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 Posted: Fri Dec 02, 2022 8:21 pm
I'm Sarah, Green, Greenie or Cray. I'm 36. I see this guild isn't quite active. That's too bad. I need some friends my age-ish.
Um..I'm a TBI or Traumatic Brain Injury. I died due to lack of oxygen at 21 months. It's pure luck that I'm alive at all. ok..so nearly died. Anyway, I'm all sorts of special needs because my brain got ********. At times it's bothersome; other times, it's not. The biggest setbacks are my emotional range and reactions, I can't drive or work. or apparently talk to people. I have anxiety and depression and some ADHD.
I'm usually pretty cool and calm, but if there's a stressor of any kind, I freak out. It can get bad. I've been on meds for my whole life and in therapy.
I'm actually a great friend to have. I do get apathetic at times. That's usual.
I'm a super super extrovert and it's hard to be alone. I cry a lot.
My dad and I are friends now, and I'm almost wishing death upon my mom bc of how I was raised.
I was never taught to do anything about my feelings. I had outbursts. Mom just avoided them. So my reactions are child-like and I have a very hard time controlling myself in situations.
I come off as anti social without knowing it. My behavior was never shall we say curbed to appeal...so I act strangely and childish. I was my mom's special little princess who did no wrong. and that, above all else, has ruined me in very specific ways.
I should be dead, or if mom would have deemed it important, in a mental hospital. I'm glad that is not the case, and I am living as I am but....still, man. My mom....
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Posted: Fri Dec 02, 2022 8:25 pm
hi , im sorry that you are having a rough time with things ... i hope that you are ok?
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Posted: Fri Dec 02, 2022 8:27 pm
White Mage Rose hi , im sorry that you are having a rough time with things ... i hope that you are ok? Yes I am. I didn't expect to type any of that.
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Posted: Fri Dec 02, 2022 8:53 pm
Green_crayon42 White Mage Rose hi , im sorry that you are having a rough time with things ... i hope that you are ok? Yes I am. I didn't expect to type any of that. i have been thinking about you lately and wondering how you been doing heart emotion_hug
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Posted: Fri Dec 02, 2022 8:55 pm
White Mage Rose Green_crayon42 White Mage Rose hi , im sorry that you are having a rough time with things ... i hope that you are ok? Yes I am. I didn't expect to type any of that. i have been thinking about you lately and wondering how you been doing heart emotion_hug I'm lonely. and unhappy. and not really ok.
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Posted: Sat Dec 03, 2022 12:05 pm
Green_crayon42 White Mage Rose Green_crayon42 White Mage Rose hi , im sorry that you are having a rough time with things ... i hope that you are ok? Yes I am. I didn't expect to type any of that. i have been thinking about you lately and wondering how you been doing heart emotion_hug I'm lonely. and unhappy. and not really ok. im sorry to hear this ... what can i do to help?
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Posted: Fri Jan 13, 2023 6:37 am
Sounds like you have had a rough life but you are here and doing the best that you can. Your Avi is very pretty. I love the colors
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Posted: Fri Jan 13, 2023 7:27 am
mama_bearr Sounds like you have had a rough life but you are here and doing the best that you can. Your Avi is very pretty. I love the colors
Thanks!
