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Okay....So my friend "Sarah" told the guy I like that I liked him..Things kinda started going downhill from there.I feel upset that she told because she promised she wouldnt, and now things are a little awkward between me and my crush, and eventually after a few weeks I think he forgot (sadly).But I still cant be the way I used to with him.Lately my other friend "Sydney", has been kind of, I dont know, indirectly flirting with him but in a joking way, and shes kinda taking my place now.She is always hugging him and jokingly saying she loves him and she jokingly proposed to him today.Her and my other friend Sarah (mentioned before) also ran up and jokingly stroked his head and said they loved him.Thing is everybody says she likes him, even though she says she doesnt.My friends say that they would make a perfect couple and say stuff like "wow Sydney really loves "Jerry" (crush)" and somebody (my friend) asked if they were dating.another one of my friends asked her if she liked Jerry.Also my ex sings a song every time he sees them...The chiildish one that goes "Sydney and Jerry sittin in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G!" ect.Then she tells me little things like how so and so said her and Jerry would make a good couple, and another thing she did was she was texting her friend and said If she didnt reply she was gonna make out with guys.Later she texted me 'I have to make out with Jerry =.="

Lately Ive been kinda crying alot (alot of things including this building up on me) and everytime I laugh or smile, I quickly frown again.I know you probably think I shouldnt be worrying about such things, but I can't help it.I somewhat feel like Im slowly dying inside and when Sydney comes around I sometimes space myself away from her cause I dont wanna be around.Help I dont know what to do , I almost can't handle this anymore, but if I say anything she'll just laugh it off and say it was a joke.Then if I keep saying how I dont like it she gets pissed and says I cant take a joke.I just hate it.Help?

Yah, im starting to think I shouldnt tell them who I like anymore.Last time I liked a guy my friend kept saying stuff like how he obviously liked her and said he was afraid of me when I teased him but really liked it when she did, and later on my friends told me he said he liked me.She would always bring it up and I was starting to think she liked him, even though she says she hates him, she just always brought him up.

By the way, only "Sydney" and "sarah" know I like "Jerry".All of my other friends are completely oblivious

Also he doesnt really avoid me, and things are kinda normal now, he still talks to me and stuff, and he didnt really avoid me when he found out cause he was supposed to act like he didnt know, but when they told me they accidentaly told him, it kinda turned into an open topic...sorta.

and so now he knows I know he knows I like him (if that makes any sense hahaha )