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 Posted: Sun Mar 25, 2007 11:48 am
I thought it be nice to let everyone here know that we're like a [family] and that if ever there's something bothering you, I, and I'm sure [other] people are glad to help! Yes, it's sort of like that [kids help phone] but we're not forcing you. I just know I've been going through a few things lately, and I just don't want others to feel alone, left out, useless or any other negative feeling. Need a lending hand? Well, I know I'd be glad to help you out! wink
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Posted: Sun Mar 25, 2007 5:49 pm
Liar Intestines[x] I just know I've been going through a few things lately
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Posted: Mon Apr 02, 2007 6:21 pm
fat-n-happy Liar Intestines[x] I just know I've been going through a few things lately Hehe. Well I guess it be good if I start off. Well, yeah. I haven't been on latetly because I've been getting, or feeling, messed up these past weeks. My grandmother just died, my mother just left for 3 weeks, I'm falling asleep in class more often, ntohing really matters in my life anymore, I'm feeling so confused, and so on.
All that matters right now, alot, is drawing, singing and writing. I don't want to have a futur, I don't want to go to college, I don't want to live. I just want to sit down and sleep forever.
Because I'm fed up. Living the same things everyday.
Or I am well, lazy.
I don't know.
But I get so lost easily.
And I'm still trying to figure out who I am and..
Damn.
I talk to much.
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Posted: Tue Apr 03, 2007 12:51 pm
Liar Intestines[x] fat-n-happy Liar Intestines[x] I just know I've been going through a few things lately Hehe. Well I guess it be good if I start off. Well, yeah. I haven't been on latetly because I've been getting, or feeling, messed up these past weeks. My grandmother just died, my mother just left for 3 weeks, I'm falling asleep in class more often, ntohing really matters in my life anymore, I'm feeling so confused, and so on.
All that matters right now, alot, is drawing, singing and writing. I don't want to have a futur, I don't want to go to college, I don't want to live. I just want to sit down and sleep forever.
Because I'm fed up. Living the same things everyday.
Or I am well, lazy.
I don't know.
But I get so lost easily.
And I'm still trying to figure out who I am and..
Damn.
I talk to much.
and the whole u just wanna sleep forever thing? ive been the same way since my dad started drinking (like 2 years ago) but i'd rather like crawl under a rock.
"all that matters right now, alot, is drawing, singing, and writing"
do people like your writing? whenever anyone writes around here, they get rejected by the whole school. since i write alot, i have like no friends...
sorry if it sounds like im making it a joke or something, but maybe you could do like gerard and write a great song (kind of like helena)
k, and im sorry if i made it out to be like your problems aren't as bad as mine - theyre worse. im not too good with the whole family dying thing, but i know how you feel when you say you dont want a future.
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Posted: Tue Apr 03, 2007 7:09 pm
fat-n-happy Liar Intestines[x] fat-n-happy Liar Intestines[x] I just know I've been going through a few things lately Hehe. Well I guess it be good if I start off. Well, yeah. I haven't been on latetly because I've been getting, or feeling, messed up these past weeks. My grandmother just died, my mother just left for 3 weeks, I'm falling asleep in class more often, ntohing really matters in my life anymore, I'm feeling so confused, and so on.
All that matters right now, alot, is drawing, singing and writing. I don't want to have a futur, I don't want to go to college, I don't want to live. I just want to sit down and sleep forever.
Because I'm fed up. Living the same things everyday.
Or I am well, lazy.
I don't know.
But I get so lost easily.
And I'm still trying to figure out who I am and..
Damn.
I talk to much.
and the whole u just wanna sleep forever thing? ive been the same way since my dad started drinking (like 2 years ago) but i'd rather like crawl under a rock.