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Posted: Thu Feb 02, 2023 6:55 pm
Hey, if want we can talk or sometin', just throw me a txt ^^
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Posted: Wed Feb 22, 2023 2:25 am
Green_crayon42 I'm Sarah, Green, Greenie or Cray. I'm 36. I see this guild isn't quite active. That's too bad. I need some friends my age-ish. Um..I'm a TBI or Traumatic Brain Injury. I died due to lack of oxygen at 21 months. It's pure luck that I'm alive at all. ok..so nearly died. Anyway, I'm all sorts of special needs because my brain got ********. At times it's bothersome; other times, it's not. The biggest setbacks are my emotional range and reactions, I can't drive or work. or apparently talk to people. I have anxiety and depression and some ADHD. I'm usually pretty cool and calm, but if there's a stressor of any kind, I freak out. It can get bad. I've been on meds for my whole life and in therapy. I'm actually a great friend to have. I do get apathetic at times. That's usual. I'm a super super extrovert and it's hard to be alone. I cry a lot. My dad and I are friends now, and I'm almost wishing death upon my mom bc of how I was raised. I was never taught to do anything about my feelings. I had outbursts. Mom just avoided them. So my reactions are child-like and I have a very hard time controlling myself in situations. I come off as anti social without knowing it. My behavior was never shall we say curbed to appeal...so I act strangely and childish. I was my mom's special little princess who did no wrong. and that, above all else, has ruined me in very specific ways. I should be dead, or if mom would have deemed it important, in a mental hospital. I'm glad that is not the case, and I am living as I am but....still, man. My mom.... Why hey there!!!! I'm Nan, Nanku or Fuka "nowadays" on the internet.oh and I seemed to come along with the same solution although there is enough activity to stay anyways!!!! And sometimes I get depression and anxiety problems too!!!! Before, going outside was easy but "when everybody's up my back for things I did in the past I don't go outside cause I have the courage to win a fight but I get scared they'll never come up to me and make me.... Mostly just SAD the whole situation is that like anybody else I get depressed and IT CONTROLS MY WHOLE LIFE!!!! Even when ANYBODY DIES.... Its the end of the world!!!! I immediately take action and thanks to my wrong actions I would immediately go to the "mental hospital." But, yes like everyone we have those colors in our life but when they become transparent we try to re-paint something moldy and dead. And that annoys me alot but thanks to this attachment each new experience is one to miss. And its good you're pretty calm!!!! I'm half/half in certain or most situations!!!! Oh, and me and my mom get along but shes sort of controlling and I have no choice but to follow what she says cause she'll keep yelling at me until I do things. I can't say i'm an angel though. In the past I ran away!!!! And I eat junk food all the time. (that may not count) but I was really weird with people I hardly knew or strangers and when nobody was looking I would hang out with people I don't know well enough to trust to go anywhere!!!! But, other than that I guess i'm a little good. I never went out with someone cause of the analyzation process. They would always turn down every guy that said they liked me. But, if you feel free in front of me to talk you can say things to me and I hope you start feeling better aswell. I get outbursts sometimes too mostly about how she controls who I see as bestfriends or boyfriends or girlfriends (both) or things like that and it's not pretty but its cause i'm a really secretive person sometimes about how I really feel when she does it!!!! But, i'm sure you'll make alot of friends anyways!!!! I cross my fingers.... And toes!!!! heart 3nodding heart
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Posted: Wed Feb 22, 2023 5:01 am
Nankurunaisa Fukanona Green_crayon42 I'm Sarah, Green, Greenie or Cray. I'm 36. I see this guild isn't quite active. That's too bad. I need some friends my age-ish. Um..I'm a TBI or Traumatic Brain Injury. I died due to lack of oxygen at 21 months. It's pure luck that I'm alive at all. ok..so nearly died. Anyway, I'm all sorts of special needs because my brain got ********. At times it's bothersome; other times, it's not. The biggest setbacks are my emotional range and reactions, I can't drive or work. or apparently talk to people. I have anxiety and depression and some ADHD. I'm usually pretty cool and calm, but if there's a stressor of any kind, I freak out. It can get bad. I've been on meds for my whole life and in therapy. I'm actually a great friend to have. I do get apathetic at times. That's usual. I'm a super super extrovert and it's hard to be alone. I cry a lot. My dad and I are friends now, and I'm almost wishing death upon my mom bc of how I was raised. I was never taught to do anything about my feelings. I had outbursts. Mom just avoided them. So my reactions are