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I am leaving tomorrow morning for Missouri. My friend I'm staying with and my mom both don't have internet. scream

We were so busy today with last minute stuff I didn't get to really be on here. Tonight after work I have to shower and go straight to bed.

You might see me online a second these next few days. That's because of my achievement I'm trying to get. My phone is good enough to log in here on my mobile internet, but everything is really slow. So when I can't get to internet I log in real quick on my phone just to keep my achievement going.

I probably won't be able to reply to anything though.

I will be back Sat the 20th late at night. So if you don't see me then I'll be on the next day.

Bye everyone! Have fun. :3

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Good luck and safe travels!!!

Hope you find a way to get your kitty
back with you emotion_c8 *waves*

It worked great with the cat this time!! I bought some pheromone spray which was around $20 and it didn't work. scream So we stopped at a vet and they recommended children's benadryl. We gave her that and after about 30 minutes she was dead silent. A few hours later she meowed but it was a calmer meow so I let her on my lap with a leash held close so she couldn't get off my lap. She slept on my lap the majority of the trip. When the medicine wore off she had been in my lap so long I guess she had gotten used to it. She actually looked out the window at stuff, something that would have terrified her before.

The trip was fun, the wedding was great. But I'm so glad to be home. Our room is full of stuff now and we still have so much to do. gonk But I needed a break. It should come together soon.

Me too. It's sooo good to be home. I had fun but being here is so much better. My mom couldn't even keep her negative comments to herself for one day. I had stayed with my friend the night before. We got in at like midnight, talked for 2 hours, then the next day went to my moms at like 10 am. I had woke up early to see my friends daughter off for school. So we had spent a whole 5 hours awake together, like that's even a long time. My friend came with us to my moms and she just missed me so much she kept talking a lot, haha. When she left I was slightly relieved at how quiet it was, haha. I said "Wow it's quiet now" and my mom said something about how Renay just kept talking to me, and as she left the room she said, "And she actually got to see you". In a pissed off voice. Omg wow, we spent 5 hours together. Even though my mom knew she got to see us from 10am-3:30pm and then around 10pm- bed and then have breakfast the next morning. My mom got way more time with me than her. Just kinda reminded me what a jealous, rude person she is. When I had told her before we would stay with Renay both nights she started crying and then got mad. I was like you really want me staying with you after all the drama that's going on at your place? Like the cops there everyday and her fighting with the neighbors. When I told Pete about my mom getting mad we wouldn't stay with her he said, "Why won't you stay with me instead, the person who treated you like s**t for 26 years??" xD But yeah we ended up staying with her anyway the second night just to please her and because it was closer to the wedding. I had told her we'd try to come back for xmas but then Renay said the farmers almanac said this winter would be terrible in Missouri. So I suggested to my mom we come back in March for her bday. She said why not May for mine instead because the weather will be nicer. I won't argue with that. That's 8 months away. I could use another break from that hell hole, haha.

Aw thank you. You're right, I don't. It's always been like that with me and her. It's actually been better in recent years. I can't even begin to tell you all the s**t she's done to me. When I was younger it was physical and mental abuse. Thankfully now she knows I will stand up for myself and it's been only mental. The day I finally slapped her in the face she hasn't touched me since. But I can't stop loving her even though that would be so much easier. I have that stupid instinct. I even know that's all it is. Cause despite the good things she has done for me it can never make up for the bad. If she was just an aunt or cousin I would never put up with her s**t. I even had no problem writing my little sister off. The crazy skipped a generation, haha. We weren't raised together so it was easier to let her go, and she is only half. I've always wanted to run away from my family. I don't relate to any of them except my cousin I was raised with. I feel like I was taken home by the wrong parents at the hospital, lol. Only thing is I can't pretend that cause I look just like them. xD

Aw, I'm sorry about your dad. I'm glad you had and still have your mom. My dad is dead too but I was 21 when it happened. He was in jail most of my life though. xD I have so many family issues. I hate it. Besides my cousin I mentioned the only other family I feel a real bond with is my half brothers, and I was separated from them for over 10 years. They are in Illinois so I never get to see them. sad When I do we always have a blast though. Next time I go to MO we have to find a way to see them. Or maybe I'll skip MO altogether and just go to IL. xD It kinda sucks we moved even further away from them. In MO we were only about 6 hours away I think. Now it's about the same from here to there as it is to MO. Ahk, I almost forgot my dad's mom. I love her to death. She's never done me wrong and taught me so much. But she's going a bit senile and hardly ever answers the phone and never calls me back. Every time we talk it's the same conversation. xD So I can just play that in my head instead of calling. xD She's almost 90 so you can't blame her. Once I got mad when I spent almost a month trying to get a hold of her. I actually got a mean tone of voice about it with her when she finally answered. Her reaction was priceless. "Ashley, I'm old." xD It forgave all the hell I went through trying to reach her. She's right, I can't expect a whole lot from her at that age.

Yeah, there were times as a kid/teen I didn't really have anyone.

But I seem to always have someone now. I don't have a ton of friends but I do have more close ones than a lot of people. I always have Pete now, but also a few others online who I could tell anything to. And my best friend Renay. We met at 15 but didn't get close like we are until after high school when we realized everyone else was fake. I got caught up in the party scene and she got caught up with guys. When we got over that we saw we were still there for each other.

That's great. :3 Really sounds like me and Renay, haha. I've had my bad boyfriends but man she never gets lucky. The guy she is with now is almost 20 years older than her and the most perfect so far. xD I really hope it works out with them and he doesn't do a flip like so many guys do. They hide their true selves so well for a while. I even hooked her up with two of the worst ones she's been with. gonk I always feel like crap for that and she tells me I was just as tricked as she was and to not beat myself up over it. She got a beautiful daughter from one of them, so I can't blame myself too much for that.