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Hypomanic Poet Vice Captain
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 Posted: Mon Apr 11, 2005 3:31 pm
I don't really wanna talk about it. I just don't wanna live anymore.
EDIT
I've cycled. I''m relatively okay now. So for those of you who may have been worrying, don't. Im not gonna kill myself. At least not for now.
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Posted: Mon Apr 11, 2005 3:35 pm
-Hug- I know the feeling, if it means anything I don't want you to die sad
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Apocalyptic Exhibitionist
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Posted: Mon Apr 11, 2005 4:34 pm
i dont want you to die either sad
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Posted: Mon Apr 11, 2005 7:34 pm
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Posted: Fri Apr 15, 2005 2:43 pm
i have suicideal thoughs but don't kill ur self but kill me i wish
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Posted: Fri Apr 15, 2005 3:01 pm
J Dubb i have suicideal thoughs but don't kill ur self but kill me i wish *hugs*
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Posted: Fri Apr 15, 2005 7:48 pm
there should be a hug thread, where all the suicidal us's can go and get cold, computerized hugs that make you feel either strangely better... or darkly worse. (generally better. it's the thought that counts?). sweatdrop
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Posted: Fri Apr 15, 2005 8:51 pm
heteria there should be a hug thread, where all the suicidal us's can go and get cold, computerized hugs that make you feel either strangely better... or darkly worse. (generally better. it's the thought that counts?). sweatdrop There was a hug thread in one of the guilds I was in at one point. I started it, hehe.
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Posted: Fri Apr 15, 2005 9:03 pm
X[phucket]X heteria there should be a hug thread, where all the suicidal us's can go and get cold, computerized hugs that make you feel either strangely better... or darkly worse. (generally better. it's the thought that counts?). sweatdrop There was a hug thread in one of the guilds I was in at one point. I started it, hehe. cool. blaugh
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Posted: Fri Apr 15, 2005 10:21 pm
heteria there should be a hug thread, where all the suicidal us's can go and get cold, computerized hugs that make you feel either strangely better... or darkly worse. (generally better. it's the thought that counts?). sweatdrop i think thats a great idea....you should start one.
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Apocalyptic Exhibitionist
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Posted: Sat Apr 16, 2005 8:52 pm
..I feel the same way right now...
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Posted: Sun Apr 24, 2005 3:57 am
There are times when I've wanted to kill myself. Held a knife to my heart, tried cutting myself. I even regret dragging a knife along my niece's leg. You should of saw the horrified look on her face. I can't go on like this. I know I should, and I know I must for religious reasons. I'm always alone, I'm always sad. I often blame my depression on random things. Maybe it's just me. I feel an ache in my heart. The pain won't go away. It hurts so much. You feel like tearing that organ out. I need help. I know I have help, and I have medication, but none of it helps.
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Posted: Mon Apr 25, 2005 1:11 pm
Kalda There are times when I've wanted to kill myself. Held a knife to my heart, tried cutting myself. I even regret dragging a knife along my niece's leg. You should of saw the horrified look on her face. I can't go on like this. I know I should, and I know I must for religious reasons. I'm always alone, I'm always sad. I often blame my depression on random things. Maybe it's just me. I feel an ache in my heart. The pain won't go away. It hurts so much. You feel like tearing that organ out. I need help. I know I have help, and I have medication, but none of it helps. it's really hard to find help for that. it's a funny cure to find. friendship, love.... it would be easy to say "take comfort in a friend"... but i know that i, and probably you too, sometimes cannot find that friend. i know how you feel. does it help that you're not alone? i'm guessing not. i know that i don't like to hear that someone else in the world suffers like i do. i would suggest that you avoid the cutting. it's hard to stop once you've started to do it regularly. it can turn into blood obsession, get you mixed up with the wrong people... i dunno. maybe you just... just need to throw away the knives. sweatdrop i used to feel guilty, holding a knife to my chest, and not having the courage to push it through. it's funny how a failure at the capability to commit suicide can make one suicidal. it's a wicked cycle. let someone in, though, and it can change your life. (that's what they all say. it's true, but it can feel so impossible.) my point is, the fear, the trapped feeling, the pain of suicidal tendancies... if you can just wait it out (so hard, i know), it always gets better. pm me if you want. i'm generally around between 7:30ish pm and 9:15pm (tonight i'll be on around 8:25pm). so... yeah. i don't know what else to say. *long distance cuddle* you're not as alone as you feel... heart
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Posted: Mon Apr 25, 2005 3:42 pm
heteria Kalda There are times when I've wanted to kill myself. Held a knife to my heart, tried cutting myself. I even regret dragging a knife along my niece's leg. You should of saw the horrified look on her face. I can't go on like this. I know I should, and I know I must for religious reasons. I'm always alone, I'm always sad. I often blame my depression on random things. Maybe it's just me. I feel an ache in my heart. The pain won't go away. It hurts so much. You feel like tearing that organ out. I need help. I know I have help, and I have medication, but none of it helps. it's really hard to find help for that. it's a funny cure to find. friendship, love.... it would be easy to say "take comfort in a friend"... but i know that i, and probably you too, sometimes cannot find that friend. i know how you feel. does it help that you're not alone? i'm guessing not. i know that i don't like to hear that someone else in the world suffers like i do. i would suggest that you avoid the cutting. it's hard to stop once you've started to do it regularly. it can turn into blood obsession, get you mixed up with the wrong people... i dunno. maybe you just... just need to throw away the knives. sweatdrop i used to feel guilty, holding a knife to my chest, and not having the courage to push it through. it's funny how a failure at the capability to commit suicide can make one suicidal. it's a wicked cycle. let someone in, though, and it can change your life. (that's what they all say. it's true, but it can feel so impossible.) my point is, the fear, the trapped feeling, the pain of suicidal tendancies... if you can just wait it out (so hard, i know), it always gets better. pm me if you want. i'm generally around between 7:30ish pm and 9:15pm (tonight i'll be on around 8:25pm). so... yeah. i don't know what else to say. *long distance cuddle* you're not as alone as you feel... heart That sounds way too familliar. Heteria is right though, letting someone in can be a huge help. She's also right about the cutting thing, trust me, stop while you still can. sweatdrop
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