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 Posted: Mon Feb 14, 2005 12:50 am
Recently I havent been going to school on a regular basis because I felt weak and sick all the time... The most I could go was three days in a row. In the mornings I feel like s**t and at night im fine, and when im around alot of my frends I feel great, happy, and perfectly normal. Alot of times I like "feeding" as the phcyso's say (phycristys SP?) off of drama. Could that be a form of getting enegry off of people? And what do you think I can do to possibly help my weekness which is now becoming an illness. Its funny, my parents dont understand so they think I just keep ditching school, but hey what can I do...
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Posted: Mon Feb 14, 2005 3:36 pm
Vampress-NE- Recently I havent been going to school on a regular basis because I felt weak and sick all the time... The most I could go was three days in a row. In the mornings I feel like s**t and at night im fine, and when im around alot of my frends I feel great, happy, and perfectly normal. Alot of times I like "feeding" as the phcyso's say (phycristys SP?) off of drama. Could that be a form of getting enegry off of people? And what do you think I can do to possibly help my weekness which is now becoming an illness. Its funny, my parents dont understand so they think I just keep ditching school, but hey what can I do... its not the drama that you are feeding off of/ Its the energy created fromteh drama around your life. as you know with psi-vamps and there feeding. We can keep a link to someone and fed off of them at will. In your case it seems that youa re feeding, but then the energy you recieve is being drained from you rather quickly. Resultign in you being sick alot lately. One thing I would suggest is to do a self cleansing of your energies. As you could have been attacked by another psi-vamp out there and its feeding off of youhas left your own self damaged. It does happen. So I would suggest to look into that matter. Then take the neccessary steps to correct it.
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Posted: Mon Feb 14, 2005 6:07 pm
Well its strange because I dont rember my awakening or even if i had one at all... Somtimes I even wonder if I am a vampire at all.. and right now I feel like total s**t...I feel like i need to close my eyes and stay that wayforever! (and no its not like the sleepyness feeling)
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Posted: Mon Feb 14, 2005 6:36 pm
I just thought of somthing... Can you get physically sick from... Sorrow or the longing in your heart such as missing someone or... Wishing you could be with a person who you know cares for you and you know you care for them. But it can never be, or so you think. Ive never felt this way and it hurts and its pratically making me sick. I know what depression feels like but this is way different... Its scary.
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Posted: Tue Feb 15, 2005 9:11 pm
Vampress-NE- I just thought of somthing... Can you get physically sick from... Sorrow or the longing in your heart such as missing someone or... Wishing you could be with a person who you know cares for you and you know you care for them. But it can never be, or so you think. Ive never felt this way and it hurts and its pratically making me sick. I know what depression feels like but this is way different... Its scary. yes actually you can. You ever hear the term he/she died of a broken heart over soemone. Well it is true. I bleieve it to be true anyway. I have seen it happen before. SO I do think it is a possibility.
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Posted: Wed Feb 16, 2005 10:57 am
From what I understand, "dying of a broken heart" is, basically, either:
1. Your immune system weakening due to psychological pain, or
2. The brain convincing itself that it has no more reason to live. It must obey itself, so it dies. This is rare, though, because, most of the time, survival instints come into play before death.
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Posted: Wed Feb 16, 2005 11:19 am
I know the feeling as for you question about awakening, I feel that this may be only the start. I experianced the same thing (all the while with a broken heart, which only worsened the pain/awakening). So what I suggest to you is that you take some time out for yourself... try andfeel better and do some soul searching to find out what you truly are. That is the first step to making life alot better.
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Posted: Wed Feb 16, 2005 4:48 pm
Thanks for all the replies... Its getting bad now this morning in class I almost passed out.. I stood up and my vision got dark and my head grew very heavy.. It got really hot too... Im still really emoationaly broken. I know he loves me but I ponder about it, and I wonder if he loves me to... I want to trust him but I feel like I cant. Im getting sicker by the day, and also I feel as if I have a bottomless stomach I can eat and eat and eat and eat! Its crazy this is not ME!
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Posted: Wed Feb 16, 2005 5:35 pm
Son of Axeman From what I understand, "dying of a broken heart" is, basically, either: 1. Your immune system weakening due to psychological pain, or 2. The brain convincing itself that it has no more reason to live. It must obey itself, so it dies. This is rare, though, because, most of the time, survival instints come into play before death. Some laboratory did a study on this recently and saw that the heart destroys itself because of irregular heart beats or something, thus causing a massive heartattack and death. *runs off to check*
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Posted: Thu Feb 17, 2005 3:24 pm
More news -.- Im devloping amnesia or im crazy @.@ also i forgot waht i was going to say! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.... *runs off and grabs a paper she wrote her symtoms on* ok, im spacing out, the lunch lady was waving her hand in my face cuz i was just standing there waiting to order X.X im getting majorly depressed from my broken heart... im pretending to be happy when im not and I cant think streight.. also I think I know who the other vampire is... one of my best friends, she hasnt had an awakning yet but i feel an aura about her. also how can I do some things to make this situition batter?
