I'm making this thread mainly for me, Victoria Whitechapel, and Ihre Prinzessin. to pray for each other, but please, don't feel like you can't join us! If you need prayer or want to add something to the conversation like similar interests or advice, please do! We like to make friends. c:
Posted: Mon Feb 11, 2013 8:21 pm
Victoria Whitechapel
Hey Vic, I decided to make this tonight because I need prayer. This entire month for me has been one big meltdown. At first, it started because I forgot about some Internet classes I was enrolled in until halfway through the first week of this semester; already, I had missed some assignments and was behind in the material. I spent about 6 hours every night teaching myself math, and ended up dropping my Internet math class for one in a traditional classroom, and then ended up dropping that one as well because after I spent 11 hours one Saturday teaching myself the first chapter, nothing I had toiled so long over had been on the test over Chapter 1. There were tears I had spent over that class; I felt like a failure because I wasn't understanding the material, and even more so for quitting. I promised myself I would go into an easier class next semester, but I still feel guilty about it. I don't know if God wanted me to drop that class or if He wants me to even go back into an easier Algebra class before I jump into the harder one..
The second stressball came from my chemistry class. My teacher is really mean; his sense of humor is really rather cruel. He finds ways for you to feel really dumb. When you ask a question, he makes you feel dumb for asking it. He doesn't really 'teach' in class; he expects us to read the chapters of the textbook and take notes and do problems in the book. I've been doing that. I spend hours reading the text, taking notes, and doing problems, and yet, I still fail quizzes and on my first test, I scored a 70%. I'm not used to this.. During my senior year in high school, I nearly failed physics because I hadn't been reading the material, but then I did, and I brought my grade up to a B+ before the end of the year. It isn't the same in Chemistry this year; no matter how hard I try, I still fail. I'm used to getting straight As with perhaps a B or two. I'm so stressed that I''m going to flunk out of college and be left behind when my classmates are progressing without me. Not to mention I'd lose my financial aid...
My third stressball, the final one, is my work. I work at a daycare taking care of babies, and you may think it's easy, but, it's not. It's really not. I have 7 babies to take care of that all need to be changed and fed at once. Each mother has certain expectations and rules to follow for their kids (one mom wants lotion put on her twin boys before she picks them up, another wants her baby to be burped three times during the course of drinking a bottle). The thing, is that I keep making mistakes, and I keep getting in trouble. I'm not used to getting in trouble; at my last job working at a theme park, I rarely did anything wrong. I cried literally all day at the daycare one time because I kept making mistakes. My boss apologized for stressing me out, and we worked it out, but I'm still making mistakes, and no matter how small, it seems huge. I can't stand messing up, and yet I do, constantly.
I'm not sure what I want you to pray for me for. I crave being close to God, but no matter how many times I tell Him to take control, that my way isn't working, I still feel at an arms distance from Him. I hate it..I don't know how to stop it. I'm so worried about failing, and I know He's trying to teach me something, but what that is, I have no idea. Please pray for some clarity, that His words will reach my ears..I want to feel Him in my life again. I want to be close like we used to be..
Hey Vic, I decided to make this tonight because I need prayer. This entire month for me has been one big meltdown. At first, it started because I forgot about some Internet classes I was enrolled in until halfway through the first week of this semester; already, I had missed some assignments and was behind in the material. I spent about 6 hours every night teaching myself math, and ended up dropping my Internet math class for one in a traditional classroom, and then ended up dropping that one as well because after I spent 11 hours one Saturday teaching myself the first chapter, nothing I had toiled so long over had been on the test over Chapter 1. There were tears I had spent over that class; I felt like a failure because I wasn't understanding the material, and even more so for quitting. I promised myself I would go into an easier class next semester, but I still feel guilty about it. I don't know if God wanted me to drop that class or if He wants me to even go back into an easier Algebra class before I jump into the harder one..
