Too late I realized what was going on. I didn't see how my soul was fading away. Just slowly fading away into nothing.
My broken heart has bled out for far too long. I ******** things up. I've been so blind. The pain inside I can no longer hide.
My heart,my soul;so bruised and sore. My mind is lost in an ever-deepening void.

How could I let this happen?
I trying to be strong,I've lost it all.
How could I pretend for so long?
I just ignored it,hoping it would go away.
How could I have been so weak?
I've made myself become undone.
How could I be so pathetic?
All chances are lost;it's all for naught.

Now I breathe
But I'm not alive.
And I'll never be.

Yet I cannot say it's all my fault,as I fall,exhausted and distraught.
For I've spent so much time,just so much energy,to try and fix my life,revive my soul;only to see it all fall apart in a manner of seconds.
All gone in the blink of an eye. These situations make me ask just how many things can go wrong at once.
Makes me wonder why I even bother trying to live.

How could I let this happen?
In trying to be strong,I've lost it all.
How could I pretend for so long?
I just ignored it.Did I hope it would go away?
How could I have been so weak?
I've let myself become undone.
How could I be so pathetic?
All chances are lost;it's all for naught.

Now I breathe
But I'm not alive.
And I'll never be.
So why do I try to turn it around,to rebuild my whole existence?
There's no hope for me,I'll never be free.
And even though I know this,I'll still try to fix it.
Will I ever learn?

How could I let this happen?
How could I pretend?
How could I be so weak?
I've lost it all. I have destroyed myself. All hope is lost.

And now I breathe
But I'm not alive.
Still I'll try to be.
Even if I fail,I will have tried.

I would sacrifice it all for one moment of life.