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 Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2006 3:36 am
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Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2006 3:54 am
Oct 5, 2005
I am here. This new place. they said the name is Ishimaru Island. Feels odd. Everyone looking at me suspiciously. I dont have anything with me. This little pet I am holding, they said they found it together with me. It leads them to me. Must be my precious friend...
The cute girl that brings me to the mansion... they called her Sunchii. Though she actually got a very long name that I didnt catch what it is. There's a doctor with her... He the one who really saved my live. Guessed they called that technique as CPR. But I called it.... >.> oh well... It's not a kiss from a guy.... nu uh. He meant to save me. I shouldnt think about it the wrong way...
But people in this house, somewhat.... nice? They welcome me really nicely eventhough I am a total stranger. They give me this room. They said , it's a guest room. But Ken sleep in this room too. He said, he cant really trust me, so he wanna watch over me. Whatever....
But there's a fact.... I cant really remember who I am or what happened to me... There's a fades memories... Of a ship.storm.darkness.screaming crews.. and that's it... My head hurts...really bad... What had actually happened....
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Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2006 3:56 am
Nov 12, 2005
It's more then a month I am here. Everything seems well. I think. I get to know people at here better now. Everyone really is nice. My wounds are all gone now. I feels lots better. Ken really is a great doctor. He knows alot about everything. He is like a walking library...
Sun Chii is a very sweet person. She always smiles and makes a delicious foods. I kinda wondering, mansion as big as this, didnt have lots of maids. I always heard people saying, big mansion always got lots of beautiful maids in a pretty maids dresses ~~ ah~ such a lost.. ahhhhaa.
People I know so far at here is Sunchii, the daughter of the mansion owner (but they said her parents was murdered!) , her aunt - Genova, Ken - the doctor and Sora, Sunchii's cousin who is very much into alchemy. He got a small lab at the lower part of the mansion. Creepy. I wont go there for real ^^;; And there's one pretty maid. Sun chii said, her name is Hinata. She is like -adopted- by Genova somehow. And to the creepiest part, this house got a living ghost. A good part she is a good ghost... phew~ Her name is... M.... Matilda~ yes. Ken said, dont tell Genova about her. She was Genova's dead daughter... I feels sorry for the two.. I wonder what made Matilda still around after her death...
Since I have gotten better, maybe I should make myself useful around here....
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Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2006 3:59 am
Nov 13, 2005
So today! I offered myself to work at Genova bakery shop. Hahahahaha. I feels funny to myself. working. I feels like it is the first time I ever thought about working. I am not sure about it, but when I see the bakery, and it's kitchen, I feels like "omg I wanna be there"
So genova obasan agree to take me to work with her. She said, I am a fast learner. I am not sure, but I think it feels like I meant to be here. the kitchen. Maybe, I am somehow a chef before? Hm... but yeah... oh well...
I named the pet that with me when I was stranded earlier as Reizo. Oh well. I just read it from it's collar, and it's written as Reizo there, so I thought that would be it's name... How unoriginal. Hahahha. But I dunno why, he really is cute and always be right by my side. This morning, when I get to work, it jump into my bag when I didnt noticed! Only notice it when I am at work and get shouted by Genova obasan cuz bringing pet to work! -.- oh well. I should really leave it at my room tomorrow. Kitchen is really not a good environment for pet....
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Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2006 4:00 am
Nov 14, 2005
2nd day working!
I left Reizo at home together. Pleaded Ken to look after him. Ken makes that "get lost" face to me, but I leave Reizo at home anyway. I got no choice. Reizo was clinging onto me wanna follow me. But Ken grabbed him to his shoulder like a little baby. Reizo wanna escaped, but, I wonder who would be able to escape when Ken already holding them by his hands.... Kissed Reizo on his head, and he finally calm down.
Goes to work. A lot of customer today. As expected, it's the end of the year. People already starting to order for christmas cake. Aint it a month too early? I wonder if this shop really is that popular. Must be busy during christmas later...