The second stressball came from my chemistry class. My teacher is really mean; his sense of humor is really rather cruel. He finds ways for you to feel really dumb. When you ask a question, he makes you feel dumb for asking it. He doesn't really 'teach' in class; he expects us to read the chapters of the textbook and take notes and do problems in the book. I've been doing that. I spend hours reading the text, taking notes, and doing problems, and yet, I still fail quizzes and on my first test, I scored a 70%. I'm not used to this.. During my senior year in high school, I nearly failed physics because I hadn't been reading the material, but then I did, and I brought my grade up to a B+ before the end of the year. It isn't the same in Chemistry this year; no matter how hard I try, I still fail. I'm used to getting straight As with perhaps a B or two. I'm so stressed that I''m going to flunk out of college and be left behind when my classmates are progressing without me. Not to mention I'd lose my financial aid...
My third stressball, the final one, is my work. I work at a daycare taking care of babies, and you may think it's easy, but, it's not. It's really not. I have 7 babies to take care of that all need to be changed and fed at once. Each mother has certain expectations and rules to follow for their kids (one mom wants lotion put on her twin boys before she picks them up, another wants her baby to be burped three times during the course of drinking a bottle). The thing, is that I keep making mistakes, and I keep getting in trouble. I'm not used to getting in trouble; at my last job working at a theme park, I rarely did anything wrong. I cried literally all day at the daycare one time because I kept making mistakes. My boss apologized for stressing me out, and we worked it out, but I'm still making mistakes, and no matter how small, it seems huge. I can't stand messing up, and yet I do, constantly.
I'm not sure what I want you to pray for me for. I crave being close to God, but no matter how many times I tell Him to take control, that my way isn't working, I still feel at an arms distance from Him. I hate it..I don't know how to stop it. I'm so worried about failing, and I know He's trying to teach me something, but what that is, I have no idea. Please pray for some clarity, that His words will reach my ears..I want to feel Him in my life again. I want to be close like we used to be..
I most certainly will. It does sound like you are going through a lot of stress I am not sure if I can give you any good advice but sometimes when I get stressed out which is often let me tell you I just tell myself to breathe I close my eyes and force everything out of my head and I try to relax. I think sometimes you have to remind yourself you only get one life and you need to make the most of it. I believe sometimes we seem to put too much on our selves and expect perfection in everything we try. The fact is no one is perfect we all make mistakes and trust me I have made a ton. As far as your school goes I think maybe you should think about limiting your hard classes or classes you know you might have trouble with to one at a time or one a semester that way you can focus on that class more. I do not know if that is possible or not but I think you should at least try. I will tell you when I was in high school I had a rough time in math and chemistry. My best subjects are history and English. As you know I am thinking about going back to school if I can figure out how to swing it but I promise you I will have many troubles when it comes to math. You are not a failure as long as you try I know this because I have truly failed in my life because I stopped trying keep trying and do not follow my example. Just make sure you pace your self and do not bite off more than you can chew. I think that is the key and I think if you can just relax a little and take on one thing at a time you will be fine smile As far as getting closer to God I will pray for you on this too but I have no advice unfortunately. Mainly because I myself have been away from God for so long and I feel as if though I have not figured out how to repair that gap or even if I can. I will pray that you can get closer to him smile So in closing my really long response I will just say to relax and breathe you will not always win at everything but as long as you try your hardest you can not truly fail smile Oh and I salute you for taking care of those babies I could never do that I do not have the patience LOL .
