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i don't usually have bad dreams, but last night was a biggie. i was just sitting in my house with some friends and i got a call on my cell that said "home" and i answered it...it was ray. she was all " so, what's going on with you and blake" so i told her we broke up and asked where she was. she popped out of my mom's room and said "here" and i saw blakes face behind hers. i went into the room and they were both naked. they had had sex. i just kept yelling and yelling at them and i kept trying to call blakes mom. he had done it to get even with me for braking up with him. then i remember moving around in my sleep screaming "i can't believe you had sex with him!!!" and " you ******** slut!!!!"

there was more to the dream but i can't remember it all because it's alll scrambled together...but when i woke up i called blake and asked him why he'd called yesterday, he said it was cause he wanted to hang out but that everything worked out anyways because he got to hang out with ray. i shouted out "DID YOU HAVE SEX?!" and he was all..no... so me and him talked for a while and then i got ray's # and gave her a call. first thing i said to her was that blake and her had sex in my mothers room in my dream last night. her response: "what?!"

so me and her got to talking. she assured me that it had crossed her mind about dating him because he knows that she used to like her and she knows that he is very interested in her, but that she would never do anything like that to me. she also assured me that if she ever started to think seriously about dating him that she would talk with me first...i feel a little better now, but i'm still shooken up about the dream...

IT JUSST BOTHERED ME!! I'M NOT TRYING TO CONTROL ANYONE!! I'M JUST TRYING TO KEEP A FRIEND scream scream


AND AS FOR RAY, SHE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT SHE WANTS AND SHE'S NOT GOING AFTER HIM, HE'S GOING AFTER HER!!! scream scream scream scream

not to mention, considering certain things that happened before you broke up, you have no reason to even care if he had ******** her while you were down here even. blake is happy to be free to persue what he wants, and so should you be. get a life.

SHUT UP!! STOP PLAYING THE VICTIM! What happend, happend ok?
But as for you calling Ray to protect her... YOU ******** a*****e!!!
DON'T PLAY THE GODDAMN HERO!!
YOU ARE A LYING, SELF-CENTERD, BABY!! scream

Tedra, there you go again. Playing the victim. We are criticizing you because you need it.
You can't go about life playing a victim all the time. That's why me and Dez just lashed into you. You have been babyed all your life, and because of that, you can't handle reality.

Sorry for caring...

no. you are just not taking the time to think about how i might feel when you say these things. i don't need someone to yell at me. ******** you both. i can't take this anymore. you guys don't even understand, you just assume you know everything.

the problem with you is you only care what people say if it's positive. you can't take any kind of criticism at all. harsh criticism means people are picking on you. soft criticism you just blow off... *shrugs* you don't listen, and i am afraid you're gonna be 14 for many more years to come because you are so freaking afraid, weak, and fake...

yeah, we're on the internet, so no one CAN yell... it's all in your head, and you just said some ridiculous things that rofl don't even deserve comment. i thought you said bye? i'm talking to you in pm, get of the guild about this, or i'll ban you.

and yeah, life is simple and down to earth... we all live on earth. get your head out of the clouds/your a** and recognize. your'e not complicated except that you make yourself so. you are so thick. you make me naseous.