this is a srs thread
but
i need answers now so
..
sorry
edit: i don't even actually have any questions
i'm just stupid ok
tl;dr (for this little back story) i'm talking to my friends tomorrow about problems
Kinda back story type thing?
umm yeah
on tumblr there was this thing
where it was this challenge thing and it was like
day 1: 10 things about yourself
and for two of them
i said
my friends treat me like crap
sometimes i like my internet friends more than real life friends
and my friends have tumblr so they read it
and when i went to my friend's house last night
one of them said something about it
and i told them how they treat me like crap and they deny everything obviously
i went into the washroom to call my mom to pick me up cause they were watching a scary movie (i hate scary movies, aka not thinking of me yet again.)
so my friend madison came and talked to me about things
and then we cried a bit
and then i went home
then my friend talia talked about things with me
right now like 20 minutes ago
and
i told her
we needed to talk
in real life
with a few of the others
so we are trying to do it tomorrow
on tumblr there was this thing
where it was this challenge thing and it was like
day 1: 10 things about yourself
and for two of them
i said
my friends treat me like crap
sometimes i like my internet friends more than real life friends
and my friends have tumblr so they read it
and when i went to my friend's house last night
one of them said something about it
and i told them how they treat me like crap and they deny everything obviously
i went into the washroom to call my mom to pick me up cause they were watching a scary movie (i hate scary movies, aka not thinking of me yet again.)
so my friend madison came and talked to me about things
and then we cried a bit
and then i went home
then my friend talia talked about things with me
right now like 20 minutes ago
and
i told her
we needed to talk
in real life
with a few of the others
so we are trying to do it tomorrow
i want to talk about their drinking
and problems
with our friendship
or whatever
and what i really want to say
is
to choose between their 'fun'
or me
but i don't want them to
because they're gonna choose their fun
and not me
but i kinda do
because i just.. don't want to be friends with these kind of people
they know that i hate this
they've known it for a few years
i don't know what to do
cause
my friends are everything
even though i hate them
i can't live without them
i know when you get older or whatever you make new friends and you won't have anybody for a while
but right now
high school
friends are all you have
i don't even know what the point of this thread is
but
help me?
some how?
i think i might be depressed a bit
i don't want to say that just for attention or whatever
but you know
some days i just feel like crap
i don't feel like moving or doing anything
i feel like nobody wants me
i feel like i should be dead
is that depression?
i don't know
that's only sometimes
but i'm always pretending i'm happy
i mean i am happy
but when i actually think of things i end up not happy
i hate when i post srs things here
because it ends up really long and terrible and i feel like you guys don't really care cause you don't
i still don't know what the point of this was
tl;dr i have lots of problems, nobody cares about me.
sorry for making this thread this is stupid i hate everything
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