[Tears of Blood] Kyle Rain's Journal

[TheCheesecakeBandit]

Kyle started writing in this journal on the 17th of Apis, year 10 of the 7th era, year of the Metal Unicorn. So Kyle was but a young child, only eight years of age. Only the important parts have been restored, the rest erased to be used for more space for future entries in his life of the Tears of Blood mercenary's.  

[TheCheesecakeBandit]

Day: 17th
Month: Apis
Year: 10
Era: 7th
Age: 8

Mummy gave this to me today, she said I should write everything and anything in this book. She said it was like a diary or a journal or something and that I should write the date and my age and all that just in case I need to look over things in the future...don't know why mummy asked me to do that. My mummy wrote my name on the front for me. She also told me if I have any strange dreams I should write them in here also, to help me remember them. I am a little confused about why she wants me to do so, but I will do it anyway, because I am a good little boy!

Anyway, today we went out for lunch at the local store-place, the food there was very yummy, but not as yummy as mummy's cooking! The lady that works there seems to know my parents a lot, I think she is a family friend or something, she sometimes comes over to the house and chats with my parents, but I am always in my room because my parents tell me to stay in there when she is around. They were talking quietly as I ate, looking over at me every now and then. One point I was staring and my food missed my mouth, mummy lent over and cleaned it up for me, saying I was a silly little boy for ignoring where the fork went. Then she laughed, she has a nice laugh, makes me smile a lot.

Later on during the day the doctor came around again, checking my heart rate, looking at my eyes, looking down my throat and some other weird tests. I listen to as much as I can understand, I want to become a doctor when I grow up! One that works for the King in the mercenary's! My dad always laughs at me when I say that, saying I should not plan so far ahead at my age, and that I was destined to be a locksmith like him. But I am not as strong as my daddy, he is like super strong!

...I just remembered something. I think it was a dream I had last night, cause I woke up at the middle of the night again, screaming. Don't know why, but I saw something...like a grave? I don't know, it is fuzzy, I wonder if I will see it again...hopefully not, I don't like nightmares!

I am off to bed now, mummy is saying I have been up for too long, I guess she is right, she is always right!  

[TheCheesecakeBandit]

Day: 20th
Month: Ma
Year: 10
Era: 7th
Age: 8

This is the first time since Apis that I have had this dream. I was very scary, I remember it very well. I was wondering around this graveyard, and it was dark and very evil like, scary too, and there were these tome-stones and on them had names, of family members and people that I have met. It was really weird because only a few of them WERE dead! The one's that scared my the most though was of the one's that had my mummy's and daddy's name on them. I started crying and I fell to the floor, crying, calling for mummy and daddy. Then they showed up, telling me to wake up and it was just a dream. Then I woke up. It was morning and my parents were just getting up also, cause I heard their feet on the ground in there room, since it was not far from my room. I then got up to tell mummy about it, and every little detail. She stood there and nodded and pulled me into a hug, patting my head, saying it was just a dream, over and over.

Later on in the day, the doctor came around again and the lady from the store. He ran his normal tests and did a new one, he took some of my blood in a syringe and said he would run some tests on it. I was confused, but did not ask anything of it, after all the doctor knows best. The other woman was looking at me with a strange look on her face. It was very weird, she then turned to my parents and offered to take me to the church for some reason. They agreed and I went with her, my mummy coming too. It was alright, but the people there were giving me an evil look. I asked mummy why they are doing that, but she did not answer, told me to just take it in, and ignore them. We walked up to the priest and the lady spoke quietly to him, he looked at me and the reached forward for my head, grabbing it. He screamed out something in some other language and stared deep into my eyes. It scared me and I started to cry, my mummy holding me again.

She turned and said that this was enough and took me away, the priest and all the people all screaming weird words in another language at me. After that my mummy said she was sorry for putting me through that and took me out for some ice-cream. I told her it was fine, after all she was always right! This made her smile, a smile that seemed different, like a sad one...I hope mummy is okay.

For dinner daddy cooked, he is a good cook too, but he does not cook often, he only does when mummy has been through a lot during the day and that he feels that she should be the one looked after, and not him. This was when I noticed, that my parents eye colour is different. My daddy has bright blue eye's and my mummy has dark brown eyes, but I have one eye green and the other grey. I asked this and they said that is was a genetic thing, and stopped talking about it. So I let it pass and helped with the dishes and here I am writing away!

I think it is time for me to go to bed though, I am getting sleepy.  

[TheCheesecakeBandit]

Day: 1st
Month: Mars
Year: 15
Era: 7th
Age: 13

Thirteen, a teenager! Finally, my parents said I was old enough to enrol at one of the mercenary schools! I am so excited, I have been reading anything I can get my hand on that may give me a hand, I borrowed so many books from the library on healing magic and alchemy, even normal medical books like the ones the doctor reads! He was nice enough to lend me a few so I could study up on it. He seemed a little strange that I wanted to help people, and asked me why do I want to join the mercenary's even though they even kill people? I responded that some people need help none the less, even if they are the enemy, and not everyone should be killed right away, there is no need to damn one's self so fast. I think he was still confused, but lent me the books anyway. So I have been spending days reading them, same with the ones from the library.

Now...the dreams...They are getting worse and worse and worse. I have seen things in there, weird looking objects. I spoke about it to my mother a few times, but she keeps saying it was just a dream. I don't think so any more, they have been the same for far too long to be 'just a dream'. I spoke to father about it too, but he does the same thing as mother. I also found out I have been forbidden from walking anywhere near the churches, which is not normal also. And, in a book I read, there was something in there that reminded me of my dreams, but I could only make out some of it, because the rest of it was scribbled over with a thick marker to cover it up. All I could make out was "xer's subconsciousness is a graveyard", and I have read that sometimes one's dreams are called the person's subconsciousness. So I went to the librarian to ask what that part was about and looked at it and said, "It is nothing". Took the book from me and then I never saw it again. I was really confused. I wonder if I can find information on whatever that was soon.

The woman from the restaurant came around today also. She walked over to me after speaking with my parents a little, grabbed my chin and squeezed my cheeks, looking deep into my eyes. Her stare was like ice, it hurt to look at her. When she finally let go and turned to my mother and father, she said, without hiding what she spoke about for once and said "It is too late, he is damned with your grotesque family disease" She said the last part to my mother. I asked what was that all about and what disease and she told me to be quiet and go to my room. This woman...I don't like her, and I like most people. I want to find out what my parents are talking about with her, I want to know what disease is in my family, I want to know what does that woman have to do with our family...I guess I will have to just get over the fact I am not going to find out. Oh well, in about a year from now I should be leaving to which ever school accepts me. I just hope I don't have to kill anyone...but something...something deep inside me...wants me to kill people...I don't know why, it is like I am hungry for something. Seems stupid, I will stick to the way I think is right!

Oops, I am up too late again, I should be going to bed now...but I don't want to sleep...maybe I will look up some formulas to help with sleep deprivation so I don't have to sleep any more and see that place...yeah...that seems like a good idea, I will start looking in that new alchemy book I got today...Hmm...I wonder how hard it would be to make.