i can sense.
Damnit James. I understand why you always put up massive barriers. And i'm sure that you're doing good and taking care of yourself (poorly...)
It just bothers me okay?
I don't know why or what, but something seems off.
It just feels like you're doing something wrong, going back to the old days.
But i want to trust that you're not...
i really ******** it, i just need to relax.
You'll email me if you want to talk.
Maybe.
I feel like i don't really want to ******** it, i'll just relax and stay quiet for now.
Hopefully you will email me.
slightly optimistic, mostly pessimistic
can you blame me? nope

Venting: completed.