family;

[rewolftsohg]

i love this guild.
i don't feel hawked by some forum nazi, and everyone's so friendly and out there.
it's my internet home.
there's the kind of people in guilds who joined and probably forget they ever did.
and there's the people who frequently check in the guild, and greet everyone or interact and it's cool.
it's comforting. geeky: beyond comprehension...but i love it.

if you're the kind of person who's dedicated to this guild, than post here.
i will claim you as my virtual family.
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OTHERWISE, i'm a philosopher of my own kind.
i like to think and write or draw out my feelings, thoughts and ideas.
whatever it is that's on your mind, tell me.
post your ideas, or thoughts or whatever it is in that brain of yours.
i love to connect with people and get a feel for who they are, and their character.

even if you need someone to talk to, i'm all ears.

much love,
mandy

 

[rewolftsohg]

i'm the kind of girl who seperates herself from everyone else, because the world in her imagination is far better than the one she actually lives in.
the one i live in has been plagued with depression for as far back as childhood.
i am diagnosed with depression. it really does change my life.
my outlook on life, and other little things in this world, i see as morose.
i don't mean for things to be this way, but that's life.
thinking deeply into life in all of it's aspects, i feel a bitter sadness.
this world is all kinds of messed up and it's all in-comprehensive to me.
i've been lied to, cheated on, physically and mentally abused, used.
and all of this made me the girl i am today.
it's as if i'm ready for pain. but it also makes me strong because i made it through, all in all.
i'm not trying to spit a sob story. i'm just sharing my life, and how precious it is, even if there's parts of it that dampens how you feel or think or whatnot.
currently, i am disappointed, and my feelings are reduced to feelings without a definition.
they're just lingering.
i'm hurt. i'm confused. i'm disheartened.
and i guess years of all of this pain inflicted upon me had just rendered me uncaring and helpless. i'm living a life i lost feeling and care for.
i want things to change. there have been moments in my life where i'd been so happy and proud. i just want that feeling. my brain is tired. i don't want to think. i don't want to know things, because from what i know, it brings me down. i don't want any help or any pity or gifts. i just want to feel love and anything at all.
WHEW. THAT FELT GOOD TO LET OUT;