"all that matters right now, alot, is drawing, singing, and writing"
do people like your writing? whenever anyone writes around here, they get rejected by the whole school. since i write alot, i have like no friends...
sorry if it sounds like im making it a joke or something, but maybe you could do like gerard and write a great song (kind of like helena)
k, and im sorry if i made it out to be like your problems aren't as bad as mine - theyre worse. im not too good with the whole family dying thing, but i know how you feel when you say you dont want a future. It's okay, at least you answred! That's good engouh, and I appreciate it. I have friends, but I keep having these dark feelings in my heart, like I want to push everyone and stab them with a fork. Yes, for, since I can't find a spork. Lame. I feel like everythign and everyone around is fake. But I do write. I write songs, and actually I feel like I'm getting better eversince MCR because it let me feel less afraid to express the deepest emotions. I write alot, but I don't know how good I am. I have a Livejournal. My LJI also draw alot, and I recently created a Deviantart page thingy. (In my siggy) Death isn't as fun, but I'm over it mostly, and faster than I expected. I guess it's the thoguht that she's in a better place that helps me. Your daddy drinks? Then that should be hard. Does he harm you in anyway or stuff? For some reason, I want to drink.. And I don't know why. Everyone who used to be so close to me here seems to be all into drugs. Liek my ex-best friend, but now I have no best friend. I wonder if I'll ever have any? And today I ruined my voice ('cause I still have a bad cold) singing non-stop my chemical romance, imagining I'm in front of a crowd.. I'd really love to sing for a crowd. Anything. As long as I sing, and deliver emotion. I like you. You're really nice. <333
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Posted: Thu Apr 05, 2007 7:25 am
I basically feel the same way as you Liar Intestines[x]...
It's just been my grandfather's firsty anniversary, which opened the wound up again. My grandfather and I are were so so so close. We stood by each other no matter what and when he first died, I could barely function. And now it's anniversary time...I feel s**t.
I can't sleep at night. And then I'll end up getting to sleep for like 2 hours and then I'll be so friggin tired the next day. Then it comes to night again and I can't sleep.
I never seem to understand things at school. There's tonnes of pressure on me, because my older brother went so well and everyone expects me to do the same. But I also just feel like singing, writing and photography. But then there's times where I feel like I'm s**t at them too.
I hate the people I go to school with. There's a total of four I can stand, and that's not even all the time. I hate the people I work with...especially the guy who keeps touching my arse and making comments about me.
I hate the routines....it's the same every single ******** day. Wake up at 6, go to school, not get anyone or anything, come home, either go for a jog or to work, do homework, stare at the wall trying to sleep, eventually sleep at 3-4ish and then over again.
The thing you said about sleeping forever????
Sounds great to me.
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Posted: Fri Apr 06, 2007 6:43 pm
emobitch611 I basically feel the same way as you Liar Intestines[x]... It's just been my grandfather's firsty anniversary, which opened the wound up again. My grandfather and I are were so so so close. We stood by each other no matter what and when he first died, I could barely function. And now it's anniversary time...I feel s**t. I can't sleep at night. And then I'll end up getting to sleep for like 2 hours and then I'll be so friggin tired the next day. Then it comes to night again and I can't sleep. I never seem to understand things at school. There's tonnes of pressure on me, because my older brother went so well and everyone expects me to do the same. But I also just feel like singing, writing and photography. But then there's times where I feel like I'm s**t at them too. I hate the people I go to school with. There's a total of four I can stand, and that's not even all the time. I hate the people I work with...especially the guy who keeps touching my arse and making comments about me. I hate the routines....it's the same every single ******** day. Wake up at 6, go to school, not get anyone or anything, come home, either go for a jog or to work, do homework, stare at the wall trying to sleep, eventually sleep at 3-4ish and then over again. The thing you said about sleeping forever???? Sounds great to me.