Went home, Reizo already sleeping on my bed. Thanking Ken, Ken just smiles back. Now that I noticed, it's the first time he ever smiles! Such an expensive smiles >o< And now also that I notice, when the hell he go to sleep at? I hardly see him sleeping....I know I am the type who really sleeps alot, but... oh well...just forget it... >.>
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Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2006 4:01 am
Nov 17, 2005
Today work normally. Reizo didnt throw tuntrum anymore when I am going to work. He knew already that I will return...
Ken is acting really weird today though. He didnt talk at all to me. I wonder why. It's not like he talk much anyway, but at least, he's say...something.... Feels the room very quite and empty... eventhough there's a sound of reizo climbing here and there, but still.... sigh... At night, I didnt see Ken anywhere around...where did he go.....
The only thing I remember he saying was yesterday. He said... He said.......Um...nevermind... I might have misheard...
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Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2006 4:03 am
Jan 14, 2006
Wow! It's already 100th days I am here...! Er...dont ask me why I count the days.... I am not sure for myself... But I feels really happy somehow...meeting all of them. Somehow deep inside of me, I still wish...I knew my past. what happened to all my crew members.... are they my crew members.... The vision of them, keep coming little by little making my head hurts really badly... The last thing came to me was a vision of a girl. seems pretty close to me, but for sure is not a girlfriend kind of close. but, maybe....a sister? hmm..........
Few days ago, Ken finally back. For how long he has gone. He seems like he is changed somehow by the way I see him. He didnt have that scary look on his face anyway, and he smiles a little bit more then before. What happened? Seeing him coming back at here, I feels...happy? Maybe because living in this big room alone, makes me feels really....lonely....
Ken gives me a present. He said sorry for leaving me alone for too long after all that he said. (eh?) It really making me embarrased. what in the world is he thinking. (urgh! i am sooo not going to write what he give to me!!) Oh well, the fact that he is back and remembered me when he was away...somewhat made...me...happy? I dont understand my own feelings!! God please help me!! >.>
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Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2006 4:04 am
Jan 28, 2006
Today, there's 2 new girls came at this mansion. A beautiful magician named Pleione and...a scary-cold-looking-but-very-pretty girl named Alesse. It was a terrible weather outside, so, Genova obasan giving them place to stay. seems they didnt have a place to go anyway.... But they both look very suspicious to my eyes somehow.... But yeah...they really are beautiful too. Sisters , they told us.
Earlier before that, I went to the park to relax my mind. Bring Reizo for awalk for the fresh air. Met Ken there. watching people playing kites at the park really is refreshing. Ken tell me again the thing he told me few months back.... I kicked his butt for giving me such a bad joke. But he said he is not joking... My heart really beating very fast. All I can do for now is running away from answering. so, I ignored him again for the 2nd time...
Ken holding Reizo as we walk our way home after that. Reizo seems that he is closer to Ken now then before. And Ken...he seems...somewhat...sweeter now.. ^^
Met melinda in my way back. She is one of the good friend I met at here. Always listen to my trouble and worries. Such a nice and kind girl. and she's really a hottie! Hehehe
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Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2006 4:25 am
Jan 30, 2006
There's festival in town yesterday. All of us gathering near the temple for festival. Everyone is wearing japanese traditional clothing. Ken looks real great in his black and red yukata. My yukata is blue and gold. ^^
Went there with Sunchii. She is sooo cute and pretty in her marron yukata. I wonder how a girl as pretty as her didnt have a boyfriend yet. She is very clumsy though. Kinda funny at times.
Pleione is with Ken for the whole time while Sora went away with Alesse. Sora and Alesse , I heard they are actually in love. wow. what a combination! A super cheerful sora, with a super-cold-ghostlike-looking a girl. scary! Haahahha. But both in combination looks really match somehow
I am not sure, but I feels really...er...how should I put it...jealous? when I see Ken with Pleione. I wonder why Pleione didnt ask me out for this day and choose Ken instead... Ah...such a heartbreaker..
When the midnight falls, the fireworks event begun, and it's really really beautiful. But not for long, suddenly Sora came to us and said Alesse gone. After a long searched, we found Alesse crying beside a dead body. She said, that person is trying to do bad things to her. Ken calmed her down and thus, we all go back home..
