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Walking in causally, knocking the door open with his foot, he walked in, closing the door behind in some strange rage and sat down in one of the seats adjacent to Jousake, if he was in. He had enough of those two, but there was something truly bothering him inside. He couldn't help but feel a strange pain in his chest that he hadn't felt for years. Guilt. Lots and lots of guilt. He sighed quietly, thinking to himself on the subject. 'This is strange... I never feel this way... Ever.. Why now? Was it because of those two; Nocella and the Head?' He thought about those questions, wondering what had him like this for the last past minutes. This would never last this long, especially for a guy like him. Soon, a sudden realization came to him as he felt himself stiffen at the thought. 'Am I... Feeling lonely..? And blaming it on myself?' He thought, blinking a few times. He had to think this through...

As he grew up, he wasn't guaranteed to make friends. His tough and harsh demeanor pushed people to stay away from him. The only time he had ever had a friend was when he was human, back in the world of the living. She was his only friend, until she committed suicide. After that, everyone avoided him in this world. He was scary and intimidating, of course he would never get a 'friend.' As the thought of having a friend build in his mind, he soon crumbled it as he was sure that friends were burdens. Nothing but people that could potentially bring you down. Having a friend means to protect each other. But what if you couldn't protect them and they died because of you? What kind of friend would you be? Atushiko would never take that risk. He soon remembered his adopted siblings. They were so close, it was disgusting. They had each other's backs for years, yet, when he would think about them, he felt a strange sense of jealousy. He didn't know why, but he hated feeling this way, especially about others, trying to keep his mind off of it, he looked to Jousake.

This person was probably the only guy he could be quiet around without getting angry. He would never consider him a friend. Just cause he went along well with Jousake and Atushiko had only a bit of trust towards the man, didn't mean they were friends. It was only a way to describe the other to him. As he thought about that for a few seconds, he spoke up, not being as loud as he usually would be. "Hey." He said plainly, hiding his uncomfortable thoughts by his expression, blank and dull eyes with his usual frown when he's with Jousake. A smirk lifted it's way onto his face as he looked at the other, hoping he didn't realize that his smirk was twitching just the slightest bit.

His smirk disappeared as he was asked if he was alright. Thinking about it, he found that he hadn't been so sure on if he was actually okay or not. Was he okay? Being stressed over what? Family and friends? Yeah right. Sighing lightly as he couldn't deny it, he replied to his comrade in the most calmest way he could, not liking the fact he was showing weakness. "Well... Not really.." He said, obliging to the fact that he was indeed at least a bit stressed. He wasn't sure why, but he could only guess he was stressed because of the fact he was jealous, and he didn't want to be jealous. It was only a matter of time until he completely confessed, but that would take centuries of hard work to get into his stone cold heart.

Watching the two have a quick conversation, seeing Jousake's disappointment about her not joining them {which made his chest hurt even more within}, he soon watched as Jousake gave her a few suggestions before waving goodbye to her, while he on the other hand just watched her leaver curiously. Lieutenant like Captain maybe? Oh well. His thoughts were interrupted when Jousake gave him a bit of advice about not keeping emotions bottled up inside you. With a sigh, he couldn't help but agree, but he couldn't fight the fact that whatever he was gonna spill, he felt completely vulnerable and weak just talking about such emotions, but if the other suggested that it's not good, then he'll have to answer anyway. Listening to him ask him what was bothering him once more, he couldn't help but take a deep breath, than speak. "Well... After I went to go see what the Head Captain was up to, she seemed to 'cheerily' talk to Nocella and ever since, my chest has been hurting. Then when I come here to see you talking cheerily with that girl that seems to have the same personality condition you have, it makes my chest hurt even more..." He confessed, looking away as he raised a hand to his chest, as if making a solemn statement. He soon moved on to confess his hypothesis on why his chest may be hurting.

Coughing lightly, as if trying to say the line correctly, he looked down towards the ground to avoid eye contact. "And I think... I might be.. j..jea...lous.." He said a bit quietly, looking away as his face was kinda hidden behind bangs. It was hard to confess that he was jealous because he thought that Jousake might laugh at him, despite his kind nature, and say that it wasn't like him, which was true, but just confessing it made him feel weak and retarded, which the other noble families would call him all the time. Gripping his chest, he sighed, expecting the worse to come out from the pink-haired males mouth.

Atushiko sighed, listening to the man and his advice. He frowned, rolling his eyes and leaning back against the chair he sat in. Once he finished speaking, he slapped his hand onto his face. "I know! I know! It's not really that. I'm jealous because I don't have friends.." He said, frowning. He was fine being alone, but the fact that everyone had someone to depend on like a close friend, it made him feel somewhat out of place, especially when they were so happy with each other.

Atushiko listened and groaned. He didn't want to join them for so many reasons he couldn't count them all even if he tried. Frowning, he shook his head. "I doubt it. If I go out with them, they will all just ignore me. Some of them don't even like me, man!" He pointed out, throwing his arms up in a comical defense before dropping them to his sides and sighing. "Besides.. How do you even make friends? I mean, what's so important about friends if some of them just let you down..." He points out again, turning his position so he was laying on the chair he was sitting on and poked lazily at the other's face, mumbling several things under his breath before stubbornly groaning, poking the other's face a bit harder.