Posted: Tue Feb 12, 2013 2:07 pm
Victoria Whitechapel
I most certainly will. It does sound like you are going through a lot of stress I am not sure if I can give you any good advice but sometimes when I get stressed out which is often let me tell you I just tell myself to breathe I close my eyes and force everything out of my head and I try to relax. I think sometimes you have to remind yourself you only get one life and you need to make the most of it. I believe sometimes we seem to put too much on our selves and expect perfection in everything we try. The fact is no one is perfect we all make mistakes and trust me I have made a ton. As far as your school goes I think maybe you should think about limiting your hard classes or classes you know you might have trouble with to one at a time or one a semester that way you can focus on that class more. I do not know if that is possible or not but I think you should at least try. I will tell you when I was in high school I had a rough time in math and chemistry. My best subjects are history and English. As you know I am thinking about going back to school if I can figure out how to swing it but I promise you I will have many troubles when it comes to math. You are not a failure as long as you try I know this because I have truly failed in my life because I stopped trying keep trying and do not follow my example. Just make sure you pace your self and do not bite off more than you can chew. I think that is the key and I think if you can just relax a little and take on one thing at a time you will be fine smile As far as getting closer to God I will pray for you on this too but I have no advice unfortunately. Mainly because I myself have been away from God for so long and I feel as if though I have not figured out how to repair that gap or even if I can. I will pray that you can get closer to him smile So in closing my really long response I will just say to relax and breathe you will not always win at everything but as long as you try your hardest you can not truly fail smile Oh and I salute you for taking care of those babies I could never do that I do not have the patience LOL .
Thanks Vic. It means a lot to me. Although I can't take only one class at a time without losing my financial aid, I will try to tell myself to breathe and that I don't fail whenever I get stressed.
Thank you for your prayers. I feel much better today, especially after I had vented all that to you. Sorry it was a ton to read!
I most certainly will. It does sound like you are going through a lot of stress I am not sure if I can give you any good advice but sometimes when I get stressed out which is often let me tell you I just tell myself to breathe I close my eyes and force everything out of my head and I try to relax. I think sometimes you have to remind yourself you only get one life and you need to make the most of it. I believe sometimes we seem to put too much on our selves and expect perfection in everything we try. The fact is no one is perfect we all make mistakes and trust me I have made a ton. As far as your school goes I think maybe you should think about limiting your hard classes or classes you know you might have trouble with to one at a time or one a semester that way you can focus on that class more. I do not know if that is possible or not but I think you should at least try. I will tell you when I was in high school I had a rough time in math and chemistry. My best subjects are history and English. As you know I am thinking about going back to school if I can figure out how to swing it but I promise you I will have many troubles when it comes to math. You are not a failure as long as you try I know this because I have truly failed in my life because I stopped trying keep trying and do not follow my example. Just make sure you pace your self and do not bite off more than you can chew. I think that is the key and I think if you can just relax a little and take on one thing at a time you will be fine smile As far as getting closer to God I will pray for you on this too but I have no advice unfortunately. Mainly because I myself have been away from God for so long and I feel as if though I have not figured out how to repair that gap or even if I can. I will pray that you can get closer to him smile So in closing my really long response I will just say to relax and breathe you will not always win at everything but as long as you try your hardest you can not truly fail smile Oh and I salute you for taking care of those babies I could never do that I do not have the patience LOL .
Thanks Vic. It means a lot to me. Although I can't take only one class at a time without losing my financial aid, I will try to tell myself to breathe and that I don't fail whenever I get stressed.
Thank you for your prayers. I feel much better today, especially after I had vented all that to you. Sorry it was a ton to read!
Do you have anything you'd like me to pray for?
Do not feel sorry I did not mind reading it one bit smile oh and I was not suggesting that you only take one class I meant try to limit how many potentially hard classes you take at a time so like take one math class along with classes you have an easier time with so you only have one stressful class at a time. Of course that might not be possible either. I am glad you feel a little better now smile and do not hesitate to send me a pm or post in here anytime you need to vent. As for me well I am not sure I have been really down lately and I have been just getting through it my insomnia and depression are after me with a vengeance I feel emotionally spent and pretty much tired of everything. I also feel kind of spacey and physically drained. So I guess i need prayer on that I am so tired of being this way and its not healthy for me to continue so just pray the black cloud over me goes away. I am really glad you started this thread smile I think it is a wonderful idea for both of us.
