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idk
i just feel
sad
a lot
sad and mad

i was like
reading about symptoms or whatever
and just like
lack of interest in stuff
just
not feeling
good
ever

well
i'm happy a lot
but then when things happen
or when i actually think about stuff
i get sad and mad and just don't feel like doing anything
i just want to lie down
watch tv or something
just be in the company of something that will speak towards me
feel like someone is there
but nobody really is

idk
i think i'm happy
but
i also just
always
get
not happy
very often
like not just sad
but like

i hate everything kill me kill everyone leave me alone but stay with me but i don't want you near me but i need you but i don't want to need you

is that depression
or is that just
teenage
sad
ness

How long have you felt this way for? And could you describe the sadness more then just sad, please?

Little bro, depression is so much more than the "symptoms" television ads tell you.

First off, everyone feels those regardless of if they have clinical depression or not. To me it just sounds like you're going through a rough time, and some teenage emotional s**t. Which still sucks, but it's better than having to get medication.

I waited almost too long to talk to my doctor about depression, though. When you get so bad that you're memorizing the suicide notes you'll leave, and s**t, yeah pretty bad. I'm on medication now that helps knock some of the s**t off, but it doesn't fix everything. I'm still unhappy more than I'd like to be, I still have extreme thoughts, and I still struggle with self worth, but at least I can finally get out of bed in the morning. So medication doesn't just fix everything, is what I'm trying to get at.

Goddamn sorry for the novel Frellybro. Anyway, just try getting out of your usual norm. Me finally going to school and having a different schedule helped me feel a lot better. Maybe try some new hobbies that get you out of the house on a regular basis. :]

I hope you feel better regardless. <33333

Pretty much just settles it for me that you're just going through situational s**t. You'll be cool when life settles back down.

Meet some new people and explore new things.

It seems to me like you're angsting pretty hard.

when i was your age or younger ishh I angsted pretty bad too. it got me pretty bad most of the time. like i'm pretty sure at one point every other thread i made in tloem was angsting.


but basically what bio said.

also, i can only speak from experience, & my experience is that i found my real friends and I stopped worrying about life. and now i'm loads happier :]

Nah, man.

Clinical depression isn't just "I write notes about killing myself" or tendency to want to jump off a building every time you're on one. No one can say they're much worse than you or that you can't be depressed because you're not as "feeling down" as them. That's one of the main problems in today's society and leaves a lot of people untreated because they feel as though they should have to deal with it by themselves.

Your problems are just as just as real as theirs. And you shouldn't have to face them alone if it comes to the point that it is overbearing.

You will have your up and downs in your life. That's normal, especially during the teen years. However, if it gets the point where IT INTERFERES WITH YOUR LIFE and everyday activities, I would recommend getting help. Talking to someone, a "true friend", teacher, parents, counselor, to help you with your everyday stress. That doesn't necessarily mean you are depressed, but it does help relieve some of your stress so it doesn't get worse. But if you start noticing that all you want to do is sleep/not sleep, eat/not eat, have sudden outburts of crying fits etc. etc. See a doctor because honestly, no one can diagnose s**t. That's why we have doctors.

I'll tell you what I tell everyone who feels down, things happen for a reason and s**t could be worse. But man, you have every right to complain as anyone else.

Wasn't directing it at you, babe.