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Faded pictures. Memories going by so fast. Too fast for my liking. No longer the young child I once was, playing among the flowers in the garden. No longer do I sit on the swing for hours, watching the clouds slowly make their way past on a windy summer day. I’ve led a good life. I know that now. I’ve laughed. I’ve cried. I’ve lived my life to its fullest.

Still, I can’t help feeling a tinge of regret as I go through my past. I never did go skydiving. I never wrote that book. I never said goodbye to my mother. There are a lot of people I didn’t say goodbye to. How I wish I could see them now. I was wrong to be in a fight with my brother. It is my relationship with him that gives me the most anguish over not being able to fix. But I can’t change that now. My time for fixing things is over.

Sitting here, alone on this cold, damp floor, I’ve come to realize my mistake. I shut them all out. My life has been so… so… empty. I’ve been empty. I haven’t had a family in so long. I’ve forgotten what it meant. I have forgotten what it’s like to be loved.

Now I am going to die here. Alone. Unloved. I certainly gave myself a good life. Yeah right. Who am I kidding? I am worthless. I am friendless. I am dirt. It’s a fitting end for me here in wherever I am. I don’t deserve any better. No one cares about me and rightfully so. I am the modern day Scrooge. It’s amazing how long it’s taken me to admit it, but now I do. If only my mouth wasn’t taped over, that’s what I’d be screaming. Not help me. I’d scream about how I’d wasted my life. I’d warn others about my hateful lifestyle. I’d tell them to save themselves.

It’s amazing how revelations come to you. It’s taken a glimpse of a gun to my head to figure it out. Now I have. Now it’s too late. There’s no point squirming. His finger’s on the trigger. I cringe. A bang. It’s over.

Faded pictures. Memories going by so fast. Too fast for my liking. Then it’s over.

All over.

Thanks! I forgot I put this one up here... Oh well! Glad you enjoyed the character. It is kind of dark, but it is my first serious short story. Every other one I wrote is silly and very wrong grammatically speaking.