I stand in the grass, wearing my lazy-day outfit of a junky t-shirt and blue jeans. I push aside a loose strand of brown hair which had somehow made its way out of my pony tail to my face. Smiling slightly, I breathe in deeply, letting the smells of spring override my tense mind. I allow myself to unwind and I open my brown eyes.Suddenly, I think about how lucky I am to be living in such a beautiful place. Gazing at the gently swaying trees towering above me, I lift my arms to the sky, where the clouds are drifting away. I give a quick chuckle as I realize that I am assuming that the heavens are "up", or at least, my interpretation of "up". I brush that fact aside and stand quietly, just thinking. Several thoughts pass through my head before I could stop them.
"How lucky am I to be here?"
"I wish he was here to enjoy this with me."
"I wish he was here with me. Just now."
I fight back the urge to cry and my throat tightens. I stop and wipe a tear from my eyes.
There's nothing I can do now. I can't turn back the time to stop him from leaving that morning. I still don't understand, but I can't underestimate God's purpose.
But...if there was one last thing I could do...just for him...
I lower my arms and close my eyes.
I begin to sing.
"How is it over there?
Surely, it's a place that I dont know.
If you find the time,
Write me a letter so I'll know.
Miss you more everyday now,
But I'll always have memories of you in my heart
Making sure that they never fade away,
I think about you always.
Not a cloud in the clear blue sky,
Its not easy to say goodbye, but I must.
Smiling times, mixed with tears I've cried
Whispered softly a lullaby
Not a cloud in the clear blue sky,
Its not easy to say goodbye, but I must.
Smiling times, mixed with tears Ive cried
Whispered softly a lullaby, sayonara…
Maybe someday, I know
We'll meet again, but time is slow.
Watching through winds and snow,
Maybe it's best I let you go.
Watching as the doors closing,
I can feel the separation from you sadly
Wish I could take all this pain away,
And go back to yesterday.
Not a cloud in the clear blue sky,
Its not easy to say goodbye, but I must.
Smiling times, mixed with tears Ive cried
Whispered softly a lullaby
Not a cloud in this dark gray sky,
Growing horse for this lullaby, that I've cried.
World is washed with the tears I've cried,
Screaming sadly final goodbye,
Syonara. Syonara. Syonara…"*
*Saihate: Original by Miku Hatsune, English lyrics by meowmoobaa4anime
**Picture by Sapphirianna
