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I don't usually talk about things like this out in the open...
Buuut I'm going to tell you what's been going on in my life. Maybe rant a bit, sorry!

For a while now, my mom has had a blood clot in her leg. It's not a tiny clot. No. It's huge and still growing. There is no blood flow whatsoever in her leg. She has a risk of losing her leg, at least that's what she told me. But there's an even greater risk. If anything breaks off from the clot and gets to her heart or brain... Yeah, she could die. And that seriously scares the living hell out of me! It stresses me out knowing each day she could just die. To add on to that...her doctor thinks she may be getting another blood clot in her arm.

So, the house is a complete mess. I've been trying to get it clean everyday... but my efforts aren't good enough it seems. Since mom and dad are both home and out of work, the place is horrible for that reason. Mom can't pick up after herself, and dad just won't. Dad won't because he grew up having mommy do everything for him. His dad was the same way, he had his wife do everything for him, too. And it just pisses me off. He makes messes and plays video games all day. He lost his job a long time ago, and has not made any effort to find a job. And with mom out of work with health issues, yeah, we're pretty low on money.
Why don't I get a job? I have tried. No place will hire me since I haven't gotten my GED yet. I was taking classes...then I couldn't go anymore. I was very close to getting my GED, too. And nobody can take me to my classes. Dad won't, as you noticed he's lazy. And he's selfish, too.. I wish I had a license, but he won't take me to get that either. This is all very frustrating. I'd go up there myself to get it, but I can't. I need a car for the damn driving test. One that meets their standards anyway... I'm just s**t outta luck.

And until I can get my GED and all the fun stuff, I'm still trying my hardest to get into shape. But that's hard to do when I've got other things to do. But I still do it...I just want to become a cop so badly. If I don't get in shape now, I won't be when that time comes. Bwaha. But I'm keeping with it and sticking to it. I've had people tell me I can't do it, and I'll prove them wrong someday. This whole becoming a cop thing really did give me a huge boost of self-esteem.
I had very low self-esteem before. I didn't feel good about myself and I was constantly putting myself down... Not so much anymore. I don't think I've put myself down once since.

My sister recently got engaged. And I was VERY upset to find out her boyfriend got to use my grandmas diamond from her wedding ring... Nobody had talked to me about it, like they should have... But really, I am happy for my sister and I gladly accept her boyfriend into the family now.

So yeah o__o That's what's up.

Thanks for the replies, guys.
My mom still isn't doing so great. The meds she's on makes her feel worse and that's just killing me. And recently, she's not listening and keeps pushing herself too much doing things. That just takes so much out of her and makes her in even more pain... Bah.

As for my dad... I do believe mom should have left him a long time ago. But she loves him, she chose him. I can't change her mind. I do know they have talked about it before in the past, but it hasn't come up since. Today he actually did help me with something. There's a new problem at hand, my best friend and her family are about to be homeless. Dad is helping me find some places, he knows people who rent houses/apartments out. So there's something GOOD he did! But I wish he'd be a little nicer to mom, too...

That friend I just talked about, she's my only friend here in town. Haha, I'm not good at keeping friends. And she can't drive either. She'll be 20 this year and her mom is scared to let her drive still. We've both got problems and we're there for each other, and that's good...
@SoraKat I didn't know they reserved cars for tests? ._. I should call up and see. If they do...HELL, I'LL WALK TO THE DMV.

I'm glad ya'll saw the ring thing how I did... I'm still pretty brought down about that.

And I am still trying my hardest. n.n I'm not listening to people who tell me I can't do things anymore.