So this guy that I was talking to is always seeking attention.
I don't even know why I put up with it in the first place, but I did.
Then I'm having one of those days when all I want to do is lay there
in the dark, in a miniscule ball, and not have to face the world,
and what does he do? Turn into a total jerk off. I mean seriously...
Because I took one moment of his precious limelight he has to be a jerk.
So I stop texting him because of course this is happening on my phone.
After spamming my inbox for a good hour he finally asks what's wrong,
to which I reply it's none of his business and no offense, you wouldn't understand.
This pisses him off and he goes off on a rant about how his grandfather died when he was seven.
Yeah thanks. I was sad because I was missing my little sister, which only
happens like all the time, but I have to deal with it and pretend nothing is wrong.
So I tell him not to compare his situation with mine because in no way is
a grandfather the same as a sister. And he's like yeah you're right.
He was like my dad and blah blah blah blah blah. Pretty much putting me down.
I just feel dreadful now because I didn't even want to talk to him, I just
wanted him to stop being rude and then he was more rude.
I don't want pity and I don't want people to pretend they understand
or put other people down or try to outdo people with deaths.
That's not even right...I can't wait to leave these people behind.
And to top it all off, we did not get snow tonight.
And to top that all off, at my pageant meeting the girls sitting behind me
called me fat and made fun of my clothing, which is great because
I'm really self conscious and try to pretend I'm not but really I am all the time.
So I lied to myself and pretended that the only reason they were making
fun of my shirt was because it was my college shirt from HPU,
which is farther than any of them will ever travel.
And the only reason I looked fat was because they sent me a large
because they thought I was an adult since I have so many college credits,
but really I'm just a little teenager who hasn't even turned 18 yet.
And now that that's all out of my system, I'm going to bed.
Tomorrow will be better; exchanging gifts with my best friend,
going out to dinner and a movie, spending the night, and then going to a
music video shooting. :3
I don't even know why I put up with it in the first place, but I did.
Then I'm having one of those days when all I want to do is lay there
in the dark, in a miniscule ball, and not have to face the world,
and what does he do? Turn into a total jerk off. I mean seriously...
Because I took one moment of his precious limelight he has to be a jerk.
So I stop texting him because of course this is happening on my phone.
After spamming my inbox for a good hour he finally asks what's wrong,
to which I reply it's none of his business and no offense, you wouldn't understand.
This pisses him off and he goes off on a rant about how his grandfather died when he was seven.
Yeah thanks. I was sad because I was missing my little sister, which only
happens like all the time, but I have to deal with it and pretend nothing is wrong.
So I tell him not to compare his situation with mine because in no way is
a grandfather the same as a sister. And he's like yeah you're right.
He was like my dad and blah blah blah blah blah. Pretty much putting me down.
I just feel dreadful now because I didn't even want to talk to him, I just
wanted him to stop being rude and then he was more rude.
I don't want pity and I don't want people to pretend they understand
or put other people down or try to outdo people with deaths.
That's not even right...I can't wait to leave these people behind.
And to top it all off, we did not get snow tonight.
And to top that all off, at my pageant meeting the girls sitting behind me
called me fat and made fun of my clothing, which is great because
I'm really self conscious and try to pretend I'm not but really I am all the time.
So I lied to myself and pretended that the only reason they were making
fun of my shirt was because it was my college shirt from HPU,
which is farther than any of them will ever travel.
And the only reason I looked fat was because they sent me a large
because they thought I was an adult since I have so many college credits,
but really I'm just a little teenager who hasn't even turned 18 yet.
And now that that's all out of my system, I'm going to bed.
Tomorrow will be better; exchanging gifts with my best friend,
going out to dinner and a movie, spending the night, and then going to a
music video shooting. :3