I am not very sure what happened, but after I slept that night...Something bad really had happened to me... I cant remember any of the thing, but when I gain my coutious, I am in Ken's arm.. I was shocked cuz I almost killed him. He is in blood all over him. I am terrified looking at him like that. He said my weapon wont kill him anyhow...But...but.......... Argh Ken...do you know how I feel........
Ken say not to worry and everything will be fine. It suddenly rained, thus we ran back to the mansion and get some bath at the hot spring nearby (since the rain stopped when we got there) But I think I slept there for being too tired...and to my surprise, when I woke up , I am on Ken's bed! Wah! What happened last night!
I asked Ken about him, he just laugh crazily. I know he feels happy when seeing me looking all troubled. But yeah, I am pretty sure nothing happened too since I am in my pajama.. Okay, I dont want to think how I get in my pajama somehow >.>
But to think of it....Ken saved my life...like...again... He always there when I needed him the most...If it's not because of him, what had happened to me? I might've killed someone, or killed myself. What happened to me? Why I lost my cotrol over myself and go to the place where the guy get killed... Am I being....possesed o.O!
Ken ...thank you.......for always been there for me... I.... appreciate you... eventhough I cant directly say it to you, but...you understand, right? I just feels tooo saddened when I remembered I almost killed him last night.... I seriously didnt want to lose ken. No Never!
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Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2006 4:26 am
Feb 18, 2006
14th February was such a great day to me. I wanted to write about it sooner, but I didnt bring my diary together with me on that day. Me and Ken, we went to a camp near the lake at our mansion. He told me he want to have some boys day out. I asked him why didnt bring Sora.. He said that Sora got a gilfriend...so..yeah.. he said, bachelor night only (cuz we both dont have girlfriends to celebrate with)
I havent been out from the mansion for awhile, so, I was really excited. I almost bring out all of things from the kitchen before Ken nagged me about we can do some fishing there. So I leave them all back there. *smacked self for being so stupid*
We ate "almost burned" fishes cuz I asked Ken to look for them while I was changing my cloth. I think he got too impatient and made the fire grow too big *sweat sweat* It's good that he brings his guitar. Ken voice is sooo good and he plays great songs..but..I was too tired that day that I went to sleep while he was singing. He poked my head says I was being rude. I thought he was really angry, but he actually poke me with a present box that he meant to give me that night. What's inside? I wont tell. It's a s.e.c.r.e.t (actually I am to shy to even wrote it here. Ken and his straight forwardness >"<)
So I thought to give him his present too. Gah..I was soo broke, I dont even have a penny with me to buy him presents like he did *sad*. I made lots of chocolates that day. I used up Genova's bakery kitchen, even use her bakery's packaging (Thanks alot Genova Obasan for letting me use your shop kitchen) >"< I know Ken dislike chocos....But he ate it until it's almost finish. (I wonder if he done that becuz he is so frustrated or what) I made the chocos in lots of shapes, but he left me one heart-shaped chocos and said that it's for me because... (okay okay i shouldnt write more of that, pretend you didnt read the last sentence )*blushes*
It was a wonderful v-day. Actually, this was the first time I celebrate valentines day with someone... Thanks alot Ken. You have always making me happy, listening to my worries, helping me to get back my memories, treating my weird sickness...You have done sooo many things for me, when I have never give you anything in return... I really appreciate you, Ken...so..soo much... Please give me more time about this relationship. It's not easy for me to decide, but, all that you have to know for now is, no matter what happen, I wouldnt want to lose you...zettaii muri... *sob*
Okay...enough drama....Now all I need to do is finding a place to put my all other presents that he gave me. It was overflooding my bed. He bought too many. He said he bought it each day after he knew what is v-day...and when it's celebrated...It's like a month before v-day. so yes, i got around 30 presents...*sweat sweat*
*goes to find some unused cupboard or something to put all the presents in it*
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Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2006 4:52 am
Feb 22, 2006
Everything around the mansion seems a little bit calmer then before, I suppose. I just didnt see Alesse for few days already, I wonder why. I asked Pleione about it, she said she in her room. sick. I wonder if it's really the truth....