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Posted: Thu Feb 17, 2005 8:55 pm
Vampress-NE- More news -.- Im devloping amnesia or im crazy @.@ also i forgot waht i was going to say! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.... *runs off and grabs a paper she wrote her symtoms on* ok, im spacing out, the lunch lady was waving her hand in my face cuz i was just standing there waiting to order X.X im getting majorly depressed from my broken heart... im pretending to be happy when im not and I cant think streight.. also I think I know who the other vampire is... one of my best friends, she hasnt had an awakning yet but i feel an aura about her. also how can I do some things to make this situition batter? I don't think that makes the situation better. But, I am not a vampire, so I am not sure what you are feeling. Perhaps you ought to go with the others on this one.
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Posted: Fri Feb 18, 2005 7:25 pm
Im scared I might get some strange dream in my sleep now... Oh and I can sorta tell the feature in some of my dreams its weird kinda ESP....
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Posted: Tue Mar 01, 2005 10:08 am
Vampress-NE- Recently I havent been going to school on a regular basis because I felt weak and sick all the time... The most I could go was three days in a row. In the mornings I feel like s**t and at night im fine, and when im around alot of my frends I feel great, happy, and perfectly normal. Alot of times I like "feeding" as the phcyso's say (phycristys SP?) off of drama. Could that be a form of getting enegry off of people? And what do you think I can do to possibly help my weekness which is now becoming an illness. Its funny, my parents dont understand so they think I just keep ditching school, but hey what can I do... I'm a psy-vamp.. and forever feel like absolute s**t when I'm at school. When I was up at the bigger HS.. I skipped pretty much a year and a half.. I just couldn't take going in. So I transferred to a smaller one. If I'm around a large group of people too often.. Or not around people enough.. I get lethargic, and that comes along with these killer migraines. The 'drama' within a group of people.. Causes high levels of energy. Especially in, lets say.. a heated discussion where people may not agree with what the other is saying. It's easy to feed off that energy unconsciously.. Just sitting there.. I know I tend to pick it up. Sometimes I'll piss people off, just to get them all worked up, So I can feed off them. As for being able to attend school regularly, Try to block out all the conflict in the area that you can. Don't get involved if you can help it. There's just too many people to even try. - If the lighting is what's bothering you.. and it could be.. see if you can wear a hat.. Or perhaps a pair of tinted glasses. Ask your teacher permission prior to attempting that. - If the sun is too much, pull down the blinds. I always pull down almost all the blinds to keep the sun out of my eyes, before every class I attend. No one says anything about it, I just tell them my eyes are sensitive.. and I get migraines from the sunlight in my eyes. They don't ask any questions. Other than that.. Feel free to PM me if you need anyone to talk with.
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Posted: Tue Mar 01, 2005 10:12 am
Vampress-NE- More news -.- Im devloping amnesia or im crazy @.@ also i forgot waht i was going to say! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.... *runs off and grabs a paper she wrote her symtoms on* ok, im spacing out, the lunch lady was waving her hand in my face cuz i was just standing there waiting to order X.X im getting majorly depressed from my broken heart... im pretending to be happy when im not and I cant think streight.. also I think I know who the other vampire is... one of my best friends, she hasnt had an awakning yet but i feel an aura about her. also how can I do some things to make this situition batter? I'm not sure.. But I know myself.. If there's alot of energy concentrated into one area.. I tend to feel drugged. Like I just smoked a joint or something. ANd I daze off, and don't hear half of what people are saying. It's a matter of learning to control how much energy you're taking in from the people around you. Keep yourself busy, with drawing.. or walking around- perhaps exscuse yourself during a class or two just to walk down the halls.. I do that alot even if it only takes a few mins to do down the hall, and just make like I'm out to get water. Try to get outside the building during lunch if you can, and get some space- That might help.
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Posted: Sat Mar 05, 2005 2:16 pm
Well lets see. I gave a boyfriend now hes my motavation to go to school. Im actually caught between two people but the problem is that the man i REALLY love well... Hes a internet lover... I dont know what to think but having someone I can feed off of now helps.
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