I'm Cin, a young lass with a fascination with the paranormal and a makeshift system of beliefs. I think, to start out, I might need to tell you a bit about Mortal Theory.
For starters, it's called that because it's an ever changing theory centered around death. There's a nifty little clause about how you should live your life tacked on there at the end that basically say do what you truly believe will help people when you can and be a good person because you know it's the right thing to do. It's not a very demanding moral code. The most potent part is the following: One should learn as much as they can in their life time.
For me, this means I'm going to continue to study spirits and the paranormal until I actually become a spirit, at which point I assume my research will become much easier.
But, Mortal Theory doesn't really deal much in the living. It's more fascinated with the dead, and the spiritual aspects of living creatures.
Mortal Theory
- Humans, animals and some plants each have an astral body.
- These astral bodies generally don't look much at all like the physical body. In fact, they might not even be fully formed. You could be walking around with a blob of loose energy attached to you. Most are well formed, though, and they frequently take the shapes of mythical creatures or demons or other strange beings.
- Astral bodies that are not attached to physical bodies are spirits. These spirits can form a number of ways. For example, they can form into a sentient being from a large amount of energy congregating on itself. Other spirits can give a part of their energy to make a new spirit. Living beings may do the same. Living beings or spirits may find a mass of energy and make it into a new spirit. Or, the astral body can separate from the physical body and become a spirit.
- Once you're a spirit, there are a number of things that can happen to you. You can just sort of lose the energy to hold yourself together and join the masses of swirling energy. Alternately, you could fuse with another spirit and hope your personality and traits were more dominant, though this usually only happens when spirits want to enter a new body. You can enter a new body and live anew, usually with some other spirits that form a whole. Or, if you're strong, you can just remain a spirit.
- If you remain a spirit, you can pretty much do whatever you want. While I'm fairly certain there are rules, I don't know them and no one cares to tell me.
- Spirits exist on another realm. This realm overlaps ours.
- Anyone can sense spirits, if they can just figure out how. It tends to be different for everyone, but usually the trick is in perceiving, more than seeing.
- A person who is very active spiritually might require a guardian. Some people who were active or important in past lives or in the astral realm may have one anyways. Some people may just have one because a spirit wandered across them and thought they looked interesting. Some people may have a spirit that guards them because they cared deeply for the person some time ago.
- Magic is, more than anything, the manipulation of energy. It's highly effective on the astral realm, and can be on the physical realm, though this is much harder.
Well. That was a lot of typing! Let's type some more, I suppose.
My Guardians
A very long time ago, when I was just a very young girl, I'd cry a lot at night. Things scared me. Shadows moved and smiled. I'd get pictures in my head that weren't mine. But there was always some one there, running their fingers through my hair. It helped a bit, even though I couldn't see them. I'd eventually fall asleep.
In a time not so long ago, this person revealed their self to me. I could hear his voice and I knew where he was. I knew he was there to help me. I knew him to be my guardian. He simply refused to show himself properly, though. It just took time, though. Soon, he sent me an image and a name. A boy with red hair and green eyes, sitting awkwardly on a stump in a forest. Tory.
We cared about each other. We tried to protect each other. But there was a lot I didn't understand. There still is, but that's beside the point. He told me things he remembered from his last life. It was a particularly bad one. I got visions of his old house when he was young, and at the current time. Apparently, he visited there. I ended up causing him a lot of trouble and eventually became more than he could deal with, I think. He just sort of left, taking with him another spirit that stayed near my house. Her name was Araya, younger in form than Tory, but much much older in truth than he was.
Tory was aligned with fire. I don't know what he actually was, though. Araya was a sort of Vampire. Not the "I'm a blood-drinking corpse" kind, but the actual kind. They take bits of energy from the living. It helps them stay formed and powerful. They're really common around here.
When Tory left, I basically gave up for a while. I stopped caring about spirits, and ignored most anything I saw. It took the most interesting part of my life away, though, and I had to go back in eventually.
This time, I was smarter, and could better differentiate truth from bullshit. Soon, I found myself face to what I assume was a face with a massive yellow aura. This was to be my new Guardian. His name is Ognd, and he's with me right now, mocking me for the way I'm writing this. He's considerably more chipper than Tory and I believe him to be the same species as me. He's air aligned and has lovely pink hair. Not sure why, but hey. To each his own.