Today when I was plucking the roses at the garden, Matilda surprises me that I almost falls to the pond. She laugh crazily looking at me losing my balance. Such a naughty ghost! We have a short chat together. She looks so happy. She told me something about Ken. And gives me a full description on "why she think Ken is a great guy" thing. I wonder why of all the sudden... Our conversation was interrupted when Genova calls over me, so I have to go to her and pretend Matilda is not around...
After dinner, everyone is busy with themselves and Ken asked me for a walk. The night is really beautiful cuz the moon is full tonight. We lied down by the lake near the mansion. Such a peaceful scene. Suddenly Ken stands up and make such a weird face. He tricked me to look away and when I look at him back, he already disappear just like that. I am worried, so I rushed back to the mansion.
When I arrived, I heard a Alesse screaming from her room. I rushed there and saw Ken is kissing her and a blood dripping from Alesse's mouth. I didnt know how I am feeling at that time. I feels.... I feels.... My heart really hurt. I feels anger. I feels deceived. I feels....stupid. I feels....like...."omg wth happening!!" I go near Ken and slapped his face. Ken. He looks really different at that time. He got fangs! 2 of them! My heart beat so fast as if I will die if I ever move. Ken told me I misunderstood the situation. Alesse looks unconscious. Ken asked me to go out immediately. After some argument, I finally went out from the room. The room shut tight after that. I didnt know what happened, but I heard arguments with a weird language of Ken and Pleione. I feels totally confused. My heart throbbing . Hurt. Pain...
Ken didnt go back to the room for the whole night... I cried. Childishly....Stupid me... What made me this sad... It's not like I am in love with Ken whatsover... But....I feels hurt...... I want.... I wish my crue members to find me now! I want to stay in the past and not meeting Ken! I want....I just........
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Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2006 5:20 am
July 15, 2006
When I wake up this morning, I saw Ken face. The first thing. He is all smiling just a few inch from my face. I was totally shocked, so I jumped off the bed. I feels like it's soo unreal. AFter all this months... He is back!
I forgotten all of my anger. my sadness. My hurt. everything i felt. I forgotten them all. Guess my heart, has forgiven him. I missed him alot. And I have known the real situation on what happened the previous night from Matilda. I have been wishing for him to come back soon , but he never does...I was really sad. and now, he is back! I jumped to him and hold him tight. I really miss him. and my tears just goes down crazily as if it has been kept long enough to burst.
Suddenly Ken said to me something that really makes me shocked. He said "Kiss me. For the last time". I am all surprised. What he meant by that. I totally has no idea how to react. If I let him, what will happen. If I say no ...what will happen. My mind goes all blank. I just nodded unconsciously. And we kissed for the first time. (not really the first, I just didnt want to count all the forced kissed he made me to >.>) I feels so much pained transfered to my heart. As if he has been hurting for all this long. Ken...what are you hiding from me.....
We almost did it if it's not because of Reizo suddenly jump to my face. Hahahha. that little creature. Love him to death. Ken pull his tail as he feels annoyed. I just laugh happily. Ken is back...Ken is back...
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Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2006 5:23 am
July 16, 2006
Today I went out with Pleione. I totally need to straightened my mind after being kissed by that freaky Ken!! I am soooo not gay!
At the park, we saw Alesse and Sora. So, those two REALLY are going out! We spy them. They looks really happy together. Somehow....feels happy for them too.
Being beside Pleione, I feels like a normal human again. Thank God! I kinda...really likes Pleione...She is very pretty. (eventhough at times she can be very fierce...or what I should put that as..)