Posted: Tue Feb 12, 2013 11:32 pm
Victoria Whitechapel
Do not feel sorry I did not mind reading it one bit smile oh and I was not suggesting that you only take one class I meant try to limit how many potentially hard classes you take at a time so like take one math class along with classes you have an easier time with so you only have one stressful class at a time. Of course that might not be possible either. I am glad you feel a little better now smile and do not hesitate to send me a pm or post in here anytime you need to vent. As for me well I am not sure I have been really down lately and I have been just getting through it my insomnia and depression are after me with a vengeance I feel emotionally spent and pretty much tired of everything. I also feel kind of spacey and physically drained. So I guess i need prayer on that I am so tired of being this way and its not healthy for me to continue so just pray the black cloud over me goes away. I am really glad you started this thread smile I think it is a wonderful idea for both of us.
That makes more sense. I was actually thinking of doing that..but I don't know if I can do that cuz I have so many hard classes to take. I'll certainly try though and let you know how it goes when the time comes :3 Sorry for misunderstanding you
I'm really sorry you're having such a tough time. I know it's really hard, what you're going through. I've gone through my own depression that lasted for months.. I wish I could be there with you, I really do. I don't want you to be alone anymore. You should call up your friends tomorrow (or today) and go do something together. Go see a movie, see Warm Bodies! Or you could buy Wreck-it Ralph. It finally came out on DVD :3 I will certainly keep you in my prayers Vic, I promise. I'll do whatever I can to help. I'm glad that we could make this thread too. It helps.
Do not feel sorry I did not mind reading it one bit smile oh and I was not suggesting that you only take one class I meant try to limit how many potentially hard classes you take at a time so like take one math class along with classes you have an easier time with so you only have one stressful class at a time. Of course that might not be possible either. I am glad you feel a little better now smile and do not hesitate to send me a pm or post in here anytime you need to vent. As for me well I am not sure I have been really down lately and I have been just getting through it my insomnia and depression are after me with a vengeance I feel emotionally spent and pretty much tired of everything. I also feel kind of spacey and physically drained. So I guess i need prayer on that I am so tired of being this way and its not healthy for me to continue so just pray the black cloud over me goes away. I am really glad you started this thread smile I think it is a wonderful idea for both of us.
That makes more sense. I was actually thinking of doing that..but I don't know if I can do that cuz I have so many hard classes to take. I'll certainly try though and let you know how it goes when the time comes :3 Sorry for misunderstanding you
I'm really sorry you're having such a tough time. I know it's really hard, what you're going through. I've gone through my own depression that lasted for months.. I wish I could be there with you, I really do. I don't want you to be alone anymore. You should call up your friends tomorrow (or today) and go do something together. Go see a movie, see Warm Bodies! Or you could buy Wreck-it Ralph. It finally came out on DVD :3 I will certainly keep you in my prayers Vic, I promise. I'll do whatever I can to help. I'm glad that we could make this thread too. It helps.
I know I should but when I get home I just don't feel like doing anything I appreciate you praying for me though smile I have just been laying around my home and avoiding the outside world if only I could sleep lol I am so tired I feel as if I could sleep for days but I cant manage to stay asleep longer than an hour. being depressed and an insomniac really sucks lol All I really want to do is sleep and shut the world out for awhile Maybe I need to see a doctor. Anyways I will get over it Thank you for letting me vent too smile I am glad we are praying for each other smile
Posted: Sun Feb 17, 2013 5:13 pm
Victoria Whitechapel
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Victoria Whitechapel
Do not feel sorry I did not mind reading it one bit smile oh and I was not suggesting that you only take one class I meant try to limit how many potentially hard classes you take at a time so like take one math class along with classes you have an easier time with so you only have one stressful class at a time. Of course that might not be possible either. I am glad you feel a little better now smile and do not hesitate to send me a pm or post in here anytime you need to vent. As for me well I am not sure I have been really down lately and I have been just getting through it my insomnia and depression are after me with a vengeance I feel emotionally spent and pretty much tired of everything. I also feel kind of spacey and physically drained. So I guess i need prayer on that I am so tired of being this way and its not healthy for me to continue so just pray the black cloud over me goes away. I am really glad you started this thread smile I think it is a wonderful idea for both of us.
