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Don't ask me why I changed my sn, it's from a song. i'll change it back eventually. I'm just being weird right now. 4laugh

Alaska

The second girl
caught up to him. That's me.
He said he liked the sadness
billed in the hue on my fingernails,
so I placed my palm on top
and curled my fingers around the fist.
We strolled together
like sophisticated schoolchildren.

Some nights we'd roast marshmallows,
but looking at his face, you'd think it was guano.
I'd buy us Revels
and scrape the chocolate off his,
but I was usually sweet-talked into eating the ice cream core, too.
He would salvage the sticks
for our Aboriginal style fort,
made mostly of ice rectangles:
blocks of snow, frozen overnight
by a steady supply from my distant fountain.
Him and I'd always fight playfully over the throne,
then wind up sitting on it together,
just so long as he could wash our babies
in his urine and spit.

But before they came,
a caribou knocked our house down.
I was mad. We had to go.
When we left, he believed I'd be traveling lame,
and yet I walked beside him.
When the docile deer slipped, there were never any arms out,
because a dizzy white fox slipped
a needle into mine
when I wasn't looking.

I'd listen to B.B. King when I was alone,
because that guy had diabetes.
And my man had proclaimed he didn't like the lichen sap
inside me.
I didn't want to be as him,
so didn't want to reject people, didn't wanna be a hypocrite.
I guess the music was alright, too.
But then the TV stopped working -- B.B.'s endorsements ended.

I always hoped the second girl
would catch up to the first, in time,
but I don't want to see my family growing
when I look to the tundra.
That man doesn't know
just how many times
I've reached for my
sweet, steel Alaskan
nailclipper.