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Ohmigosh, so much. I used to be so high strung. I would flip out over everything. When I was upset I would always cause a scene. These days I hardly act that way.. I am known to say exactly what I want and sometimes curse in public.. but getting better for sure. I think it can be gradual.. but sometimes life events can change us in an instant. I know that doing mushrooms changed me. I still want to do them again and see where it gets me. Science has proven people become more open minded when they do it. It is illegal and all but whatever. xD I think it triggered something in me to look for a higher power and meaning. The older I get the more I have this thirst for weird knowledge. I want to know more and more about the world and what it means.. why we exist. Obsessed with finding out why we are here and who created us. When I was young I loved fiction. Now all I read is non-fiction. I want to soak up all the information I can find. I have become obsessed with being healthy and trying to live as long as possible. My personality has changed mostly because of all I was put through. I dealt with so many terrible things that it put things in perspective. If I am forced to deal with so much negative, I may as well be as positive as I can. Find the good in things. And I've started to learn I can ignore things. I see something that makes me angry and rather than be the old me and flip out, I try and walk away, scroll away, whatever it is I have to do to just ignore it. I realize now that letting a situation upset you won't make things any better.

It probably isn't great for me to be a shroom advocate. xD I kinda actually regret mentioning it. Things can definitely go wrong. While you can't technically OD on shrooms, you can still die from them. You might get a batch with unseen mold, or laced with some other drug or poison. You can also have a severe panic attack or a bad trip.

I however.. have done so much worse than shrooms. I used to be addicted to pills and even that terrible fake marijuana. When I think about the harder stuff shrooms just seem like another hippie drug like marijuana or opium. They are natural.

I don't think they taste like regular mushrooms. I did like the taste however. All my friends thought it was terrible and some even crushed it into orange juice to dilute the taste. I sat back munching mine like no big deal.

The biggest thing with shrooms I think is your environment. You can't be around negativity or you might freak out. My ex jokingly had closed a door in my face while I was high.. I saw volcanoes erupting in my head and it felt like the end of the world. It made me sad somehow. It's also good to have one sober person in case things get crazy.

I wouldn't recommend them to anyone who at least hasn't done marijuana. It can cause paranoia so if you get paranoid on weed it's a bad idea. And you have to tell yourself everything is fine and nothing will go wrong. You can psych yourself out into getting freaked out.

My friends had recommended 3 grams since I'd never done it before. Being the sissy I am I ate half of it.. only 1.5 grams. My friends tripped and saw hallucinations. I did not. I saw things in my head, but not in the room. It did feel like things were moving, but when I would look straight at them they would look normal. I probably would never do over 2 grams.

One thing to know too is that it's 99.9% likely you will puke. Once you do it feels great for some reason. xD My friends had taken 5 grams each and spent hours puking.. I laughed at them the next day because for me it was nothing. I was standing there talking, then all of a sudden ran to the trash and threw up once. It didn't even bother me somehow that I puked.. it wasn't unpleasant. xD

As for where to get them.. ha. Even someone like me with all my "druggie" friends have only heard of people having it a few times. It's easier to get freaking meth or crack than shrooms. Not that I ever tried, but it's been offered. I have heard you can buy them online and grow them yourself. But in a place with mold, your shrooms would be toxic.

Oh, that's so great! :3 As for your memory problems I've got them bad too. Not quite as bad, haha. Mine is more short-term. Keeping a diary definitely does help. And I'm with you on only writing when I was upset. My happy journal entries were so few and far between when I was younger. I do have trouble keeping up with one as well. I always tell myself though that someday I'll write that autobiography, haha. Now that Gaia and Facebook have come along the diary has become digital though. I often find myself getting on here or Facebook to find out when big things happened, like quitting smoking. If you want to improve your memory, I know omega 3's are said to be great for that. Also green tea and any antioxidant. Fruits and veggies have antioxidants, especially the most colorful like bananas and watermelon. For veggies it's the leafy greens like broccoli and spinach.

Yes, it would be good to observe someone else first. Haha now I'm thinking about my friend Renay's reaction. I remember out of nowhere she started petting my arm. Then she would apologize like she had really violated me.. hahaha.. then she'd do it again, and apologize again.. haha. This went on maybe 5 or 6 times. xD

It could have been the strain. Some weed smells like a skunk. I think it all smells good.. mmmm. BUT. I started thinking differently recently.

When we were on our way here it started sinking in more how we can't be high around Pete's mom. She's always been in denial that he smokes. And we definitely don't have the "balls" to do it in her house. But we went to his dads, who is cool with weed. We noticed the smell coming from his bro's room. He must have started smoking again. Him and his brother had this game. A game Pete never agreed to. xD When they were young, too young to be smoking, his brother said, "Lets play a game! Whoever finds the others weed can smoke it!" A few years had gone by and Pete noticed some of his stuff was gone. He confronted John, and he said, "Oh, we're still playing the game." xD So after Pete told me that I had no conscience in taking his ashes. Yes, ashes. xD John has this bad habit of lighting the stuff 2 or 3 times and dumping it out. You can literally still see green weed in his ashes. xD So for a few days we would go over at night and smoke his ashes. I started to realize I wasn't craving it. The first few days I would say, "Lets go do it!" And then I didn't even think about it. It would be Pete who would mention it. Then we missed a day... didn't even think about it. I am on the job hunt, and I kept running into jobs that sounded great.. then I'd see where they said they drug tested, and it would be over. Then I started thinking about how expensive it is.. especially here in Alabama. No job, and it would cost us probably $120 a week to smoke like we did in Missouri. I started to realize I don't need it. I talked to my friend about it.. and she said it's amazing how we realize we don't need a crutch when the stress is out of our lives. And that's what it was. All the stress of my crappy job, my mom, my neighbors.. made me need something to calm down. But now those stressors are gone. I got a drug test a few days ago, and I passed!! I'm sober.. haven't been in years. It feels great actually. Weed was like an addiction to me. They say it's not addictive, and that's a damn lie. You can be addicted to anything, even food, so why not weed? It became something I had to do.. not something I did for fun. It was just part of who I was. But now it's not. I still don't really find anything wrong with it.. so long as you are over 18. Something I wish my mom had told me is THC is bad.. for the developing mind. If I ever have kids I won't fail to stress that. It causes irreversible damage in young people. Memory problems, mental issues. For all I know it could be why my mom is so crazy. I think weed should be a recreational thing for adults.. like drinking. When you do it every day.. it just controls you. When I would go without it for just a day I would go nuts. And now look at me. Not a drop of THC in my body, and I feel fine. biggrin

confused Im aware of THC
but I have no idea what it is.

I know only small things about it.
Like you can get it from smoke aaaand
you can fail a drug test if they find it in you.

I was born into the Sign of the Virgo, but after that horoscope shift debacle, I read the description of the Scorpio and felt my evolved self fits with it. I do believe one's personality shifts over time. There is an eternal truth that remains but it is shaped by culture and circumstance. It is possible to lose one's personality in the midst of cultural pressures, but is it possible that malleability or chameleon trait is also a part of one's personality?

It came with the addition of the sign ... Ociphidus? Ophidius? Crap, I forgot it. Google it, 13th Zodiac Sign. There'll be a new chart, but I don't think many people pay attention to it. I'm pretty sure Horoscopes.com still only offers twelve insights lol.