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I have never done anything with a guy, and I have only ever kissed a girl (my best friend and I were joking around). I have never done drugs or drank alcohol. The worst thing I have ever done is smoke cigarettes. I tend to have a very perverted mind/humor, so when people find this stuff out, they tend to be shocked. And I'm not exactly proud of it (only the part about not having done anything with a guy or girl). I kinda wanna maybe try pot and/or vodka just because I have a bunch of friends that have and I just wanna know what its like. But I'm a little iffy about the whole alcohol thing because my family is full of alcoholics.

If you haven't hit up drugs or alcohol yet, that is a very good thing. Trust me. However, maybe it is best if you learn what it's all about hands-on. If you're going to try alcohol, drink small amounts. If you're going to do drugs, again only do them in small amounts, but stay faaaaaaaaar away from meth and heroine.

If you want to do something with a guy or a girl, you have to be sure you're ready. It's not easy to say "no" when it gets goin.

Aw! Honey I'm sorry about your relationship predicament... I would suggest that you not commit anything to either one of them yet, and just wait a while. It will help you keep a level head and keep you from making impulse decisions.

Now about the other stuff. It actually a really good thing that your clean from almost everything. Once you try weed, shrooms, alcohol, sex, etc... its kinda hard to stop. Drugs mess with your system and especially your brain.

I know weed DEFINITELY gives you short term memory loss. It sucks. I used to remember things waay easier but now I have to actually pay attention in class instead of just reading through the chapter we're on.

Shrooms just MESS YOU UP. They are NOT GOOD. Don't go anywhere NEAR them. They taste disgusting, they're ROTTING MUSHROOMS, they could have maggots in them, and they're expensive as all hell. (Excuse my language here if it offends you please.)

Alcohol is a major depressant. If you try it and then like the flavor, your never going to stop drinking it. If you try it and then have too much and get really drunk, then you're gonna love it and its gonna be really hard for you to stop.

If you ever try any of the above things I won't judge you, I've done them too. I just ask that you get online and TALK TO ONE OF US and stay out of trouble. You need to be honest about when (if) you try these things so that we can help you not get caught and so that we can help you deal with the effects. You can even call me. Pm me or later I'll pm you and let you know my home phone number, and as soon as I get a new cell phone that number. My home phone though is shared by 4 people so if I don't pick up or if I do pick up but don't know who you are, say to my family that you're looking for "Jessi". If they ask why, say you need something for school. We don't have caller I.D. so they won't know the number. If I pick up or once I get to the phone, let me know that you're abnormalchicksta666 from Gaiaonline and that you need help. I'll help you as much as I can.

Now sex is something else. I am describing sex in this topic right here as kissing, hugging, sex of course, and basically any sexual contact. Once you get it the first time, if you like it, you can never get enough. Thats why people masturbate and things like that. I would suggest waiting until you're completely sure your ready to start feeling emotions (or lust, being what you think is an emotion but isn't really a true one) that you've never experienced anything ever before like it. If you have any questions about anything just ask.

Also. DO NOT TRY METH, HEROINE, CRACK, OR COKE. These are VERY bad drugs and if you get started on these, there may be no saving you.

Best of luck hon, and remember. What your friends do should have no influence on what you do. Be an individual. In this world of Wacko's, there is No Such Thing As Normal. Don't give in to peer pressure.

-Shaky/Jessi

I have AMAZING news. Ashley told me that she loves me. And I asked her if she loved me in the same way that I love her. And she said ... "I can only hope that you do cause one day, I wanna hear church bells and see you walk towards me on an isle that makes you glow love, and doves fly around and roses fall by your feet as a sweet girl puts the petals on the ground for you and me. That is the way I love you!!!" smile

That is great!!! I really hope it works out for you! *hugs*
Many congrats are in order then ^^

2 weeks ago I found out that Ashley was writing love letters and poems to another girl. I broke up with her.

That's a pretty b***h move, and I sort of think she should be beaten with lead pipes... just my personal opinion.

Alright, so there was this girl who, out of no where, started posting homophobic stuff on my facebook. I defended my beliefs, but eventually I was like "Whatever. think what you want." She then got 2 homophobic friends, and they ganged up on me through private message. I blocked them, and 10 minutes later I got a message from a fake facebook saying that someone was going to "beat the f** lover out of me"...