Okay, I really love kenpo... I've been in it since I was 10, and I'm currently a second degree brown belt. I really enjoy the things I learn and the workouts I get from each class.
But here's the thing... I've been wanting to quit for the longest time.
Don't get me wrong; I have nothing against kenpo or the school. It's just, I have a yearly contract that I go by, and it costs a lot of money... Money I could use for the things that would get me closer to achieving my dream of becoming a professional musician and recording artist (i.e. Guitar and piano lessons, recording studio sessions, etc).
It's a very hard decision to make on whether I want to renew the contract or not, because my Shihan stresses how important it is to not give up, and how easy it is to just quit, on a practical daily basis. I feel like if I stop going, everyone at the school will be ashamed of me, and I don't want that. I'm also afraid I will be ashamed of myself for not reaching black belt.
But I want it so bad, the things I need to reach my dream career... But again, even if I will use all of the fitness and self defense techniques I learned after I quit, I'm afraid that everyone will be ashamed of me, including me.
If anyone can give me some good advice, I would appreciate it more than you'll ever know. sweatdrop
But here's the thing... I've been wanting to quit for the longest time.
Don't get me wrong; I have nothing against kenpo or the school. It's just, I have a yearly contract that I go by, and it costs a lot of money... Money I could use for the things that would get me closer to achieving my dream of becoming a professional musician and recording artist (i.e. Guitar and piano lessons, recording studio sessions, etc).
It's a very hard decision to make on whether I want to renew the contract or not, because my Shihan stresses how important it is to not give up, and how easy it is to just quit, on a practical daily basis. I feel like if I stop going, everyone at the school will be ashamed of me, and I don't want that. I'm also afraid I will be ashamed of myself for not reaching black belt.
But I want it so bad, the things I need to reach my dream career... But again, even if I will use all of the fitness and self defense techniques I learned after I quit, I'm afraid that everyone will be ashamed of me, including me.
If anyone can give me some good advice, I would appreciate it more than you'll ever know. sweatdrop
