Dear Maple,

I think my egg has been kickin' around inside and making noises and doing weird stuff. Is that supposed to happen? I'm a bit worried. I've been caring for it like you're supposed to, playing heavy metal music and giving it time in the sauna to incubate. I've also been rubbing it all over and polishing it up to make it super shiny. Is it mad at me? It's kinda freaking me out a little bit.

I woke up in the middle of the night to this weird growl from inside the egg, and I felt it rocking back and forth like a shaking sensation in my arms while I slept with it. I thought I was having a nightmare!

I'm excited to see my first Pokemon but I'm a bit scared that it might hate me. I feel like I've been doing everything I can to try and make it happy but I'm worried it's not enough.

Will my Pokemon like me, and if they don't will they learn to love me?

I've had it sitting with me for every meal (and occasionally wondered maybe my egg would develop a mouth and eat with me too) . I've even been letting it listen to Pokemon training videos in hopes that they'll be a pro battler! I've been doing so many things to help it grow and get ready to hatch ...

... but I'm so scared. I'm starting to have some doubts about becoming a trainer. Was the project right for me? Do I really have what it takes to make my dreams come true? To not disappoint my Pokemon ... to disappoint myself? I've chosen a tough path and I'm still trying to figure out if it was the right one for me. This was what I wanted, wasn't it? Didn't I think that I could do this?

I wouldn't dare say these kinds of things around my Pokemon ... not even in their egg form. I don't wanna give them a complex. I'm kinda glad I'm going through this phase before my babies hatch.

I hope they're born healthy. Can Pokemon be born ill? Mutated? Something worse? Well, I guess TECHNICALLY my eggs are gonna end up 'mutated'. They are fusions after all. I'm just ... really worried I did something wrong. It's like being a first time parent I imagine.

Whoa. It just dawned on me that people my age are becoming first parents, not just getting their first Pokemon. How am I supposed to feel about this? I ...

... Well, I guess. This is my family now. This is what my life will be dedicated to. I'll find love in my Pokemon and not in another human being. That doesn't sound so bad. It certainly sounds busy and not at all lonely. I don't think I'll mind such a life. I hope.

Anyways, I hope this was enough of a check-in for you. It's been a bit of an emotional roller coaster ride, and if I was a chick I'd be concerned about post ... post ... wussit called? Post-matern? Modern? Mafoozle? THAT THING WHERE MOTHERS DROWN THEIR BABIES AND GET ALL DEPRESSED. Luckily I'm not and can't carry children (let alone Pokemon).

I'm not mentally unstable I swear,
Blaze