Today, a few hours back, I was reading a few journal entries that I posted in my old lj, and I was reading this post that said I wanted to be nothing. Well it said:
Quote: Sunday, September 17th, 2006. 5:49 pm - N O T H I N G . I'm trying to breath, but I'm having difficulties. And now I'm starting to wonder, why weren't you ever there for me? I keep getting s**t sent down my way, I have no clue how to push it all away.. Take me again, and turn me back to nothing, so I can feel the wind whisper in my ear & tell me everything will be okay.. Help me to stand my ground, to stand strong and to keep my head up. This way, I'll make it through, no matter what happens, no matter what they say. You were my friend to whom I could tell anything, but you're never around, so I speak to you in my mind. I daydream to see your face, but when the pain is too strong, I cry because you're not here. I wish I could see the world in a different point of view. So make me nothing so I can be everything to you. Once free of the negative thoughts, the lies and the pain, and nothing is left, let me be your everything, a new person in your eyes.. Destroy the hatred I've created. Destroy the hurt I've given to my soul. Take me away and turn me to nothing; nothing feels no pain, and it's as empty as your feelings towards me. Nothing feels no pain, no pressure, no stress. I want to be nothing because nothing feels so great.. But can nothing love? Can nothing hear? Can nothing be saved? If not just take my soul away.. &shut me up. L i b r a . xoxo
It's funny, odd, I wish I was completely nothing. If nothing feels and nothing gets hurt,t han that's what I want to be. But if I feel nothing, I can't love, and I'll end up lonely...
But it's those times when things go wrong that I wish I could feel nothing. Like when your grandpa passed away. I'm sorry. These things are so unfair! It's like everyone close & dear is taken away from us. I was cleaning, again today, and I found a picture of my grandmother. Still no tears, but I felt hurt, because I didn't get to see her again when she was well. Already, when I saw her for the last time, she was sick, and I could only talk to her and she couldn't answer back. Now, my mom's gone, and I remember those words before she left. She kept complaining on how stupid she was to of waited 12 years to go back home.. As if it was all her fault, but it wasn't. She's coming back home next week, and when she comes, I'll squeeze her so hard. I miss her, and I don't want to lose her. I have to make the best of the few moments I have with those I love. I'm glad to hear you & your grand-father were close. I only saw my grandmother twice in my life. And those two times, I was stupid & naive.
Life is one thing I guess I'll never understand. Same thing here: Wake up in the morning, eat, school, get home, sleep. I don't even know what we're doing this for. What's going to happen next, I wish we could know, but some things are better kept a secret, right? Take a deep breath and smile for a while. Do what you love. Try to do what you hate. Live you life to the fullest.
Some good is bound to come out of all this, right?
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Posted: Sun Apr 08, 2007 4:53 pm
Liar Intestines[x] fat-n-happy Liar Intestines[x] fat-n-happy Liar Intestines[x] I just know I've been going through a few things lately Hehe. Well I guess it be good if I start off. Well, yeah. I haven't been on latetly because I've been getting, or feeling, messed up these past weeks. My grandmother just died, my mother just left for 3 weeks, I'm falling asleep in class more often, ntohing really matters in my life anymore, I'm feeling so confused, and so on.
All that matters right now, alot, is drawing, singing and writing. I don't want to have a futur, I don't want to go to college, I don't want to live. I just want to sit down and sleep forever.
Because I'm fed up. Living the same things everyday.
Or I am well, lazy.
I don't know.
But I get so lost easily.
And I'm still trying to figure out who I am and..
Damn.
I talk to much.
and the whole u just wanna sleep forever thing? ive been the same way since my dad started drinking (like 2 years ago) but i'd rather like crawl under a rock.
