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So as of late Ive been having dreams where Ive murdered people, whether I was possessed, or scared out of my mind and in self-defense.

First dream: I ended up possessed by the Devil and I was able to keep a hold on myself for a while so my friends and family could help me find an exorcist but none of them worked and slowly Satan got stronger and stronger until he came out always at night. My friends and family left eventually as they couldn't deal with it and eventually I ended up with four strangers. A Catholic priest, a single mother, a leather daddy, and a Redneck whom I had fallen in love with. Now that I think about, these 4 could be representations of myself. A Catholic priest as I'm currently on a spiritual journey of sorts, a single mother as my mom raised me and my sister while single, the leather daddy as I'm a bit into BDSM, and the Redneck as I do live in the South. Anyways, I won't go into detail but I killed every one of these people in my dream and then killed myself. I was narrating the dream kinda as I was at my grave and an angel came to offer me a way to redeem myself and to fight the darkness but I had to remember first and the entire time I just didn't want to remember. It was like watching a movie on a DVD/Blu-ray Player going through certain parts. I had to watch it all though again to remember. After I remembered, I woke up.

Second dream: For some odd reason, I ended up pissing off the clown mafia. I don't know how or why, but they sent me a note saying it was my time. I ultimately ran to a house next door to mine where a close friend and her family were living in. They don't actually live there, but anyways, they all said they'd help me. My friend's mom kept saying call the police, but I kept telling her they'd be no good. Ultimately, we ended up outside and then a drive by shooting happened with my friend, her brother, and her mom all dead. The clowns came out of one of my friend's vehicle which we nicknamed Chewy and well I ran. I panicked and they invaded the house. I wanna say there were three of them and I killed each one. One by one but then I woke up as I got into my friend's car and drove off.

SO yeah, I normally don't commit murder in my dreams, nor do I usually have nightmares like these two. It was honestly while typing this that I realized that those 4 strangers in the first one represented myself. Huh, but just thought I'd share.