That makes more sense. I was actually thinking of doing that..but I don't know if I can do that cuz I have so many hard classes to take. I'll certainly try though and let you know how it goes when the time comes :3 Sorry for misunderstanding you
I'm really sorry you're having such a tough time. I know it's really hard, what you're going through. I've gone through my own depression that lasted for months.. I wish I could be there with you, I really do. I don't want you to be alone anymore. You should call up your friends tomorrow (or today) and go do something together. Go see a movie, see Warm Bodies! Or you could buy Wreck-it Ralph. It finally came out on DVD :3 I will certainly keep you in my prayers Vic, I promise. I'll do whatever I can to help. I'm glad that we could make this thread too. It helps.
I know I should but when I get home I just don't feel like doing anything I appreciate you praying for me though smile I have just been laying around my home and avoiding the outside world if only I could sleep lol I am so tired I feel as if I could sleep for days but I cant manage to stay asleep longer than an hour. being depressed and an insomniac really sucks lol All I really want to do is sleep and shut the world out for awhile Maybe I need to see a doctor. Anyways I will get over it Thank you for letting me vent too smile I am glad we are praying for each other smile
Well Whitechapel, the best you can do is stay strong and perhaps daycare isn't for you. When I was at my former school the holy spirit told me to leave Devry but I gave Devry a chance, and the holy spirit responded saying this. "Alright get your feelings hurt... but in the end you will come out as beautiful." It said. When the holy spirit speak you hear it inside your head at random. Sure enough the holy spirit was right, feelings hurt but becoming a beautiful person in the end. Daycare isn't meant for you, find another position.
Do not feel sorry I did not mind reading it one bit smile oh and I was not suggesting that you only take one class I meant try to limit how many potentially hard classes you take at a time so like take one math class along with classes you have an easier time with so you only have one stressful class at a time. Of course that might not be possible either. I am glad you feel a little better now smile and do not hesitate to send me a pm or post in here anytime you need to vent. As for me well I am not sure I have been really down lately and I have been just getting through it my insomnia and depression are after me with a vengeance I feel emotionally spent and pretty much tired of everything. I also feel kind of spacey and physically drained. So I guess i need prayer on that I am so tired of being this way and its not healthy for me to continue so just pray the black cloud over me goes away. I am really glad you started this thread smile I think it is a wonderful idea for both of us.
That makes more sense. I was actually thinking of doing that..but I don't know if I can do that cuz I have so many hard classes to take. I'll certainly try though and let you know how it goes when the time comes :3 Sorry for misunderstanding you
I'm really sorry you're having such a tough time. I know it's really hard, what you're going through. I've gone through my own depression that lasted for months.. I wish I could be there with you, I really do. I don't want you to be alone anymore. You should call up your friends tomorrow (or today) and go do something together. Go see a movie, see Warm Bodies! Or you could buy Wreck-it Ralph. It finally came out on DVD :3 I will certainly keep you in my prayers Vic, I promise. I'll do whatever I can to help. I'm glad that we could make this thread too. It helps.
I know I should but when I get home I just don't feel like doing anything I appreciate you praying for me though smile I have just been laying around my home and avoiding the outside world if only I could sleep lol I am so tired I feel as if I could sleep for days but I cant manage to stay asleep longer than an hour. being depressed and an insomniac really sucks lol All I really want to do is sleep and shut the world out for awhile Maybe I need to see a doctor. Anyways I will get over it Thank you for letting me vent too smile I am glad we are praying for each other smile
Well Whitechapel, the best you can do is stay strong and perhaps daycare isn't for you. When I was at my former school the holy spirit told me to leave Devry but I gave Devry a chance, and the holy spirit responded saying this. "Alright get your feelings hurt... but in the end you will come out as beautiful." It said. When the holy spirit speak you hear it inside your head at random. Sure enough the holy spirit was right, feelings hurt but becoming a beautiful person in the end. Daycare isn't meant for you, find another position.
Hello thank you for the advice but I think you got me and Bliss mixed up she is working at the daycare smile but I do appreciate your kind thoughts and prayers. Thank you.
