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(not sure if this is exactly in the right place.)

I posted this in the Sex Ed guild as well, but I want as many varied answers as I can get because this is actually weighing very heavily on my mind lately, like...all day I feel this weird emptiness in my stomach

I can not believe I have shed the shyness that has stricken me for so long to actually post this.

I have been under a completely drastic change as of late when it comes to most things about sex.

I have started actually wanting sex, not just a relationship.
I have been having some really strange thoughts on my own sexuality, which is bizarre seeing as I am a virgin who a month ago would insist I am straight)
I have been a ton more open, and actually looking for people to speak about some kinks I have and the topic of sex/sexuality in general.

Is it bizarre that this all just hit me all of a sudden? It feels so jarring to look back at the last month and how I have changed on a number of things.

It just feels all of a sudden...and how can somebody who has never had sex before start to want it more than usual all of a sudden, then think, maybe men can be added into the equation. I mean, maybe it is great to acknowledge but it is so strange for me. I really don't know if it was triggered by anything or if it was random or even how to feel about myself right now.

I am twenty and sadly not in a relationship currently. It is less a feeling of embarrassed than it is a feeling of confused in all honesty, it all hit at once and I feel like a completely different person. As for when it started, may be coincidental or related but as soon as I started losing weight and doing more things to better myself instead of the things that have been messing with me for years.

Though I am not sure I am attracted to men as much as I am just curious... maybe I am, it is hard to know really, but mainly at this point just curious. Don't worry, you're helping a ton.