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last saturday and sunday
my closest friends blew me off two nights in a row to go drink and some of them even doing drugs
and they know how much i hate it right
plus on saturday, i was THERE when they were doing it
and it just pissed me off a lot
so i kinda just walked home in the rain from the party
but later that night i was just like "okay whatever that's who they are"
but the next day i was supposed to hang out with them
hand out candy/go trick or treating/just hang out whatever
but i got there late and most of them were gone
guess where they went? yeah they went drinking and doing drugs
so i was with 3 of my other friends who don't do those things
but the rest of the night was boring and i was just sad and mad and i hated everything for the rest of the night
i more mad then sad then the other night because this night they KNEW they were hanging out with me. and they still chose drinking over me. like honestly what the ******** night i wanted to completely shut them out
i unfollowed them all on tumblr (i told most of them about tumblr and then they all got it wtf)
i set it so they couldn't see my profile on facebook and i couldn't see their posts (all their statuses were like "I LOVE EVERYONE!1!!!!" and their profile pictures were all drunk photos and stuff.)
and one of my closest friends, jen, i had to delete her off like every website i was on because we have so much in common and stuff
i didn't want to see their name or be reminded of them ever because i didn't want to miss them

so that week at school i think two people asked me why i was sad or mad or whatever
and i told them because my best friends blew me off for drinking and smoking.
but the next day one of the drinking people messaged me on facebook saying like
"why did you tell everybody we were all smoking weed on halloween. that's stupid and pathetic." or something along the lines of that.
and in my head i just wanted to say
everybody? no, i told two people that actually cared about me to ask what was wrong. and i'm stupid and pathetic? i wasn't spreading rumors on purpose but that's what people told me you were doing so that's what i told other people.
but i said
i'm sorry for not asking you first but that's what (the other three people who were there before me) told me.
she said that she'll need to clear that up tomorrow with them or something

so it's the end of the school week
and i've thought about thing a lot
and i just don't really care anymore
i think my friends are the most important thing to me right now
and i honestly can even go another day without them

but tianna and jen both deleted me off of facebook and i really didn't understand why.
i figure they're done with me so i don't really want them back either you know?
i deleted them on everything else only because i didn't want to see their faces or their names or anything.
they probably deleted me because i was """"sPrEaDiNg RuMoRs!!!!""""

but sierra kept me on facebook
and i refollowed her on tumblr and i'm pretty sure she got the message that i'm better now because we kinda talked a bit
but not about what happened that weekend, just like a normal conversation like nothing happened.

tianna and jen though
i don't know
they chose drinking over me twice in a row
they don't want to be friends with me anymore
they're done with me
i'm done with them

right?


well that's all
maybe give me your take on the situation
or something
idk
i feel like telling people things sometimes
the end

Yeah if your friends are going to choose drinking over you then they arn't your friends. wink
I think the only reason they deleted you on facebook though, was because you deleted them on tumblr (and whatever else you ignored them on) so they felt it only fair. idk i don't know the situation, either that or they couldn't stand seeing you knowing, that they made the wrong decision, but they don't want to admit it.
But other than that hopefully your real friends will help support you in this odd time.

oh my god

it's like your a ******** girl

get rid of these niggas they aint really your niggas they so wack they need drinking n drugs to have a good time ***** you dont need them you and me frellster we got the music we got the lord praise jesus