Posted: Tue Feb 19, 2013 1:28 pm
Well the best I can say is do god's will. To often people think to much about the future, and to find out all along god wanted me to be a servant and not lead. God really got me owned it's not even funny, if god wanted me to draw and shout I love you, in my heart I would do it and react. The point is god will lead. I am literally on stuck following Christ like permanent glue to a paper, I don't control my fate let along future anymore, the only thing I can do is say "Lead me god." In life I always had this lead me bridal personality, which is the bride of Christ mentality to her king. I feel I'm about to start talking in heaven's throat so I will end this paragraph.
The sparkly glistening crystal rain never stopped raining, the heart of god is paradise and one finds consent in the lord. If you could even feel my memories of god's heart Christ's got you on the now. In life I often felt this non acceptance in people, every person had this rift in my heart I couldn't connect with, thus the vows couldn't flow not once. I was foolish, I thought I was mankind's mate, this whole time my soul was holding my wedding ring to the messiah in heaven, even the messiah himself appeared telling me to clean up house in my sleep, I kept getting this feeling I am about to go home to heaven. I always knew in me I was above this world, and I came to know humbleness, love, and grace. This world so adorned by people and all I see is dry bones and hot stones, this world is not me sorry, refreshing cool springs crystal clear in the spring is me, only heaven can bring that. People mock but I smile, they think they know me, but calling me ugly is like calling heaven ugly, people are foolish world.
I know I should but when I get home I just don't feel like doing anything I appreciate you praying for me though smile I have just been laying around my home and avoiding the outside world if only I could sleep lol I am so tired I feel as if I could sleep for days but I cant manage to stay asleep longer than an hour. being depressed and an insomniac really sucks lol All I really want to do is sleep and shut the world out for awhile Maybe I need to see a doctor. Anyways I will get over it Thank you for letting me vent too smile I am glad we are praying for each other smile
I can't imagine having insomnia night after night. When I can't sleep, sometimes I cry. Though, I'm emotional as it is.... I'm sorry you're not sleeping well, and that you haven't been sleeping much at all. I'll pray that you get some rest soon.
Here's a link for helping insomnia. One interesting thing I learned is that your brain can not like your bedroom anymore because it knows it'll spend the night tossing and turning. Have you tried sleeping on your couch? All of the other suggestions sounded like they wouldn't do much good...What I would try personally if I were having trouble sleeping, is I would get supplements. The two the article above mentioned is melatonin and valerian. Though I would stay away from sleeping pills personally...My mom uses them. Once you start, I think it's hard to sleep without them. I hope this helped :3
Posted: Tue Feb 19, 2013 10:27 pm
Dawn Landers
Well the best I can say is do god's will. To often people think to much about the future, and to find out all along god wanted me to be a servant and not lead. God really got me owned it's not even funny, if god wanted me to draw and shout I love you, in my heart I would do it and react. The point is god will lead. I am literally on stuck following Christ like permanent glue to a paper, I don't control my fate let along future anymore, the only thing I can do is say "Lead me god." In life I always had this lead me bridal personality, which is the bride of Christ mentality to her king. I feel I'm about to start talking in heaven's throat so I will end this paragraph.
The sparkly glistening crystal rain never stopped raining, the heart of god is paradise and one finds consent in the lord. If you could even feel my memories of god's heart Christ's got you on the now. In life I often felt this non acceptance in people, every person had this rift in my heart I couldn't connect with, thus the vows couldn't flow not once. I was foolish, I thought I was mankind's mate, this whole time my soul was holding my wedding ring to the messiah in heaven, even the messiah himself appeared telling me to clean up house in my sleep, I kept getting this feeling I am about to go home to heaven. I always knew in me I was above this world, and I came to know humbleness, love, and grace. This world so adorned by people and all I see is dry bones and hot stones, this world is not me sorry, refreshing cool springs crystal clear in the spring is me, only heaven can bring that. People mock but I smile, they think they know me, but calling me ugly is like calling heaven ugly, people are foolish world.
