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Posted: Fri Sep 08, 2006 10:47 pm

Another journal type thing...Exactly what I need. sweatdrop
I only already have 2 LJ's, a myspace blog, and a sometimes updated DevArt diary. What could another one hurt?

Feel free to say whatever. I dont even care.
domokun -KT

Posted: Fri Sep 08, 2006 10:55 pm

So here we are.
Another day has passed and it seems to get more depressing as every second passes.
Logan is gonna text me tomorrow and say that he's not gonna be able to make it to the movies.
Whatever.
Andrea isn't ever gonna text me.
Whatever.
I wouldn't talk to me either.

I want to die moreso than usual. My medicine says to stop taking it immediately if I feel that way but Im not going to. Im not gonna kill myself, I probably never will. I just want to. I want to die.
How gay and emo can a girl get?
I dont think it gets much worse for me.
My mom is gonna notice that 4 more of her vicodin are missing. I dont even care. I dont want to feel.
Feeling gets me in trouble.

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Posted: Sat Sep 09, 2006 8:27 pm

K sooooo I lied.
Today wasn't a complete waste of my being awake.
I watched a few hours of tennis and other random sports that are always on on saturday morning.
Then at around 4:15 I left to go to the movies in Brighton with Logan. We saw Little Miss Sunshine. I looooooved it! heart Definately a good movie. 3nodding
Now Im sittin here.
Alone.
Its cool.
It gives me time to think about stuff.
Er, everything.
If I were just totally straight everything would be SO much easier. gonk

Posted: Thu Sep 14, 2006 3:24 am

I dont know what's going on with me.
Why the thoughts in my mind exist. I want to give myself more importance than how important I actually am...Which is very little. sweatdrop I want to mean so much, and I don't.
Garlen is right, it's not my fault. But I just feel like.... stressed I dunno. I'm just sick of losing. Im sick of being alone.
And like the whole Andrea thing is my fault I think. I never really knew what that girl was thinking, and she wasn't/isn't really willing to tell. I suppose I should give up on that prospect of happiness.
Actually, I should give up on all 3 of them.

I need to do some hardcore focusing on school for the next couple years.
But God what I wouldn't do to be held/hold someone right now until I fell asleep. emo

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