"all that matters right now, alot, is drawing, singing, and writing"
do people like your writing? whenever anyone writes around here, they get rejected by the whole school. since i write alot, i have like no friends...
sorry if it sounds like im making it a joke or something, but maybe you could do like gerard and write a great song (kind of like helena)
k, and im sorry if i made it out to be like your problems aren't as bad as mine - theyre worse. im not too good with the whole family dying thing, but i know how you feel when you say you dont want a future. It's okay, at least you answred! That's good engouh, and I appreciate it. I have friends, but I keep having these dark feelings in my heart, like I want to push everyone and stab them with a fork. Yes, for, since I can't find a spork. Lame. I feel like everythign and everyone around is fake. But I do write. I write songs, and actually I feel like I'm getting better eversince MCR because it let me feel less afraid to express the deepest emotions. I write alot, but I don't know how good I am. I have a Livejournal. My LJI also draw alot, and I recently created a Deviantart page thingy. (In my siggy) Death isn't as fun, but I'm over it mostly, and faster than I expected. I guess it's the thoguht that she's in a better place that helps me. Your daddy drinks? Then that should be hard. Does he harm you in anyway or stuff? For some reason, I want to drink.. And I don't know why. Everyone who used to be so close to me here seems to be all into drugs. Liek my ex-best friend, but now I have no best friend. I wonder if I'll ever have any? And today I ruined my voice ('cause I still have a bad cold) singing non-stop my chemical romance, imagining I'm in front of a crowd.. I'd really love to sing for a crowd. Anything. As long as I sing, and deliver emotion. I like you. You're really nice. <333
now i know how u two feel with death... theres this old lady that used to live by me. she was like my grandma i never had. i hate my one and the other died before i was born... anyway, she was like a grandma to me. she cared for me no matter what. my dad would be drunk (and to answer ur question, no he just keeps me and my brother up at night, throwing up. no physical harm) and the lady, mildred, would look after us. then a few days ago, my dad called me up, and he told me she died. the weekend i saw her before she died, i was in a bad mood, so when she was talking to me i wasnt really listening. i regret that now...... but, now she's dead, my pop owns her house now, and a pic of her replaced a pic of mcr in my notebook....
i HATE performing! when my mom and brother arent home, i rock out on my bass, screaming along to my mix cd of the used and mcr. the used is great for getting rid of anger, ya know? mcr is good for when ur sad or w/e.
for a while, i lost my best friends too. i actually lost pretty much all my friends once my dad lost his job. i had no money and crappy clothes, so no one wanted to hang out with me. now i have like 2 friends. its kinda hard, but if i could make it through having no friends, anyone can- i think...
and the routine thing? if anyone in my family breaks the routine, my mom spazzes. i wanna go visit my family to get away from her and my bro, she freaks out and grounds me. every day its wake up, eat breakfast, get ready for school, get tortured in school, then go home and get depressed cause i gotta deal with my family. routines suck...
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Posted: Sun Apr 08, 2007 5:53 pm
fat-n-happy Liar Intestines[x] fat-n-happy Liar Intestines[x] fat-n-happy Liar Intestines[x] I just know I've been going through a few things lately Hehe. Well I guess it be good if I start off. Well, yeah. I haven't been on latetly because I've been getting, or feeling, messed up these past weeks. My grandmother just died, my mother just left for 3 weeks, I'm falling asleep in class more often, ntohing really matters in my life anymore, I'm feeling so confused, and so on.
All that matters right now, alot, is drawing, singing and writing. I don't want to have a futur, I don't want to go to college, I don't want to live. I just want to sit down and sleep forever.
Because I'm fed up. Living the same things everyday.
Or I am well, lazy.
I don't know.
But I get so lost easily.
And I'm still trying to figure out who I am and..
Damn.
I talk to much.
and the whole u just wanna sleep forever thing? ive been the same way since my dad started drinking (like 2 years ago) but i'd rather like crawl under a rock.
