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I'm in a totally emo mood tonight. Which is weird because I'm almost never emo. But whatevs I really, really miss home right now so lets talk about it! Because if I'm going to be emo the least I can do is make the guild seem more active at the same time smile

I've been in Germany for 2 and a half months now. And Germany is super cool. I really like it here. My city, Luneburg, is soooooo adorable its amazing. It just had its 1000th birthday last year, and it never got bombed or had any crazy fire or anything all old cities seem to have, so all the buildings are hundreds of years old and they look sooo cool. And traveling around Germany and to other countries is fun. Except to Belgium. Belgium and me have a hate-hate relationship, dont go there D< But besides Belgium being in Deutschland is pretty cool.

Except I really, really, really miss America. And home. I really miss my dog. And my parents. And my brothers even. And my friends. And a lot of other stuff.

I really miss familiarity. I miss it soooo much. Seeing new things is great, but when you only ever see new things... not so great D: To me at least. Even things that APPEAR familiar arent. Like fruit loops! Sure the box is in German which is weird, but when you get past that its the same, right? WRONG. They're pentagon shaped. Wtf, right? And its like that with EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING is different. Nothing is the same. D: I just want some sameness sometimes, you know? Even ******** mac and cheese. They dont have it in Germany but my dad mailed me some ( heart ) but it doesnt taste the same bc the milk is different here.

Another thing I miss - TV!! DD: SO MUCH. I dont have one where I live so I cant even watch German tv. And I try to watch online but my internet is sooo bad and its such a pain to find places to watch it, because I can not legit watch American tv online when I'm in Germany. I've found a few sites where I can try to watch, if my internet isnt acting up, but they keep missing episodes and links are always broken so its a b***h. I bought Glee on iTunes when I got here - the 1st and 2nd season, and thats all the TV I get. And I cant fall asleep without a tv on, its ridiculous how many times I've watched each ep of Glee. TV shouldnt be important but it really is. Its like home. South Park and Glee are the only shows I can manage to watch here (God Bless South Park, its free and up to date and legit). I watch Glee every day so its not a big deal, but South Park is like a huuuge comfort to me every time I watch it. Its like being at home smile <3 I wish I could watch more TV so I could feel more like that. Though maybe I would get addicted and that would suck....

My computer. I bought it in Germany because my laptop was broken. It, obviously, has a German keyboard. When I first got it I changed the keyboard back and forth from English to German, but then it got stuck on English, which would be fine except the keys are in different places. Muscle memory is awesome, but if I hesitate for a second and think about it I have no clue where certain keys are and its a b***h to find them, Especially , . ; ) _ ( * _ & $ % ^ # all those kinds of keys. AND its also annoying bc while my keyboard is stuck in English the rest of my computer is in German which is a b***h. Its Windows 7 too, which I never had before, so I cant even just remember where certain things are because I've never used Windows 7 before. So annoying. I want to go home to my normal computer.

CONVENIANCE. In sooo many ways do I miss it. SO MANY. Nothing but restaurants are open on Sundays. Everything closes by 4pm on Saturdays and 8pm the rest of the week. Not even grocery stores are open outside of those hours. If I want a snack on a Friday at 5pm I have to wait until Monday morning to get it. They dont even have convienance stores here.

And buses. That would be annoying in America too, if I didnt have a car. But I do have a car in America. I miss being able to drive places and not have to wait around forever. Usually the wait isnt longer than 20min but still... and on Saturdays and Sundays its a lot longer.

Money. I miss having a job. I dont like working but I like getting money. Thats not an option here. You need to speak German to work in Germany and my German is not good enough. I've only been learning it for 2 and a half months. Thats not very long.

ENGLISH. The the biggest convienance of all that I miss. Every day I have to work at EVERYTHING. Nothing is easy. I want to go back to an English speaking country ;____; When I went to Scotland it was like the most magical thing EVER. It was sooo easy and so awesome. Its no wonder I fell it love with it the instant I got there.

Its not even like I dont get English in Germany. I get plenty, I'm in a class full of Americans, all my friends are American, I hear English all the time. But its not enough. Because while I have people to talk english to all my surroundings are in German and I cant just only talk to my friends, there are other people I have to talk to, like bus drivers, waiters, cashiers, etc. And then its all in German. And I have to buy things and decide what to buy even though I have no clue what it says. Like medicine! I have a german-english dictionary but omggg buying cold medicine was so difficult.

Ugh. I am so ready to go home. I'm here until May but I'm going home for a few weeks for Christmas. Only 33 days. I can make it! D:

You're in Germany? That's actually rather awesome. =D

You'll get the hang of the language as long as you keep at it. I think it'll be easier since it's spoken all around you instead of trying to locate a Stammtisch near you to practice at. Or trying to learn all on your own, either.

I must say, I'm insanely envious of you right now. Mein Deutsch ist nicht gut -- I wouldn't be able to talk to people very well. I would understand what people are saying and things I read, but I wouldn't be able to speak with anyone. D:

Heh, yeah, it is noticably more awesome that you're online a lot more from my perspective razz

Glad to see you're happy again smile

YES! Ahaha South Park is the most fun thing ever! And I'm pretty sure its the only show Germany gets the same time as America <3 Because its just too awesome to wait for, obviously. Its fun, I never really like the Professor Chaos episodes, but I looooove Coon & Friends.