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Hi. Hope it's okay for me to make new topics even if I haven't been accepted yet. sweatdrop

I need some advice, and didn't see a thread about this already. I'm on Abilify, or supposed to be on it. I stopped taking it three days ago. At first I forgot, then I just didn't care. I don't like the meds and what they do to my head.

Thing is, now I'm really manic. I can control it, and I've always been more on the manic side of bipolar. I don't know anyone else who's bipolar, so I don't know who to ask.

Here's my view on all this: I know I might go crazy off the meds, and from what I read checking through the guild a few minutes ago, I probably will. I think I'd rather be crazy than take meds that mess with my head.

So am I just ******** myself over?

I have. I just don't trust my judgement as much. I've made some bad decisions before, especially when I'm manic.

I was considering this when I was on it. I was still very manic on it, though.

I know what you mean about wishing you could just get off the meds and take your chances. I wish that a lot too.

I'd talk to your doctor before going off meds. You never know if you could have massive side effects from going off. Some meds, such as Zyprexa, can have bad effects if you stop them cold-turkey.

I'm on Abilify right now. I hate the stoned effect from it, but I'm hoping it'll start working soon. I've been off meds, and it can get scary. You should really talk to your doctor about this.

I also wish that.

I'm taking Abilify and Zyprexa, and trust me, stopping taking them is almost worse than the side effects. And trust me, I hate the side effects of both.

As for me, I'd take them. That or, as has been said, talk to your psyciatrist and as him to change it.

This is slightly unrelated but... My mom has skitzophrenia. She takes stelozine and respiradol (sp). When I was 11 she stopped takeing her meds and she went completely NUTZ. (She thought she didn't need them, they made her gain a bit of weight..) She took off into the woods in January (our coldest month).. (January 16th, 2001, if I remember right).. It was twenty below celcius that day. She was just wearing her thin PJs. Here's the worst part, she wasn't only endangering herself but also my unborn brother. (she thought that demons were in the house and my stepdad was the devil and all this other worst possible senario stuff) Anyway I followed her running. (myself sock-footed wearing thin pants and a longsleeve shirt [that was the last day I wore pink actually, heh])
Anyway I managed to define in what direction the rod was and to convince her that god wanted her to go in that direction and we hit the road and were picked up by the police and taken to the hospital. Her feet almost had to be amputated and they almost had to abort my brother. We were over a mile into the woods and... Well... let's just say I'll never forget that day. Thank god I'm reasonably intelligent or I would be dead along with my family.
ANYWAY! The point in all this is take your meds for now. You could kill someone or youself or something bad possibly will happen.
Sorry if that sounded too harsh,
Ash

Ok, that's good *pat* *pat*

Amens:

I'm still cycling like crazy. I stopped the meds again for a few days, then the cycles got out of hand. Went back on them two days ago. It didn't seem to help, but then I figured out that I'm PMSing anyway, which amplifies the cycles.

I hope they work.