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ok, so this is a SuzaLulu story that I started on, if there are any problems that you can see in it tell me & I'll be happy to fix them. My rateing I'm gonna say maybe T- lol it's not for little kids ... later but then again it doesn't have a whole lot of cussing




As Suzaku looked out the window of his room in the palace he sighed. Things were different now with Lelouch as Emperor, but most were better. The rebellion was over now, & the best thing that Suzaku could think of at the moment of being his best friend’s knight was that he could spend more time with the beautiful ebony haired boy. Though Suzaku would never tell Lelouch how he really felt about him, he was still undeniably in love with him. Sure, the older one did question some of Suzaku’s actions, but he didn’t seem to be set off by them, & Suzaku silently thanked him for it. Sometimes, when there wasn’t anything for the brunette to do, & his prince – well Emperor now, but Lelouch would always be Suzaku’s beautiful prince – had work to do, he’d hang on him from behind, resting his head on the other’s perfect shoulder, just breathing in his intoxicating lavender sent, & listen to his gorgeous mellow voice mumble distorted things about the papers in front of him. If he could, Suzaku would have helped his prince with his work, but Lelouch always answered with the same thing-“It’s part of my job, Suzaku, not yours, & besides, no offence, (which. when you say “no offence” people are usually going to take offence & Suzaku knew Lelouch was smart enough to know that.) but I don’t think you’d get it.” He’d chuckle slightly after that, flash a quick half grin & then go back to his work. Suzaku sighed, walked over to his bed, sat down, & then fell backwards. It was two O’clock in the morning, too early to be awake, & Suzaku knew it. But he couldn’t shake the feeling that maybe, just maybe, that there was a need for him somewhere. But that was stupid, Lelouch had gone to bed hours ago & Nunnally … he wasn’t sure where Nunnally had gone. Nunnally wasn’t his to protect. Though he wished he could, protecting Lelouch was a full time job. With that said, Suzaku took off his shirt that he’d been in all day. – It had been a long day & Suzaku hadn’t felt like undressing for bed until then. – finally feeling that maybe he would be able to sleep now, deciding that he didn’t mind sleeping in his underwear he took off his sweat pants too, though instead of climbing under his covers, he just laid there.
“Maybe I should tell him.” He mumbled to himself. Then he heard a quiet tap on his door.
“Suzaku … Are you asleep?” came Lelouch’s voice from the other side. Suzaku sucked in a quiet gasp. ‘Speak of the devil’ he thought to himself. “Stupid. Of course he’s asleep; it’s two in the morning. What sane person is up at this ungodly hour?”He heard Lelouch mumble to himself on the other side. Suzaku quickly jumped from his bed to the door only to find that Lelouch had left already, though he did happen to see him turn the end of the hall. ‘Wait, Lelouch. Don’t go, I’m here, what do you need?’ is what he wanted to say but all that would come from his mouth was silence. Suzaku’s face fell, he had just been thinking about the gorgeous man & how to tell him about how he felt & there had been the best time to tell him, without him having any distractions or anyone there to listen in, & he had to wimp out at the last minute. Some brave knight he was; couldn’t even tell the man he loved that he loved him, how was he going to protect him if he couldn’t tell his closest friend the truth of his half of their relationship? It just wasn’t a good thing.
“Dammit” Suzaku cursed himself quietly under his breath. “That was pathetic.” He went back into his room closing his door quietly so as not to wake anyone else up. Went over to his bed & sat down again. Maybe he’d be able to come up with something in the morning if he wasn’t totally exhausted, & with that he laid back, closed his eyes, & tried to sleep … tried being the key word. No matter how hard he tried, sleep just wouldn’t come. It had been an hour & still Suzaku wasn’t even the least bit drowsy. He lifted his hands to his head taking in fistfuls of his curly brown locks & pulled. “AAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG” he growled to himself. “Why can’t I sleep?!”He asked himself a little louder than he had intended. He held his breath as a light came on in the hall, some spilling into the dark room from the small crack under his door. When the light turned off he let out a soft sigh of relief. That was close.

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The New Emperor started to pace his room. Something was preventing him from sleeping. No matter what he couldn’t find out why, & it bothered the boy to no ends. Lelouch hated many things, Britannia (sp?), calling the Japanese “11’s” it was degrading, not being in control, & most of all having a problem he couldn’t find the answer to. Along with many others but that was just a few. That one though, was towards the top of Lelouch’s hate list.
“Maybe you’re just suffering from insomnia.” Was C.C’s explanation. “I mean really, all the things that you’ve done as Zero have to catch up to you sooner or later. Maybe this is the way your subconscious has decided to tell you that what you’ve been doing is wrong.”
“I Doubt it C.C, I mean really if I was going to break down it would have happened already. &, besides my body wouldn’t choose insomnia to punish me. I need my sleep … otherwise I get kinda cranky.” The had been prince bowed his head slightly blushing at the childishness of what he’d just said. Most 17 – 18 year-olds were able to stay up one night without side-effects the next day. But it was true for Lelouch, because he wasn’t much for physical things his brain needed to be nourished as much as possible meaning food for thought & a lot of sleep. That was the way he’d always been. Sure he’d skipped a few nights of sleep before but the next day he had always been a little snippety & for an Emperor that was not a good quality to have. The Ebony haired boy finally decided that if he kept pacing he’d wear a hole through the beautiful floral designed carpet floor, so he went & sat down at his desk leaning on his elbows & laying his head in his hands. What could his problem be? Maybe Suzaku would have an Idea on what to do; he always gave Lelouch great advice. Well it was worth a shot so Lelouch stood up from his chair, grabbed his slippers – tile hallways were cold at night - & headed out the door, down the hall to Suzaku’s room. He knocked on the door once when he got there, “Suzaku … are you awake?” The Ebony haired boy asked then spying the time his eyes widened two in the morning?! It had been ten just a few minutes ago hadn’t it? “Stupid. Of course he’s asleep; it’s two in the morning. What sane person is up at this ungodly hour?”He cursed himself quietly before quickly & quietly leaving for his own room again. Once there, C.C looked to him.
“I thought you were going to talk to Suzaku. That was quick.”
“Did you know how late it was? It’s two in the morning; I figured he’d be asleep.”
“So? You’re an Emperor, can’t you like order him to wake up or something?” Lelouch growled slightly.
“I wouldn’t do that to Suzaku!”She looked at him.
“& why is that? You have no trouble telling other people what to do, & isn’t Suzaku’s job to listen to you him being your Knight & all.”
“Other people are one thing, Nunnally, & Suzaku are another. I’d never force Suzaku to do anything.”
“You ordered him to live with your geass. How is telling him to wake up when you want to talk to him different? If anything that’s better.”C.C tells him.
“… “Lelouch wasn’t able to answer that. Damn that which, she knew how to mess with him, & he knew she did it only to entertain herself. She liked to see him squirm in discomfort.
“Or maybe there’s something else that we haven’t considered … maybe you can’t make him do anything else because you love him.”
“Of course I love him; I love him like a brother.” The Dark haired boy answers quickly.
“Not like that. I mean maybe you Love him, as in like a lover not a brother.”Lelouch just looked at her like she was mad.
“What?”He whispers. “T – That’s crazy, I don’t love Suzaku! He’s my best friend for crying out loud. & if you hadn’t noticed, he’s a boy too!”
“So? If anything that just means that you’re gay. Nothing too bad.”C.C shrugs.

ok so that was chapter one, the others will be up soon ... I hope

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