let things go EVER. But like i said its not a good thing to be that way..you are very unhappy a lot and people are always misdiagnosing me as bi-polar because of it. That is not fun. (BTW as long as you aren't hearing voices DON"T EVER LET THEM GIVE YOU SERAQUILL!!! It literally almost killed me and i was secretly only taking half of what they were giving me if i hadn't trusted my instincts an cheecked half I WOULD BE DEAD!) i don't know if that will ever apply to you but you've been through enough so i just wanted to make sure.
anyway good luck! I'd be happy to talk if you want..you seem like my kinda people wink
pirate
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