"all that matters right now, alot, is drawing, singing, and writing"
do people like your writing? whenever anyone writes around here, they get rejected by the whole school. since i write alot, i have like no friends...
sorry if it sounds like im making it a joke or something, but maybe you could do like gerard and write a great song (kind of like helena)
k, and im sorry if i made it out to be like your problems aren't as bad as mine - theyre worse. im not too good with the whole family dying thing, but i know how you feel when you say you dont want a future. It's okay, at least you answred! That's good engouh, and I appreciate it. I have friends, but I keep having these dark feelings in my heart, like I want to push everyone and stab them with a fork. Yes, for, since I can't find a spork. Lame. I feel like everythign and everyone around is fake. But I do write. I write songs, and actually I feel like I'm getting better eversince MCR because it let me feel less afraid to express the deepest emotions. I write alot, but I don't know how good I am. I have a Livejournal. My LJI also draw alot, and I recently created a Deviantart page thingy. (In my siggy) Death isn't as fun, but I'm over it mostly, and faster than I expected. I guess it's the thoguht that she's in a better place that helps me. Your daddy drinks? Then that should be hard. Does he harm you in anyway or stuff? For some reason, I want to drink.. And I don't know why. Everyone who used to be so close to me here seems to be all into drugs. Liek my ex-best friend, but now I have no best friend. I wonder if I'll ever have any? And today I ruined my voice ('cause I still have a bad cold) singing non-stop my chemical romance, imagining I'm in front of a crowd.. I'd really love to sing for a crowd. Anything. As long as I sing, and deliver emotion. I like you. You're really nice. <333
now i know how u two feel with death... theres this old lady that used to live by me. she was like my grandma i never had. i hate my one and the other died before i was born... anyway, she was like a grandma to me. she cared for me no matter what. my dad would be drunk (and to answer ur question, no he just keeps me and my brother up at night, throwing up. no physical harm) and the lady, mildred, would look after us. then a few days ago, my dad called me up, and he told me she died. the weekend i saw her before she died, i was in a bad mood, so when she was talking to me i wasnt really listening. i regret that now...... but, now she's dead, my pop owns her house now, and a pic of her replaced a pic of mcr in my notebook....
i HATE performing! when my mom and brother arent home, i rock out on my bass, screaming along to my mix cd of the used and mcr. the used is great for getting rid of anger, ya know? mcr is good for when ur sad or w/e.
for a while, i lost my best friends too. i actually lost pretty much all my friends once my dad lost his job. i had no money and crappy clothes, so no one wanted to hang out with me. now i have like 2 friends. its kinda hard, but if i could make it through having no friends, anyone can- i think...
and the routine thing? if anyone in my family breaks the routine, my mom spazzes. i wanna go visit my family to get away from her and my bro, she freaks out and grounds me. every day its wake up, eat breakfast, get ready for school, get tortured in school, then go home and get depressed cause i gotta deal with my family. routines suck...It's as if everytime something goes on wrong with someone dear, you lose them a while later. I hate it when it ends that way. it gets me crazy, drives me nuts, makes me wonder if I could try to erase my mistakes while I can, when I know I can't. It's stupid, it's unfair, and every other negative thing that life is. It makes me disappear, until I remember there are other people out there just like me. Just knowing that people like you two exist keeps me calm, for a moment..
My parents aren't alcoholics, but that doesn't keep me from getting hurt. They don't abuse me, they don't hurt me, they don't ruin me.. But I still am the way I am. I don't know if it was passed down, generation by generation, or if I caught it up from somebody, or caught a decease. I am probably the only one in my family who is this way, so it's hard to get help, from inside the family.
That's once again, why I write.
Routines are ********' hard! Sorry for the swearing. It's just angering. You do the same things everyday, and when you try to break out of it, you feel lost, messed-up. Nothing really makes much sense.
My Chemical Romance helps me write, think or get away excessive emotions. As well as everything else I listen to. I don't know why my parents hate my music. Why they hate hearing the Screamos scream. Why they hate seeing my vampires, my one-eyed monsters, my horns.
I guess we could say my mother is afraid of me. I remember that one talk she had with me not too long ago. "I don't know what you're becoming"
I'm growing up mom, get used to it.
