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What's the worst thing you've ever done while you were depressed? What makes your depressiveness all better?

The worst thing I've ever done wasn't really all that bad, I guess. After all, it didn't really harm anyone. It just really scared me and my boyfriend. I had this enemy who is now a fairly good friend of mine. Once, when she still hated me with a fiery passion, my boyfriend and I were talking about this hatred over the phone. We were talking about all the rumors she was spreading (about me being pregnant with another guy's baby) and I just broke down. I was scaring myself. I was making up stories about how I'd kill her and stuff like that. Zach, my boyfriend, became unbelievably worried about me. He even told me that if I kept doing it or it ever happened again he'd tell someone and get me some help. I didn't want that to happen, but whenever I tried to stop doing it, I just kept going.
I eventually stopped, and haven't done it since. That was sometime around summer last year.
What makes everything all better for me is Zach. He's my sanity, yet he's my insanity. Insanity in a good way, of course. I love him for it.

Well...
A lot of those times are pretty faded in my mind. I have a s**t a** memory, and can hardly remember what I did last week.
Eh, but cutting would have to be the worst. I have a few that should have had stitches, but, no one ever knew about them, so I didn't get any.
I'm not really violent, and have never threatened other people.
When my parents first found out about the si and s**t, they brought me to the doctor. I kind of flipped out, and started screaming at all three of them. "NO I WONT ******** SIT DOWN! I'M ******** SICK OF EVERYTHING!" etc. etc. The doctor sent my parents out, and then threatened to call the police and have me hospitalised.
That really pissed me off.... confused

worst for me was before i got diagnosed. i had become so depressed that i was suicidal. i was becoming violent, but not towards others. i was violent against myself. i would tell friends how i wanted to die by throwing myself out the window. well, just one friend really who never seemed to take me seriously. i actually lost a friend who actually said to me that i wasn't suicidal because i didn't cut. now that is the stupidest thing in the world. anywayz, worst thing i've done is become violently suicidal.

I cut die into my wrist once. xp

Owie...

ive done.. alot of bad things. ive almost killed myself countless times, im not into taht anymore, i think. ive hurt other people, like just giene nus on them or whatever. ive hurt people mentally toyed with them untill tehy just brokee down, manipulate dthem taht way, and i dont eblive in regret so i cnat say i feel i shouldnt ahve done any thing i did. but no matter what i did, or felt, even when i blew up at my own love, hes the only thing on earth tahts ever relaly been able to make me feel better, and hes not bipolar but if we were over or i was gone dead, whatever, hed kill himself, even if heont say it starit out, so we really need eachotehr i geuss ^^

I just cut myselfe till the blood is starting to drip down on the floor. I used to scare the s**t out of my frinds and abuse the mentally.

Worst thing ever was cutting my wrist. That was 3 years ago, back when I was really suicidal. I'm not anymore, but even though I don't want to die I still wonder on the occasion "who would miss me if I did?"

A lot of things make me feel better, but I'd say the one person who can almost always make things better in less than 10 minutes is my best guy friend.

Of course there are times when I just want to be mad and he wont leave me alone. sweatdrop