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Alright so I'm pretty sure that this is going to sound a bit weird but I would really like to get this out here and out of my head since I have been sitting on it for a few weeks now.

A few weeks ago, on a Monday in fact, I had just gotten up for the morning to take a friend of mine to work. I was sitting up in bed, trying to wake up quickly, when I had this odd thought pop into my head. I thought to myself, "I should go to a local Funeral Home and volunteer there. Anubis wants me to so I can help get over my fear of death."
I have no clue where that thought came from. I was like half awake and to think something like that so early in the morning so clearly was a shock to me. I didn't have the TV on so there was nothing on TV that brought up the thought. I was dreaming of blackness that night and could remember no dreams.

I have an inkling that this thought might be because my great grandfather, the man who raised me, has been having quite a lot of health issues lately. My grandmother thinks that he will not much longer and wants me to help her prepare. But I straight up told her that if he dies, I will be completely incapable of going to his funeral. Funerals are not something I'm a fan of and I refuse to go to them. My grandmother was really upset by me telling her that I would not help her set up his funeral and that I wouldn't go because I was so scared.

So I think that Anubis might be trying to help me... get use to death so that maybe I won't be so scared anymore....
Maybe?

What are your thoughts?

Its possible. Did you try asking Him?