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Posted: Sun Apr 08, 2007 7:37 pm
my mom's afrai of me too. no parent can accept the fact that their kids grow up.
i just hope i don't lose my friend right after something goes wrong. she's helped me through so much, she doesnt even know it. all she knows is that i have problems and having depression in my genes doesnt help with them any. she's the onl yone that can understand why i am the way i am. if i lost her right after i was mad at her, i'd kill myself just to meet up with her again and tell her im sorry.... u have anyone like that?
ur nice. me like u alot. for once, i found at least one person besdes that friend i was talking about before that can understand me, ya nkow? not judge me by how i look, like not just ignore me cause i seem different. thanks *hugs*
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Posted: Mon Apr 09, 2007 6:33 pm
fat-n-happy my mom's afrai of me too. no parent can accept the fact that their kids grow up.
i just hope i don't lose my friend right after something goes wrong. she's helped me through so much, she doesnt even know it. all she knows is that i have problems and having depression in my genes doesnt help with them any. she's the onl yone that can understand why i am the way i am. if i lost her right after i was mad at her, i'd kill myself just to meet up with her again and tell her im sorry.... u have anyone like that?
ur nice. me like u alot. for once, i found at least one person besdes that friend i was talking about before that can understand me, ya nkow? not judge me by how i look, like not just ignore me cause i seem different. thanks *hugs* Awe, that's sweet!
I'd do the same thing too but.. I don't know who is that extremely-close friend of mine who could help me no matter what. Sure, I have a bunch of friends who could try, but they usually have nothing to say.
I haven't found that special friend yet, but I wish I did..
It's hard, this life. Parents, not just parents, but maybe us too..
I feel lifeless right now. I feel pointless.
There is nothing I want to do or care about doing anymore.
I just feel like quitting. again.
H E L P . . .
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Posted: Wed Apr 11, 2007 5:32 am
Liar Intestines[x] fat-n-happy my mom's afrai of me too. no parent can accept the fact that their kids grow up.
i just hope i don't lose my friend right after something goes wrong. she's helped me through so much, she doesnt even know it. all she knows is that i have problems and having depression in my genes doesnt help with them any. she's the onl yone that can understand why i am the way i am. if i lost her right after i was mad at her, i'd kill myself just to meet up with her again and tell her im sorry.... u have anyone like that?
ur nice. me like u alot. for once, i found at least one person besdes that friend i was talking about before that can understand me, ya nkow? not judge me by how i look, like not just ignore me cause i seem different. thanks *hugs* Awe, that's sweet!
I'd do the same thing too but.. I don't know who is that extremely-close friend of mine who could help me no matter what. Sure, I have a bunch of friends who could try, but they usually have nothing to say.
I haven't found that special friend yet, but I wish I did..
It's hard, this life. Parents, not just parents, but maybe us too..
I feel lifeless right now. I feel pointless.
There is nothing I want to do or care about doing anymore.
I just feel like quitting. again.
H E L P . . .
right now, im going through the whole "i just wanna give up on life" thing too. take loads of antii-depressants. eventually it'll pass (hopefully im right).
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Posted: Sat Apr 14, 2007 4:10 pm
fat-n-happy Liar Intestines[x] fat-n-happy my mom's afrai of me too. no parent can accept the fact that their kids grow up.
i just hope i don't lose my friend right after something goes wrong. she's helped me through so much, she doesnt even know it. all she knows is that i have problems and having depression in my genes doesnt help with them any. she's the onl yone that can understand why i am the way i am. if i lost her right after i was mad at her, i'd kill myself just to meet up with her again and tell her im sorry.... u have anyone like that?
ur nice. me like u alot. for once, i found at least one person besdes that friend i was talking about before that can understand me, ya nkow? not judge me by how i look, like not just ignore me cause i seem different. thanks *hugs* Awe, that's sweet!
I'd do the same thing too but.. I don't know who is that extremely-close friend of mine who could help me no matter what. Sure, I have a bunch of friends who could try, but they usually have nothing to say.