He does a very good job protecting me, much to my annoyance. Usually to do so, he puts seals on my back that feed energy to sorts of shells around my house that keep ghosts out, which not only makes it very hard to sense much of anything, but it also usually keeps out new spirits that I want to question. Not to mention, it puts a stop to pretty much ever doing anything spiritual at my house, further than meditating. And the only reason that still works is because you retreat within yourself, basically.
Present Problems
I'll update on these as updates occur.
1.) My Astral Form
Okay. No clue what I am anymore. I was dubbed a vampire, originally, but that's wrong. I think I'm a wraith, but I look absolutely nothing like any other wraith I have ever seen except for the large, sharp smile. The best I can see, I've turned orange and purple, sprouted two sets of very strange and inflexible wings, an extra set of eyes and arms, and a tail. A friend's guardian dubbed me some sort of Chimera, which was sort of his best guess.
2.) Sieh
So, quite some time ago, another wraith (Petunia) wandered into my dreams. She was wearing a wedding dress and everything was very vividly coloured. I believe she threatened to eat me and called herself a "Vampire Princess". She was.. strange. When I woke, she was still there, with two friends. One of her friends was female, the other male. Neither told me their names, but the male called himself my muse. They hung out for a while and disappeared. In between these times, I learned the other girls name (Lavender, I think. She really didn't talk much and I can't remember her very well) and dubbed the male Xavior, then Sieh. He just sort of laughed at my attempts to name him and would randomly encourage me to draw, at which times I'd produce drawings of a much higher caliber than I was usually capable of. He never gave me any sort of name for himself, so we stuck with the one I'd given him. The problem occurred after the trio had disappeared for a while. I've not seen either of the girls, but Sieh's recently resurfaced. He's very different now. He's not got that lovely calm air about him any more. Now it's one of euphoric rage, and instead of gently nudging me to create art, he's not attempting to cut holes in me and possess me by force. I'm... not sure what the hole was for. It was about a two foot cut down my spine that didn't show up physically. There was another scratch that did show up physically along my stomach that randomly appeared while I was standing on my friends patio. I don't know what happened to him. I don't know what's wrong. I want to help, but his rather sinister intention has Ognd on constant guard, poor guy. We're not particularly sure what he wants, either. I couldn't get him to talk coherently when he first reappeared and I haven't tried contacting him since. I think Ognd's got Rho looking for Petunia and Lavander who might be able to shed some light on what went on, but I have the rather morbid feeling that they're no longer in existence or just as bad off as Sieh. If anyone has any advice on spirit's who've flipped their lid, we'd be very appreciative.
3.) Rho
When we discovered Rho, he was a poorly formed shadow that had basically just pulled itself into a half formed humanoid silhouette. He had no legs. All I could see was a big pointed smile and two white eyes staring up at me from my feet. Initially, it scared me. Badly. But then I realized there wasn't any malicious intent radiating from the thing and that it wasn't even strong enough to have a form. So, being the highly intelligent being I am, I asked it to come home with me. With much help from Ognd, I assume, it came. I gave it as much of my energy as I could manage to force out of me (i really suck at giving energy) and, with more help from Ognd, the thing grew into a he. During this time, I was trying to think of a name. He was originally Juro. He ended up being Rho. He formed legs and a gender, and a meek personality. He ended up being yet another wraith, though I think that has to do with Ognd and I both being Wraiths (theoretically) and feeding him our energy. Or, my energy, as I think Ognd just sort of helped to channel some of it to Rho. The problem here is nothing serious, just something that causes me minor heartache. Ognd has to focus all of his energy keeping our friend-turned-enemy at bay and can't play the balance game anymore at the moment. Therefore, if Rho was to stay around me, I might actually absorb him. I can talk to him on occasion, for short periods of time, but it's not wise for him to be around me. Quite frankly, I miss my little ankle hugger and would like to find a way to better control my constant intake of energy. Or eliminate the threat that is Sieh. But that's not exactly a proper fix to this problem.
Terms
So, a lot of the terms I know are highly inaccurate. I figure I should give my definition so you know what I'm talking about. Feel free to inform me if there's something else in these pages that confuses you.
Wraith - A type of demon that uncontrollably takes in energy from those around them.
Demon - Simply a classification of spirits, with many sub-categories. They tend to have some sort of innate mechanism that draws from, harms, or otherwise creates a parasitic relationship with another being. An example would be a vampire, which is much like a wraith in that it takes energy from other beings, but it actually has control over how much and from who it takes.
By no means am I saying this is right. These are just the labels we put on things while learning because they made the most sense to us.
