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 Posted: Tue Nov 02, 2010 11:29 am
so I go from being one of the more
active members to not posting at all this last week.
SO much s**t has happened to me, that I don't know where
to begin.
I've mostly just been working, going to school
and spending time with my close friends,
but I've also been doing a lot of thinking.
About myself, about my future, about what I'm doing with myself.
And...
I realized something.
Over the last... gee, I dunno, 4 years? I've allowed sex
to pretty much run my love life.
To pretty much run MY life.
It's become incorporated into my personality.
The way I speak, talk, walk, dress...
and for what?
For an hour or two of intercourse?
It's normal for people my age to have sex, s**t
it's normal for a lot of girls my age to ACT like me.
I don't even have to be dating a dude for me to have sex with him,
I've just become so desensitized to it, that it's almost like a normal bodily function.
Sex is supposed to be intimacy between lovers.
It shouldn't be considered equal to walking or breathing.
I... really think it's time for a change.
I've finally met a guy, that I seriously want a future with and
it's time for me to grow up and get my priorities straight.
I'm taking a trip to Italy soon, and I have been saving up and getting
myself ready for it.
It's supposed to be a trip about spending time with relatives
that I haven't seen in over a decade. About taking my great grandparents
to the vatican, so they can make peace before it's their time to go.
Want to know what I was most excited for?
Being able to go out to bars without a fake, and ******** as many italian guys
I could in the two and a half weeks we spent there.
HAHAHAHAHAHA
Terrible right?
I really can't respect myself if I keep acting this way.
There's a time for everything, and I'm pretty sure the time
for me to be a party hard college kid is up.
I'm done with sleeping around.
I'm done with being a slut.
This guy means a lot to me, and I need to start respecting
myself the way he's been respecting me.
I'm changing.
I'm going celibate.
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Posted: Wed Nov 03, 2010 3:39 am
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Posted: Wed Nov 03, 2010 8:12 am
IKR?
It's like a complete 360
personality change.
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Posted: Wed Nov 03, 2010 8:43 pm
Just because you're going to be doing it with only one person does not mean you have to stop doing it, or enjoying it, or getting crazy with it or what ever.
Don't stop enjoying yourself, but it's good that you're trying to change your image to make yourself feel better.
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Posted: Fri Nov 05, 2010 11:11 am
Uh, I need more details on WHY you want to stop or are considering it.
It could just be hormones babe.
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Posted: Fri Nov 05, 2010 1:34 pm
Sex should be happy and satisfying. So if you no longer feel that way, go with your gut. There's no shame in being celibate, just like there should be no shame in sex. Do what's best for you--can't no one tell you what that is but you.
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Posted: Sat Nov 06, 2010 8:18 am
Rissid Lady Sex should be happy and satisfying. So if you no longer feel that way, go with your gut. There's no shame in being celibate, just like there should be no shame in sex. Do what's best for you--can't no one tell you what that is but you. there's shame in sex when she's fat or if your drunk
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Posted: Sat Nov 06, 2010 8:53 pm
We aren't going to date, for a while.
He and I are both getting ready to move
back to the mother land of Baltimore, so it'll
be a year to year and a half before we can actually be a couple.
We dated like, years and years ago, when we were children.
Things between us were... interesting, but since we
broke up we've matured a lot and some s**t has happened.
He isn't into casual sex anymore, something really ******** it up
for him so he feels that it shouldn't be considered such a nonchalant act.
He knows that I had sex on a regular basis, the last couple of dudes
I slept with I wasn't even dating, and I feel like he's kind of... disappointed in me.
He says he isn't, but I can just tell.
I like sex, a lot, and I always will.
I just don't like the fact that I'm so sexually driven you know?
Especially if it means that it'll just hurt him.
I'm REALLY hoping that things change once he and I get back
together because I mean, s**t it's only been a couple of days
and I'm already craving some action lololololol...
I'm terrible.
gonk
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Posted: Sun Nov 07, 2010 11:41 pm
I knew there was a reason you stopped to think about it, chica....
I think you're just not ready to commit to anyone. Or you haven't had a reason to commit to anyone.
You have hormones about. Enjoy it but have common sense about it.
Nothing irks me more than a girl who does s**t she knows she'll openly regrett the next day and get still keeps at it. You just had one of those moments where you stopped to consider if you should keep at it.
If you know this is what you want and it keeps you content and willing to put yourself out there. Well, baby. No one is stopping you. cool
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