So I live like 5 blocks away from my job, its really nice ware I live because the whole town is in walking distance pretty much and all the buses go into the bigger city if need be.
so its a sweet deal right? aside from me hating the bus (I'm saving for a car for multiple reasons) but its annoying walking around every ware.
the main reason & since its the subject of this journal to be physically appealing, people LOOK at you, they check you out or glare at you and I'm very sensitive (6th sense or something?) but I can FEEL there eyes on me, its not only at night when its creepy I've even had the random car pull over, like, right dude I'll just hop in with you hahaha.
and then when I confront a car (usually a fat hairy old guy is in some pick up they are always big white cars I dont know why, thats like the dirty old guys favorite car or something) but before I'm about to cross the street or something and I'll catch them like craning there neck over their steering wheels and so one time I just looked this fat hairy mexican guy right in the face and glared at him.
but it doesn't end, it makes me want to be invisible, I almost want to get fat again and like darken up I think being light skin makes me stick out more.
but getting a car will help with not getting checked out so much I just feel like waring a sign around my neck that says something "for cute age appropriate men only!"
or even better "stop staring at me, your not invisible in your cars!" cause thats exactly what it is.
they just get so shocked when I actually turn there direction and look through the glass at them with like a "shouldn't you be looking at the direction your driving in?" look, it would be funny if I liked attention but I am SO SICK of attention I am probably the most anti social person I have ever met on earth!