child-like and I have a very hard time controlling myself in situations. I come off as anti social without knowing it. My behavior was never shall we say curbed to appeal...so I act strangely and childish. I was my mom's special little princess who did no wrong. and that, above all else, has ruined me in very specific ways. I should be dead, or if mom would have deemed it important, in a mental hospital. I'm glad that is not the case, and I am living as I am but....still, man. My mom.... Why hey there!!!! I'm Nan, Nanku or Fuka "nowadays" on the internet.oh and I seemed to come along with the same solution although there is enough activity to stay anyways!!!! And sometimes I get depression and anxiety problems too!!!! Before, going outside was easy but "when everybody's up my back for things I did in the past I don't go outside cause I have the courage to win a fight but I get scared they'll never come up to me and make me.... Mostly just SAD the whole situation is that like anybody else I get depressed and IT CONTROLS MY WHOLE LIFE!!!! Even when ANYBODY DIES.... Its the end of the world!!!! I immediately take action and thanks to my wrong actions I would immediately go to the "mental hospital." But, yes like everyone we have those colors in our life but when they become transparent we try to re-paint something moldy and dead. And that annoys me alot but thanks to this attachment each new experience is one to miss. And its good you're pretty calm!!!! I'm half/half in certain or most situations!!!! Oh, and me and my mom get along but shes sort of controlling and I have no choice but to follow what she says cause she'll keep yelling at me until I do things. I can't say i'm an angel though. In the past I ran away!!!! And I eat junk food all the time. (that may not count) but I was really weird with people I hardly knew or strangers and when nobody was looking I would hang out with people I don't know well enough to trust to go anywhere!!!! But, other than that I guess i'm a little good. I never went out with someone cause of the analyzation process. They would always turn down every guy that said they liked me. But, if you feel free in front of me to talk you can say things to me and I hope you start feeling better aswell. I get outbursts sometimes too mostly about how she controls who I see as bestfriends or boyfriends or girlfriends (both) or things like that and it's not pretty but its cause i'm a really secretive person sometimes about how I really feel when she does it!!!! But, i'm sure you'll make alot of friends anyways!!!! I cross my fingers.... And toes!!!! heart 3nodding heart Oh no! I'm so sorry! I felt like I didn't have real freedom either! Man, it's frustrating!! I'm so sorry honey. I hope you can get out of that situation. Emotions are hard man. They're evil little things. sweatdrop My mom tried for years to get me and my bf broken up bc he's a big dude, and money......almost got me to twice. But now we're married. thbt. and I love him with all my heart. Now that I have freedom, I don't know what to do with it. She's my legal guardian too, so that's a dark cloud. Sometimes the depression gets really bad. but at least I can get out of it after like a day or two.
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Posted: Wed Feb 22, 2023 6:12 am
Hi Sarah, welcome to the AMG. I'm mama_bearr. Play the games and join in the conversations. I love your Avi. Very pretty
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Posted: Wed Feb 22, 2023 8:00 am
mama_bearr Hi Sarah, welcome to the AMG. I'm mama_bearr. Play the games and join in the conversations. I love your Avi. Very pretty
Thanks. I'm just annoyed at myself right now. stressed
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Posted: Wed Feb 22, 2023 8:56 am
Green_crayon42 mama_bearr Hi Sarah, welcome to the AMG. I'm mama_bearr. Play the games and join in the conversations. I love your Avi. Very pretty
Thanks. I'm just annoyed at myself right now. stressed
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Posted: Wed Feb 22, 2023 11:47 am
Green_crayon42 Nankurunaisa Fukanona Green_crayon42 I'm Sarah, Green, Greenie or Cray. I'm 36. I see this guild isn't quite active. That's too bad. I need some friends my age-ish. Um..I'm a TBI or Traumatic Brain Injury. I died due to lack of oxygen at 21 months. It's pure luck that I'm alive at all. ok..so nearly died. Anyway, I'm all sorts of special needs because my brain got ********. At times it's bothersome; other times, it's not. The biggest setbacks are my emotional range and reactions, I can't drive or work. or apparently talk to people. I have anxiety and depression and some ADHD. I'm usually pretty cool and calm, but if there's a stressor of any kind, I freak out. It can get bad. I've been on meds for my whole life and in therapy. I'm actually a great friend to have. I do get apathetic at times. That's usual. I'm a super super extrovert and it's hard to be alone. I cry a lot. My dad and I are friends now, and I'm almost wishing death upon my mom bc of how I was raised. I was never taught to do anything about