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What had he been up to, cleaning his guns mostly. Re-evaluating if Alice really loved him or not. Re-evaluating alot of things really. Well.. all but one thing... Miah. Pip would never question being a father. He wanted to be one, and happy that he was now. Pip just shrugged a light smile on his lips at the thought of his daughter and the simple pleasure of being a baby. How awesome would it be if exploring your crib was the highlight of your day? Ah.. simple life~

"Not'ing really. Been out in t'e garage tinkering, and t'inking. T'at's all. What about you Alice? What a've you been doing all day?" Pip said as he finished up his juice and set his empty glass on the table for a moment. He slipped behind Alice and placed his hands on her shoulders giving her a nice light massage. Hey he still loved her, even if she didnt love him back, and he wouldnt stop showing her what love could be.. if she only shared it with him. "You sleep alright Cherie? You know we should get a bed for t'e guest bedroom, just in case anyone wants to stay t'e night. Or for when Miah gets older and her friends want to 'ave a sleep over." Pip suggested.

Pip hesitated he didnt want to answer that question really. So he just kind of continued the massage and stayed silent for a bit. But it wasnt long before the silence started to bother him and he knew Alice would pry it out of him eventually. "Just.. some worries of mine Cherie.." Pip said gently before he smiled lightly. "I know you love me, but.... sometimes.. i just... eets..." Pip sighed and stopped the massage only to hang his head a bit. She was going to kill him for this. Or worse say that he was right! "I just question sometimes.. if you really do or not. I know your issues with eet Alice. But, you constantly shoot down my advances for i love you's and marriage... eets... a bit disheartening. And sometimes i wonder if you do even love me, or if eets just... i dont know." Pip shook his head and just rested his hands on Alice's shoulders. He let out a long sigh and closed his eye. Well.. she wanted an answer, thats what she got. He almost didnt want to hear her answer him, or yell at him. But it was the truth, lately he had been feeling a bit heartbroken because of all this. It wasnt that they were fighting, or anything of the sort. Honestly things were great between them... well.. to an extent. Pip just wanted an i love you out of Alice, even if only once and awhile. Just something to show that she loved him and just wasnt staying around because she needed help raising Miah.

Great... he had pissed her off. Again. He knew he shouldnt have said anything. She wasnt going to understand, she never would. This was enough for him, but.. he still wanted to hear Alice say that she loved him.... he wanted her to believe in it. But.. It just wasnt going to happen was it? Pip frowned lightly and approached Alice.

"Im sorry.. forget i said anyt'ing.. I didnt mean to upset you. Eet is enough for me." Pip said forcing a bit of a smile. "You are right Alice, Cherie. We are living toget'er, we 'ave a beautiful kid, as beautiful as 'er mot'er." Pip said with a genuine smile as he reached out and gently touched Alice's shoulders. He cupped her chin with his hand and wrapped his arm around Alice's waist pulling her close. "I'm sorry.. eets just sometimes i want to 'ear you say t'at you love me. I want you to believe in eet... but.. i know you won't." Pip said as that sad smile came back. "...And i should just be 'appy with t'at." Pip said before he leaned in and placed a gentle kiss on her lips. It wasnt one of his usually passionate ones, a sign that she would be able to tell something was off about him.

Releasing Alice, Pip had dropped the smile. "Like i said Cherie.. forget i said a t'ing.. everyt'ing is fine." But it wasnt. For Pip, who wanted it all, marriage, the i love you's, the kid, the house, a job, friends. To not have some parts of that, left the Frenchman feeling a bit empty. But he didnt want to upset Alice further. So he kept his mouth shut. He would have to watch what he said, in fear that Alice would leave him if he kept pushing her too much more. She had put up with him long enough, and lately things just seemed to be a deal of convenience. Alice had someone to help her with Miah, or so it was seeming that way with the Frenchman.

Pip frowned when Alice caught him on his lie. He let her speak her mind, it only confirmed alot of his worries. Anything more just wouldnt work. Life isnt romantic. What he wanted wouldnt actually work. Those words hurt.. and they hurt deep. She never did love him, he was just deluding himself into thinking she had. Pip's gaze dropped, while his heart plumpted into the pit of his stomach. She would never love him. So what was he to her? Just a sperm donor and help with the child?

"Oui." Pip said disheartendly as he kept his gaze to the ground. He couldnt look at her, not after her little speech there. "With t'at closed mind and 'eart, eet will never work." Pip said as he met Alice's gaze with his own hurt one. "I cant believe t'at after t'ree years you still wont give eet a chance. After me showing you constantly t'at t'ings can be romantic and loving. I can only keep putting my 'eart out t'ere only to 'ave you t'row it back in my face like t'is, after you stomped on eet. I didnt t'ink i was t'is much of a fool." Pip said irritated as s**t, hurt as hell. He felt like a kicked dog, left for dead by the side of the road by its master. Okay maybe that was a bit extreme but he felt like complete s**t.

Pip shook his head and swallowed the lump in his throat. "I dont know what i am to you t'en. No.. wait i do. Apparently just a persistent burden. 'opeless romantic is right. Because if i continue to love you, and you never love me back... eet really is 'opeless." Pip said before he ran his hand down his braid and shook his head once more. He couldnt believe her. He didnt even want to look at her right now. It would just get him bawling.

"Im going to get a drink.. ill be back later. Ill be sleeping on t'e couch, dont wait up for dinner. T'is fool can manage on 'is own." Pip said in a hurtful tone before he left the kitche, grabbed his coat and headed outside.

-Exit Pip to the Grindhouse-

Well lets be honest, Pip's heart was in shambles about as much as his coordination was at the moment. Why did all the alcohol have to hit him on his walk home?! He was sure Alice would be pissed at him for leaving and pissed for not returning home until. Well the sun was up, so the next day. But he had to return, even if only for the fact that he lived here. And mainly, his main reason for returning back to this quaint little house, Miah.

The apple of his eye. Pip had decided on focusing his efforts on raising Miah more than trying to get Alice to love and marry him. Because that wasn't happening, Tate had helped him get that straight at least. Opening the door, Pip came in as quietly as he could, having not slept at all. But honestly that wasn't too much of a problem. Not when you were an ex-mercenary and night owl to begin with.

Pip locked the door and set his keys on the hook near the front door. It was a great place to keep keys so you didn't lose them. Of course this time instead of successfully slipping the keyring on the hook, Pip managed to fumble the keys he had and they fell to the ground in a melody of noise. So much for a stealthy entrance.

Pip sighed and left the keys were they were. ******** it, he could pick them up later. Or Alice could pick them up and throw them at his head later. Whatever came first, probably the latter. Pip stumbled his way towards the bathroom and slipped inside only to start undressing. some painkillers, a keg of water, a cold shower and seeing his baby girl would do some good. Of course undressing became a bit of a problem with his lack of coordination. His shirt came off pretty easy, but he struggled with his boots and almost panicked when he couldn't get his pants off until he realized he needed to undo his belt first. By the time he had stripped finally, he had just gotten the water running in the shower when he heard signs of life in the hallway just outside the bathroom door. Was Alice going to come in and yell at him? Or wait until he came out to yell at him? If she waited would he be safe if he just stayed in the bathroom for the week?