I haven't found that special friend yet, but I wish I did..
It's hard, this life. Parents, not just parents, but maybe us too..
I feel lifeless right now. I feel pointless.
There is nothing I want to do or care about doing anymore.
I just feel like quitting. again.
H E L P . . .
right now, im going through the whole "i just wanna give up on life" thing too. take loads of antii-depressants. eventually it'll pass (hopefully im right).Oh.. Anti-depressants?
Wow I don't take those.. Well, no adult knows about me & my little world.
I hide the fact I need help & I refuse any offer to see a psychologist.
Oh, I didn't know it was you who added me on Lj until now! I love you<3
So much. Even if you go through this phase, don't give up.
If every person gave up, this world would be empty.
I want to give up & I don't know what to do with life anymore but..
I'm still holding on.
And I'll hold on to you.
<3
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Posted: Sun Apr 15, 2007 10:09 am
Liar Intestines[x] fat-n-happy Liar Intestines[x] fat-n-happy my mom's afrai of me too. no parent can accept the fact that their kids grow up.
i just hope i don't lose my friend right after something goes wrong. she's helped me through so much, she doesnt even know it. all she knows is that i have problems and having depression in my genes doesnt help with them any. she's the onl yone that can understand why i am the way i am. if i lost her right after i was mad at her, i'd kill myself just to meet up with her again and tell her im sorry.... u have anyone like that?
ur nice. me like u alot. for once, i found at least one person besdes that friend i was talking about before that can understand me, ya nkow? not judge me by how i look, like not just ignore me cause i seem different. thanks *hugs* Awe, that's sweet!
I'd do the same thing too but.. I don't know who is that extremely-close friend of mine who could help me no matter what. Sure, I have a bunch of friends who could try, but they usually have nothing to say.
I haven't found that special friend yet, but I wish I did..
It's hard, this life. Parents, not just parents, but maybe us too..
I feel lifeless right now. I feel pointless.
There is nothing I want to do or care about doing anymore.
I just feel like quitting. again.
H E L P . . .
right now, im going through the whole "i just wanna give up on life" thing too. take loads of antii-depressants. eventually it'll pass (hopefully im right).Oh.. Anti-depressants?
Wow I don't take those.. Well, no adult knows about me & my little world.
I hide the fact I need help & I refuse any offer to see a psychologist.
Oh, I didn't know it was you who added me on Lj until now! I love you<3
So much. Even if you go through this phase, don't give up.
If every person gave up, this world would be empty.
I want to give up & I don't know what to do with life anymore but..
I'm still holding on.
And I'll hold on to you.
<3 no one knows about my little word either, i stole my friends meds.she doesnt know yet *smile/tear* ur awesome *hugs* *holds on* ill hold on to u too. there arent enough nice people in the world anymore. i dont want to lose another.
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Posted: Tue Apr 17, 2007 9:56 am
Awe man... I understand you guys...
I have been having problems lately...
Last year was when both my unborn sister and a beloved friend of my stepmom died. It waswithin 4 dya seperation which was worse since my stepmom was laready having a bad tim.e
As for me...
Well...
It was just shitty.
My friends didn't care I was upset or anything.
They thought I woudl just 'get over it'.
But it wasn't quite that easy since I had to see my stepmom sulk, and say that it was her fault...
That's what drove me crazy.
And that's when I started to just saty in my room.
Yes.
I have become very anti-social, and my parents think that as well.
But it's not quite true since I have 3 good friends, and the rest act like they are higher than me and all that s**t.
But I do wish I had an artistic friend in the real world...
That's probably the only kind of person who can understand me fully.
Sorry if everything I say doesn't quite make much sense, since I am horrible at saying how I feel...
That's why I draw like hell...
But, I think all of us are liek a big family in this MCR guild.
That's why I hoped I can be here everyday and hour...
You guys are just so great...
Just reading what you guys wrote makes me want to cry...
crying
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