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so my mom grounded me for giving my number to this guy online and lying about it. I guess i kinda deserve it but shes super duper nosy. If im texting, she'll randomly look at a text or she'll go through my texts. It drives me crazy. I knoe i shudnt have given him my number but she took away my cell phone and my ipod. cell phone i understand why but my ipod....thats ridiculous. I used to have a cutting problem and music really helps. especially when she constantly insults me and screams at me. And that guy i was talking to, he helped me with my problems. Hes my bf and now we have no way of communication and im just hoping he doesnt cheat on me. I knoe people are gonna think im crazy because I used to cut but that was my way of coping. I got molested, abused by my father once, constantly put down by both parents, etc. I've had a hard life and taking away my ipod is like taking away my source of happiness

I don't want to be the barer of bad news, but that's pretty routine Parent stuff. (The taking away of things and punishment etc.) I understand the music bit though. When I lived with my mother, she waited until I was in the bath and stole my cellular phone (Which served as my Mp3 player) and my very expensive headphones - which were gifted to me by a friend - Seemingly for no reason.

I've kept my online life a secret from my parents, as well as most of my friends, and even my boyfriend.
It's not the way things should be, but a lifetime of abuse and deceit breeds that kind of behaviour into people....

It's just how your parents are. What you're doing is EXTREMELY Radical for them (in the literal-sense) It's really shocking, and they just can't handle it.
As for your name, I understand why they'd be upset. They Gave you that name, that name makes you personal to them and changing it is like turning your back on them. I went through a similar phase, where I assumed my middle name because of how much I "hated" my name. It was just recently that I realized I like my name very much.

Anyways, if you remain true to your feelings then they'll have to get used to it, because that's just who you are.