"family forever" reason i think whenever i think about it

[Nikka Lovin]

like the song
Eminem - beautiful the lyrics kinda represent me right now i had alot of fun alot of friends and alot of fun =] but lately i did some mistakes irl dat affected some of my friends online and they beraly wanna talk to me and dont talk to me like "family" im realy depresed and even tornloy and maniac arent there for me because they are busy but i really do miss everyone and i want to make friends that will stay and not leave =[
thnks for reading

Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everyone has a private friends
Where they can communicate
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me, and I'm reaching out for you
I'm just so fu-ckin' depressed
I just can seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump
I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up
And the right thing for me to pick that mic back up
I don't know how I pry away
And I ended up in this position I'm in
I starting to feel distant again
So I decided just to beat this pain
Up and tried to make an attempt to vent
But I just can't admit
Or come to grips, with the fact that
I may be done with rap
I need a new outlet