(The very first night I've had a dream like this was on the night of January 1st. And please keep in mind that this is copied from a notebook, so if some things are repeated, I wrote these at different times. ^^; )
I can't really call it a dream, because I was completely conscious. Happening around 7:30 AM, I was just laying in bed, awake, then I dozed off into a light sleep. The next thing I knew, or what I thought was I opened my eyes to stare at the ceiling light, and hanging from that light was a binder which I keep my magical records in. It fell down on my bed, but I felt nothing. So I willed myself to kick it aside, down onto the floor. Closing my eyes, I began to wonder why it was hanging there, and how it found itself to fall. Thinking it may have been me performing some telekinetic feat, I opened my eyes again, focused on a flag hanging in my room, and all of the sudden the whole of my consciousness shifted to my head (I think), and everything began to ring and buzz (I compare the ring to what I hear when I meditate on the frequency of my consciousness, and the buzz to the energy/prana I can see). In this state, I became overwhelmed by heat and energy. I tried to move, but my entire body was numbed. I literally had to will my arms very slowly to my face, which I touched. I could stop this state from continuing, look at another object and then make it happen again, though nothing telekinetic worked. I tried to speak, but my voice was reduced to a whispering slur. Once the concentration happened uncontrollably, I remembered that willpower was the key to make this all stop, which I felt that primordial flame in my heart and immediately I awoke in the same room. I then realized my arms were under the blankets, and my binder was in the closet. Reflecting, I remembered that I could feel the very blood in my brain. The room was only slightly different from my own, the ceiling light had no cover on it, and there was a piece of paper on my wall I tried to make fall; but alas, it's not there! I didn't try to move when the concentrated state occurred, but I remember even the thoughts in my head; I thought whatever was happening seemed to temporarily paralyze my body, thus the numbing. I remember being super-conscious of my brain, like my face and skull didn't exist.
And again, this was the third time I was in this state. The second dime I didn't even bother to open my eyes, and I went back to 'sleep'.
(February 4th)
Once more I've had this dream.. Though this time it has bothered me. Around 6 AM, I "slipped" into that other place where I opened my eyes a little. I could already feel the energy in my head at this point, so I knew what was about to happen. Again my head exploded with the strange ring-buzz that I can intensify upon straining my head. This time I tried to get up, but I discovered my limbs aren't numb; they are extremely heavy and difficult to move. I humorously tried to 'pedal' my legs, seeing how well I could move them. Not too well if I may say so. It was at this point I took in some of my surroundings, the clock and my computer more notably. The clock, looking exactly the same as in real life, read 2:32 AM. That variable throws me off. I discovered though that through breathing deeply I could stop the explosion of energy in my head to allow me to move slightly. I did this because I noticed my computer was on, so I promptly shut it off once more and then climbed back into bed. Upon laying back down, I remember seeing a figure over my bed area with a prominent head. Completely shrouded in black I immediately began to vibrate the galdor of Elhaz, since I really felt the need for some sort of protection. I could see its shape manifest as the energy in me increased according to my will, then I remember feeling like I was losing the battle of wills. So I brought thurisaz into action (if I might add I remember gathering the energy in like a vacuum so to speak, so when I released it it would be an explosion of its energy), trying to yell it out. But it came out as a slurred whisper, though I remember feeling as if the two energies combined to wrap my form in vines with protective thorns to harm or destroy any negative entities try at me. Closing my eyes, I let myself drift off in confidence that I was safe from whatever I was struggling against. Soon, my mind joined itself with reality, my real eyes opening a few moments after laying back down to discover it was 6:13. Everything in my room was the same, save for my computer desk replaced my dresser so it was right next to my bed. The very peculiar thing is, I could even remember things from THIS world, for instance what time it should have been. I was actually freaking out, and thinking, "This is wrong! It should be 6, but.. Was me laying in bed a dream? Was me waking up at 5 and trying to get back to sleep but a dream, and it is really 2?" My mind worked precisely as it generally does, however the one variable that didn't strike me as unusual was the setup of my room, with my desk out of place. Seemed absolutely normal, where it was. This is the experience I can validate as seeming extremely real.
Now, previous to this experience I had been laying in bed having woken up around 5:22. I was actually WORRYING about experiencing this again while I was trying to drift back off, because the experience isn't too pleasant. Imagine this indescribable ring in your head that had substance to it (It cannot be called a buzz, because there was no buzzing sensation. The closest I can describe it is the ring of energy just exploding in your head-space, the ring itself feeling almost like static.), then having your entire body seem too heavy for you to even move around efficiently. You can move your arms very slowly, move your legs slowly but I wasn't about to stand up and fall down, because in this dream all physical senses were present exactly how they are in the physical world. I know I drifted back off, but I'm not sure where this next part fits in. I was back, same situation with the ring, though I was attempting to breathe this time. I was sitting up, and then my father (he is a master magician) walked through my door, and the thought immediately entered my mind that he was there to help in my dire situation. The only conversation from this part I remember was him confirming he 'could walk like this too', and that he was 'there to ensure my safety'. Someone else entered the room who was completely unknown to me, in fact they were featureless. This individual wasn't here to speak with me, but with my father. Some time passed, and I began to cease breathing to meditate, then the ring began again. (Note that I was still sitting up in bed.) This time, however, I focused all of my being and will to become one with the ring, and then had the impulse to be sitting in my desk, which is on the opposite wall of my bed. I literally felt myself fade and then was sitting on top of my desk, looking at the two talking from that perspective. My father looked at me as if I had accomplished something, though I paid little attention to my other surroundings. I did this more than a couple times, fading between my desk, bed and then my desk again. After this, I closed my eyes, sitting in the lotus position and slipped into what we would call a natural dream. I'm hoping this second part was synonymous to the first part, which I specifically remembered all my senses being present. Because if this is the case, I have much to do and many places to walk next time this happens.
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