my feelings. I had outbursts. Mom just avoided them. So my reactions are child-like and I have a very hard time controlling myself in situations. I come off as anti social without knowing it. My behavior was never shall we say curbed to appeal...so I act strangely and childish. I was my mom's special little princess who did no wrong. and that, above all else, has ruined me in very specific ways. I should be dead, or if mom would have deemed it important, in a mental hospital. I'm glad that is not the case, and I am living as I am but....still, man. My mom.... Why hey there!!!! I'm Nan, Nanku or Fuka "nowadays" on the internet.oh and I seemed to come along with the same solution although there is enough activity to stay anyways!!!! And sometimes I get depression and anxiety problems too!!!! Before, going outside was easy but "when everybody's up my back for things I did in the past I don't go outside cause I have the courage to win a fight but I get scared they'll never come up to me and make me.... Mostly just SAD the whole situation is that like anybody else I get depressed and IT CONTROLS MY WHOLE LIFE!!!! Even when ANYBODY DIES.... Its the end of the world!!!! I immediately take action and thanks to my wrong actions I would immediately go to the "mental hospital." But, yes like everyone we have those colors in our life but when they become transparent we try to re-paint something moldy and dead. And that annoys me alot but thanks to this attachment each new experience is one to miss. And its good you're pretty calm!!!! I'm half/half in certain or most situations!!!! Oh, and me and my mom get along but shes sort of controlling and I have no choice but to follow what she says cause she'll keep yelling at me until I do things. I can't say i'm an angel though. In the past I ran away!!!! And I eat junk food all the time. (that may not count) but I was really weird with people I hardly knew or strangers and when nobody was looking I would hang out with people I don't know well enough to trust to go anywhere!!!! But, other than that I guess i'm a little good. I never went out with someone cause of the analyzation process. They would always turn down every guy that said they liked me. But, if you feel free in front of me to talk you can say things to me and I hope you start feeling better aswell. I get outbursts sometimes too mostly about how she controls who I see as bestfriends or boyfriends or girlfriends (both) or things like that and it's not pretty but its cause i'm a really secretive person sometimes about how I really feel when she does it!!!! But, i'm sure you'll make alot of friends anyways!!!! I cross my fingers.... And toes!!!! heart 3nodding heart Oh no! I'm so sorry! I felt like I didn't have real freedom either! Man, it's frustrating!! I'm so sorry honey. I hope you can get out of that situation. Emotions are hard man. They're evil little things. sweatdrop My mom tried for years to get me and my bf broken up bc he's a big dude, and money......almost got me to twice. But now we're married. thbt. and I love him with all my heart. Now that I have freedom, I don't know what to do with it. She's my legal guardian too, so that's a dark cloud. Sometimes the depression gets really bad. but at least I can get out of it after like a day or two. Oh, its ok!!!! I know she doesn't notice how I feel so I know that she loves me instead "of just annoying me so I can leave" because then I would have just left!!!! Well, I hope so aswell shes really hard to convince "since any little think can trigger her judgement in you like drinking, smoking, weed, and not only when people are addicted to it but when they just do it!!!! So, I can't be with someone who goes to parties and does that stuff there or sometimes at all!!!! I can't be with a man with no money to her or that can't take care of me in her eyes meaning she wants me to stay YOUNG needing care!!!! But, I don't need it!!!! And, oh I see yeah she would be worried if they were older then me and way older looking too!!!! She wants someone not too much older than me or younger so "that it doesn't feel like the relationship could be bad or we can have a disconnection sometimes!!!!" Oh, and thats nice!!!! I'm still trying to even find out whose my type!!!! I don't even have a type!!!! I just walk around aimlessly living my life through friends!!!! I occasionally think of this as a big deal but I get over it eventually and its because my mother doesn't know how to take care of me the correct way!!!! So, when I cry for being bullied on top of other bad things in my life she doesn't know what I truly want is for someone to fix my problem. Its hard to talk to her because she doesn't "know how to fix my problems cause she doesn't know my friends, the people I know, the things i've gone through and I don't tell her anything cause when I do she doesn't believe me. Thats the reason why i'm depressed but after I sleep alone in my bed and the next day I start being ok and I get fine and just forget about it again!!!! heart 3nodding heart
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