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Fearing for the future…
Wondering what will be…
I never claimed to matter…
I guess I’ll just wait and see…
What I once held important…
Just an apparition now…
Lost its gleam in the light…
But still, I can’t dome down…
I am just a dreamer…
Idealist to the core…
X-ray leaves me wanting…
Still I want to see more…
A creeping, seething sensation…
A reeling away from the pain…
I bury myself in others…
In a physical kind of game…

Falling to the floor…
I want something more…
I don’t want a chore…
Don’t want to save my soul…
Falling to my knee’s…
Give me the disease…
Don’t make me say please…
Please don’t make me plead..

Cringing at the mirror…
I don’t like what I see…
An egotistic faker…
Loathing and vanity…
An open wound that lingers…
That stings when I least expect…
One day it’ll heal completely…
But it hasn’t happened yet…
A question posed in anger…
Is just regret in the making…
Forsaken in the limelight…
A heart for the taking…
I dwell in silver lining…
Cuz I can’t face reality…
I hate myself, but think I’m perfect…
How’s that for duality…