This was very beautiful. I haven't thought about being God's bride in a really long time. My mom used to have this devotional that was titled "God's princess" or something, and I didn't think much of it at the time. I don't think I like thinking of myself as His wife, but rather, his daughter. He's the perfect Father.
It's wonderful that you've gotten to a place in your life where you let God lead wholly. I wish I could be like that. I used to pray to Him a lot back when I was in high school and living with my mom, but I have a hard time lately because I'm happy; whereas, before I was so lonely and upset. It's difficult for me to hear His voice, and because of that, I feel severed from Him, and I hate it.
I'm laughing how the world thought they could bring me to ruin and take council against me, but in the end they couldn't kill me. In this crazy world the one thing they consider important is your death words, thus they remain boastful of your other words other than that. The world was successful at showing me their clowns worth staying aloof from not bothered, thus made themselves a joke to behold. I honestly thought mankind had love, but in the end if they don't truly have heaven they are imposters in the end. You could say this is my closing statement on one chapter in my life , so much wisdom I gained. Months before I had a dream a storm was coming at my former school, the flood took many away but the flood avoided me as I walked with Christ, recently the storm came to pass and I can no longer return to that place. So much outcomes so much possibilities, but it's nothing if it isn't god's plan. Your probably asking me what do I know? As I recall I couldn't do nothing without Christ many times in my life, people wanted me to lead but they forgot I'm another soul as the bridal to Christ, the king is my head and I cannot do anything with out the master of the house giving me control. The head did say clean myself up and I did and still continue to re-rinse and shower daily from sin, I don't control my life I never did, in my foolishness I listened to the world only to go ba in the end. People ask what am I going to do next in my life, I tell them, my plans are nothing if it isn't god's plan. I took a major step forward once in my life only to be evicted and pulled back by Christ , and the people who evicted me, I kept getting the feeling they were spiritually programed to evict me.
The point is you know nothing, everything you thought you had power over is nothing but dust, like fire in a hay stack. The lord truly did a number on me, I cannot do anything if it isn't god's plan. People come asking the same stuff and I'm like uh, I'm not going down that road again and I already know how it ends, and I wish my mother would understand. God is raising up holy people to be blameless, and I surly got caught up in the storm. People might ask I should lead, but woe you hypocrite if it isn't god's plan.
I know I should but when I get home I just don't feel like doing anything I appreciate you praying for me though smile I have just been laying around my home and avoiding the outside world if only I could sleep lol I am so tired I feel as if I could sleep for days but I cant manage to stay asleep longer than an hour. being depressed and an insomniac really sucks lol All I really want to do is sleep and shut the world out for awhile Maybe I need to see a doctor. Anyways I will get over it Thank you for letting me vent too smile I am glad we are praying for each other smile
I can't imagine having insomnia night after night. When I can't sleep, sometimes I cry. Though, I'm emotional as it is.... I'm sorry you're not sleeping well, and that you haven't been sleeping much at all. I'll pray that you get some rest soon.
Here's a link for helping insomnia. One interesting thing I learned is that your brain can not like your bedroom anymore because it knows it'll spend the night tossing and turning. Have you tried sleeping on your couch? All of the other suggestions sounded like they wouldn't do much good...What I would try personally if I were having trouble sleeping, is I would get supplements. The two the article above mentioned is melatonin and valerian. Though I would stay away from sleeping pills personally...My mom uses them. Once you start, I think it's hard to sleep without them. I hope this helped :3
Thank you I will try some of these out I hope they work I have been trying advil pm and some wine before bed it helps a little but I am usually very tired the next morning. Thank you for the prayers I will get over all this soon I hope smile
Thank you I will try some of these out I hope they work I have been trying advil pm and some wine before bed it helps a little but I am usually very tired the next morning. Thank you for the prayers I will get over all this soon I hope smile
Are you sick as well? I worry about you taking OTC drugs when you're not sick.. I hope you get some sleep soon. This isn't good, I worry about you
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