I asked her if I could...kiss her...just a peck ( I am soooooooo dry out and need a girl loving to keep my mind sake ) and she say yes! I was really shocked, but, I feels like... "omg it's a bless!" And thus I know... Pleione actually likes me too...If not...she wont accept right?!! *all happy*
As both our lips finally met, my eyes accidentally met an eyes that full of sadness. Sun Chii. She look extremely shocked and frustrated. I didnt know why, but there's tears overflowing her red cheeks. I stopped and asked her about it. She just ...run away from me... I wonder...I didnt know... I dont understand!!!
As I returned home, Ken is still sitting by the computer. Today , he said, he wanna do research. I didnt know it will take this long it seems he having been away from it ever since.. As he noticed I am back, he asked me where I went to, so I just told him honestly I was out with Pleione. Listening that, he just excuse himself saying he is hungry and wanna go take some food at the kitchen.
When he back to room, he didnt bring any food with him but his face are all full of anger. I was shocked and afraid. The way he looks at me, as if he gonna eat me alive! He asked me what actually happened and why Sun Chii is crying.
I know he really close with Sun Chii. But I myself dont know why she is crying. He asked me if she ever saw me with Pleione and what actually I was doing with Pleione. I told him, it's nothing cuz I really am afraid to tell him the truth....
He didnt believe in me and threw the computer chair away destroying the glass cupboard I put all my valentines presents he gave me before.
I am really afraid. He told me about how he worked all day long, looking for my cure, and there I went out with the girl I like happily and starts to do all this lies. I feels pain in my heart. I didnt think about this before...I... I didnt mean anything...I mean....Why do we need to quarrel about this...We are not even lovers...Or..does he think we are?!
After standing and not budge an inch, Ken suddenly turns his back and goes out the room. He just say " do as you please " to me.... My body directly moved trying to block him from going. But he is too strong for me to block.... I didnt know why...I dont want him to leave me again...After all this long wait , when he finally returned. And there I am...hurting him again with my foolish act.. I am stupid.............
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Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2006 5:24 am
July 22, 2006
Today, when I wake up, I saw Ken by my side. He looks like he is not angry anymore. His face is all red though and he is holding my breakfast. He said "yours." So I took it from his hand.
He...not angry to me anymore...didnt he? I look at his face trying to find the answer without asking him directly. I am too afraid to ask. Afraid he suddenly will shout at me or changed his mood ever again (Ken is such a short tempered). But he just stood up and excuse himself to go downstairs. I feels bad....So I finally say to him how sorry I am...How I didnt meant any of it.........Ken just smile for a second and ignore what I said as if he is trying to forget what happened.
I feels guilty...I didnt see Ken after that. Not at lunch. Not at dinner. I am worried. So I asked Reizo to go and find Ken. He leads me to the big library room in that mansion and there I saw Ken. With piles and piles of books in front of him. Watching him all concentrate with his work, I go and make him some drink. He was surprised when he saw me there. But he smiled. I am happy.
He seems not angry to me anymore. I sit by his side but falls asleep soon after. When I woke up, I already in my room. Ah... I should changed my sleeping-everywhere-habit real soon. It's very embarrasing if I to imagine Ken taking me to the room each and everytime I falls asleep somewhere else like that.... >o< But it all his fault too... Because of him... I cant sleep last night at all...
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Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2006 5:25 am
July 30th, 2006
Today, I finally get back to work again. After a few month getting a long vacation -Genova asked me to rest because of my health condition after the incident few months back-
So now, I am back to work again. How I miss this place! The bakery is busy as ever. Everyone look so energetic as ever making me as excited to work too. Reizo. I leave him at home with Ken. both of them seems to get along real well now ^^
I asked Ken if he ever wanna go on a trip with me somewhere someday. He kinda reluctant at first, cuz he didnt want to leave his patients behind (cuz he is the only doctor at this island). But yeah...He said, a few days wont hurt. Plus, he already teach Hinata something about medicine. Guess for a few normal sickness, that girl might be able to handle it. I feels so happy! Yay for a holiday trip! Feels long time I didnt go out from this island somehow...
And today. I teached Reizo a new skill! He now can jump as high as 190cm per tryout -try that on Ken- hahahahaha! Ken was sooo pissed off and leaves us alone by then. But I know he didnt really that angry. razz
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